Since I got out of a relationship with a fiance I had for 4 years, i've been hooking up with random women to fill the empty void in my heart. i've forgotten how to care and respect a women. i would only use the women who were worth something to stick around and who cared for me to get to the next women i would cheat with. i was becoming, and stilll am, really a worthless piece of shit. but then one night i couldnt stop the thoughts in my mind from taking over and i allowed myself to hear what my head had tried to tell me many times.

Is it right to date a confused Christian women?

Should I stay and believe she loves me

or should I stay and wait for what

some say will be the inevitable

outcome;

for once in my life, well im only 16, but i just want to be in a decent relationship. i say things like that all the time but when i find someone i turn them away. i dont know what my problem is and i just need someone to talk to and someone who will listen