Again I'm on my itouch again... I find this is probably a good way for me to keep my journal entries short. Orientation was good. I loved seeing everyone again it was awesome it felt like all the high schools combined into a mega high school. I went to the orientation for law students... And there were already two people I knew in my eight person group... It was pretty cool. I'm not too sure who I'd be the closest to in university though. Right now I'm just enjoying the new change. The law people seem a little arrogant though.
So I'm typing this entry with my itouch right now it's a little slow but I'm just lying in bed haven't been able to sleep for the past few hours... And it's really annoying.
Having a few issues and just can't get them out of my head. So frustrated... And this keyboard's so small...
I really need to sleep. I've seriously been neglecting my health lately. I need to stop drinking... And orientation for university is tomorrow morning, and I'm stil up feeling all weird. I'm a bit of a mess
I'm in love. I'm not.
On Wednesday, the day I arrived back in New Zealand, I went out like I said I would. I was tired. I hadn't slept on the plane. But I didn't want to stay in my room, I wanted to be free, to be with my friends and forgetting things.
There was this new guy in our group. Let's call him M. My mates met him during the holiday. It was his party that Wednesday. When I met him, he said J told him a lot about me, nice things. I said same here. He reminds me of B, someone I had a crush on - but so much more chilled.
Remember the three-hour long national exams and the five extra scholarship exams I was complaining about in December?
I got all five of them. That's $6000.
Statistics and Modelling.
Except... I still could've done better.
I have to say I was very encouraged by the comments I received in my last entry... I was starting to think I'm a little too grown-up for this site. That at eighteen, I'm no longer like the slightly younger crowd such as swimmerguy and ferrets, and neither part of the older mentoring bunch that belongs to jeff, pat and ox. For a while, I did feel a little displaced. Yet the irony is, I have been here since I was thirteen or fourteen, and I could identify with the issues faced by the younger crowd; and starting to gain the insight of the latter. But somehow I felt stuck in the middle.
Hey everybody! I'm in Taiwan now, sitting at a restaurant with internet... I don't have it at my house. I'm drinking this lemon honey drink and eating deep fried mushrooms. They're not as nice as it looks on the menu.
Saying goodbye is so hard.
I'm packing for my flight to Taiwan tomorrow. I'll be away from New Zealand for over a month. By then a lot of friends will be off to other places in New Zealand like Christchurch or Wellington, or places as far as Australia, France or Israel. So I've been pretty busy (and early) with saying my goodbyes.
2010, what an ugly number. Is it twenty-ten? Or two-thousand and ten? Or simply o-ten? But o-ten that would make the year 2007, double-o-seven. I think it's twenty-ten.
Boucing to Adam Lambert on my headphones. Fringe too long. My new year resolution? Screw that. Only last year my resolution was so different. I remember "wishing" for an amazing boy to come into my life. Yes, my resolutions were more empty wishes than commitments. Well, looking at that now it's such a silly thing to want. I've certainly changed a lot - at least in terms of how I look at my relationships.
Got a shirt that says "Gone to my happy place... back in ten minutes".
So it's a few hours past midnight. I thought I'd go for a run, I almost did but then I refrained myself. I wanted to feel the breeze brushing against my face, traversing down the gentle slope of my street, and listening to the stillness of the night. But it's late. It's dark. And it's not safe. I know of people who have been jumped in the park near my house. But somehow the risk of it all excited me. It made me want to do it even more.
Just because my timezone is like 12 hours ahead of everybody's...
Have a good one! I should go to bed now otherwise Santa won't come
I think I might like him.
He's so nice.
I can't sleep.
Just went on date with a thirty-two year old. He's well built, but I have to admit hs face looked far better under dim light when I met him at the bar. Maybe that's why people always look a lot more attractive in town. He's a lawyer AND a doctor. We watched Avatar in 3D. He kept playing with my hand and arm... I didn't reciprocate much. I wasn't very interested to be honest. He's lame. The best thing today was probably the movie. He tried to take me back to his house but I made up some stupid excuse... I hope he sees I'm not too interested.
Life is bland.
I want something epic to happen.
I'm being so very selfish. I have so much in my life.
- I'm very social
- I party too much
- I'm very articulate
- "Everyone loves you Max" - quote Everybody
- I'm respected by people at school
- I was a prefect at a top NZ school (good on CV for the future)
- Little kids run after me at school
- I have way too many groups of friends
- They can be anyone. Jocks, emo, popular, preppy, punk, asian, posh, sweet, shy, nerds, stoners whatever you name it. Sorry for stereotyping. But you know what I mean. I don't even know how I do it
um im so indecisive
Time to humanise myself a little bit.
Even though I give advice here more than I post journal entries, and seem to be detached and as insightful as I can, I am not without the turbulence of any teen that has recently been launched into adulthood.
Um, so I'm sufficiently drunk take a journal entry
Went to town today
there was for a birthday dinner
Also did some ceroc dancing. I'm gettin there. actually im shit
Afterwards they all went back to the birthday girl's place
I didn't feel like going too tired and having a big night tomorrow
Tomoro I'm going to Waiheke Island for two days
and try and get a tan on the beach
so many things i wana do this holiday
i also wana get more fit (run half an hour every day... I stopped during exams... i started again today i need to continue)
friend wants me to take up kick boxing lol... no way. i'll die. he's real fit tho his coach is givin him a fight soon he wants me to go watch i prob wil and il see what it's like
oh and i wana take up ballroom dancing
and take up singing lessons to improve my technique (and just get better!)
many many things
Just had our last final ever high school function. Graduation dinner was awesome. I got a high school graduation certificate with honours, the best there is to get, and possibly the most outstanding testimonial written by my teachers. Not only am I described as a "young man of the highest calibre", I'm also "highly spoken of", "an excellent public speaker", "talented musician", "humorous", "a popular student with amazing interpersonal skills with his peers and teachers", "conscientious, engaging and inquiring", "exhibits leadership and teamwork with great ethic and service"... and more.