I love you. I know I can't ever tell you.. not again. And I can't ever tell anyone. I love Dina. I'm with Dina. And I'm happy with Dina. But I love you.

I can't stand hiding this. Last time you seemed fine at the prospect of me having feelings for you. I just couldn't accept them fully.

You know, maybe I'm "bi" or whatever. I don't know. All I know is I love you. I always will. I have for the last year and a half. I've lied to you, my family, Dina and myself.

I am in love with Dina and I do want to spend the rest of my life with her. I just also will always love you.

I've decided to not get any more "new" nicknames. I already have like 4 thanks to the "Anti-cheese-thieves" group. one thing they thought would be really funny is to call me and 5 other friends sykes "because there's 5 letters in it". that's basically how i got this nickname :-\

so about their naming 'fetish'... i should really make a chart of some sort :D