Something I wrote

We stand
lifting our hands
for rights
so far away
no one can see them yet
i run away
scared at night
because who i am
who i decide not to hide
is there open
ready for the attack
ready to die
ready to bring light on the cause
ready
but tired
can't sleep
running away
from who i thought you would be
seems family isn't what it is cracked up to be

I'm dating this girl named Jackie. I like her, and my feelings are growing. We were dating off and on for two weeks and had a 1 1/2 week break and then we started dating again.

I get so jealous because she talks about other girls AND guys all the time, and doesn't show me much affection. And when we're in public she pays more attention to everyone that's not me. I hate it.

SQUEE! Heh. I went to pride yesterday. I had fun. ^^

Money makes za world go around! LOL Sorry I LOVE that movie (Cabaret)!!!!! so yeah what to talk about???

Sometimes it's like hitting your head against a brick wall. Every day there's some news story about yet another bunch of homophobes trying to destroy us.

my own hypocrisy is ending.

this sounds really stupid, but i don't care. i was doing some myspace survey and it asked me what i had on my desktop. (it's a sexy picture of kate beckinsale from underworld....mmmmm....) and usually i wouldn't have said that, because i'm too afraid of exposing myself. i had a bad experience with too much exposure last year....

but i realized something. i fight for gay visibility and gay rights all day, but i don't apply them to myself for fear of losing my friends.