The world. I'm getting tired of it. I swear that no one realizes what's really going on. No nevermind. They know. Most everyone is aware of all the shits that been going on everywhere. Just no one comprehends it. If you watch the news... most often, you see something about a damn war, someone got raped, murdered, whatever. Sure, there are some happy stories like people getting help and everything but for those stories to happen... something bad had to happen first or someone had to be struggling. And people my age. Like wtfff.

For the first time in a long, long while, I feel pretty good on a level deeper than mere fleeting enjoyment and present mirth. Sure, I've not been too down recently, but I haven't had this sense that I do now, this sense that my life is actually, fundamentally okay.

I am not speaking
but am not dumb.

I am not making love
but am not impotent.

I am not moving forward
but am not creeping back.

I am not thinking
but am not thoughtless at all.

I am not looking
but am not blind.

I am tired of living
but am not tired of life.

I am not with you
but am not without you.

I will take
a time to coil

and then as a snake
I will strike

at the heart
of the tyranny.

Watch out for me
- my name is democracy!

so recently the univ or richmond ran this letter in their student paper:

http://www.thecollegianur.com/2009/01/29/letter-from-the-closet/

i think it captures some feelings of those who are still in the closet.

Thoughts anyone?