I've been repeating the same mistakes I made with pat. Apparently I'm a sucker for lost causes. I need to fix this problem before I cut my dick off and join a shinto monastary. *grumblysigh, lays ears* I also need to rewrite almost all of my book. Makes a cat wanna crawl under the bed and never come out T_T

THis is an email I sent my first ex. We have recently reopened lines of communication. I wrote him this letter one day when I was in a funky mood. Not funky as in depressed, funky as in "LETS GET FUNKY funky funky funky." Sooooooo X3 I'm posting it because for some reason, a lot of things came up that really fit the situation and my mindset and what I was feeling. Like . . .

1. Get a plug-in for my CD player
2. Purchase the People in Planes CD
3. Ride out to get my stuff from Robbie's house
4. Speak to employment services at the school so I can get a job
5. Go out to eat (finally)
6. Look for a good kung fu school to attend
7. Start working out at 24 hour fitness
8. Begin seeing a therapist at the school to sort out some of my shit.

So one of my ex-friends Tifa wrote me a note in class today. Before I share it, let's re-hash some history, shall we?

What is with men today? Fucking roomie left without telling me where he was going or when he would get back, and now I have to fucking worry about him all night. I even brought the fucker food, which I will probably eat in spite later (never let good food go to waste).

That's right, kitties, me's got no money. mrowl what is a poor kitty to do?

Taking a break from writing for partying. I know it's bad, but I;be seriously been so busy I don't have time for thoughtful and creative spaces. That will change in a month, but til then, I am super stressed. BLAH!!!!!

What is up with this character?

I figured out why it was tough going on that chapter. I didn't know the characters that well. I figured out Aseore, and now, I'm excited to see where he goes, what he does, what he can learn from Ghosba. Nyar.

I think i know why book been slowing down. my houseguest, while really cool and nice, is super distracting. I can't focus on my story whil i'm around him. Plus, I am writing in side characters, who i don't really know that well. Ghosba is my passionate and confident side, Aido (formerly Yanzo) is my brother/Hattori Hanzo.

Life is running smoothly (somewhat) for the first time in a long while. Writing keeps me busy and school gives me interaction.