I'm becoming all those things he didn't want me to be. Is it conscious volition, subliminal inclinations or merely a coincidence? Am I immaturely resisting this amorphous control he has over me, or simply becoming myself again?

So many questions I cannot answer.

So many things i wanted to write about... But too tired now, I must sleep. I'm just going to make a list for now, because writing about it at this moment would not do it justice.

Can we really have it all; muscle, brain and love?

Gay culture venerate looks, physique. Recent it also looks for role models among itself

A sketchy image of a perfect gay man began to emerge. It is sketchy, neverthless it is an image that many of us including myself began to use as a guidance.

I came a cross Channel4's GaytoZ on the on demand service.