Today is the last day of the year...

I kind of like school, I'll miss all my friends over the holidays.

I'll miss the teachers too, some of them are just totally amazing.

We had lots of shared lunches today, I feel like a fatty.

I need to stop being ridiculously caffeinated!

National exams are coming up, need to start studying...

OH AND...

I'm listening Mora by Sonny Moore.

Here's a little update-

Let's see

So I decided to go to Rory's party last night instead of fireworks at Alex's (Friday). About 50 people went - It was good!

Today the weather was... oh I can't remember.

Actually, now I do - it was raining. I had to take a 90-minute bus ride home from school because I missed my school bus. I had to converse with my calculus teacher and console one of my best friends on his less-than-perfect exam results. But honestly, he's still going to get dux though!

He's just so... sophisticated!

It is the 17/08/08, early morning.

After a nightmare.

I'm going to write this down.

Because I'm not going to make this one of those moments that will fade away with time. That's all too depressing. If it slowly fades away, eventually it will mean nothing and that's frustrating. Instead I will transfer this abstract concept /thought into tangible words that will remind me for eternity.

So this is just another one of those moments when its past 12am, and I'm sitting by myself at the computer... contemplating weird thoughts.

I'm so lonely. I admit. Moments like these he comes back to my mind, and it hurts. But all I can feel now is just hate and regret and immense stupidity. I feel used. How could he.

School mock exams are finally finished!

I did alright in English. Not as well in Science. I'm happy with maths. History was good. Japanese pretty good... and well eco I screwed it up I didn't finish. I'm probably going to fail my Eco paper.

There goes my honours prize this year.

But still, exams are finished!

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I don't really know aye... maybe I'm just too tired. Things always seem better with a good night sleep, which is why maybe I shouldn't be writing this right now.

Okae, there's this thing called bebo. Aka. New Zealand myspace. Although there's no orientation option, I have gay and gay rights pictures on my page... so people know I'm gay (but you'd be surprised how slow some people are).

Heyloz everybody! Felt like updating my journal a lil bit, not that anyone really cares... but here i go. I'll try and keep things short... it's already past my bedtime >_<

Hmm okay. Well this is a slight review of some things on my mind about my family.

So, I'm going back to Asia to see my parents again. I dread seeing them, but yet I don't know if I'm completely disappointed or not. I suppose it's more like indifference with a passion to do something else more productive.

Happened me more than once, and now I think one of my other friends is doing that. She's been acting all wierd lately... she keeps trying to get my attention and always ask if I'm angry when I'm not talking to her. Then yesterday she was really quiet and I asked what's wrong and that she can tell me and she said it's about me but then she decided not to say it. So um yeah.

Odd. I don't know.

G'dday people. OmG year 11 is a pain in the arse. We get so much homework I just like can't stand it anymore. They load you with shit everyday and you never have enough free time. Maybe I need to develop a new study method or review my time management. I officially give up on writing my GLM story... no inspiration, and I just don't have the time. It's past deadline so no point anyway.

Hmm went out for the whole day from like 9am today and came home at like 11pm... so frickin tired but had so much fun! (In general)

Hmm ok need to catch up on a lot of work 2moro T_T *sob sob*

Question on mind: Do you guys think all gay guys are more sensitive, and usually nicer and better looking?

K, I had fun this weekend at my friend's birthday... I didn't to to karaoke in the end since I really have to come home and get some shit done. Sleeping over was enough.

Okay, um I'll try and keep this short.

Well this is about the crap day I've been having. I haven't actually had a bad day for a few weeks. I mean, I have times when I'm low but for the past weeks I can be postive, optimistic and confident and ride it through without feeling extremely messed up. But today.. it's just total whoreyness.

Heyoz people. This is a seperate journal entry from my other one created just minutes ago because the other one focuses more on that one single event that happened today and this one will just be a general overview of things that happened in the weekend.

For the main thing that happened today - refer to here.
http://www.oasismag.com/2007/03/dont-judge-people

Okay you dirty little whore mouse button made me refresh the page and I have to retype this. Rah! Okay thank God I'm in a good mood or I might go eat a zonkey or something.

Hmm okay yeah that crush of mine. I'll call him Sam.