So yeah. When did you first realize, and because of what (like a crush, etc.)? For me it was last summer, when I realized the evidence was just piled way too high in the queer corner of things. And by that, I realized that my whole life pointed to the fact that I was a lesbian, from kissing that one girl and liking it, to those greek statues at the Metropolitan Museum of Art (the female ones). I"t hit me like a ton of bricks," is the phrase I believe I should use here.