Jesus, I don't know if this is just hormones or my brain being extra fucked up tonight but I've been sitting here for the last ten minutes basically having a panic attack because there are so many things I hate about myself. Which is a disgusting cliche, and I really should be over this sort of thing, I've spent lots of time reassuring myself that I am logically not a fuckup of a person and reassuring other people that they are not fuckups and the sheer irrationality of this is fucking humiliating.