My innocence is breaking. That feeling of young love and bursting feeling is disintegrating into memories where people find it later in their lives wondering what had happened.

My friend Josh and I have been hanging out a lot the past couple of months and as a result I've picked up being a social smoker. I know the risks and that it will kill me but BY GOD does it make me feel better. I mean I can feel like complete shit, stressed out the eyeballs but as soon as I put the cigarette on my lips I start feeling better.