well i useualy like the cold better, even though my friends all use me as a space heater during the winter because i am always so warm, but this afternoon i was sitting outside burning off some trash in our trash pit. i am useualy not too trusting of fire, but today i was sitting there and i thought that the fire was very beautiful. i think tyler has gotten in my head a little bit, but i like fire now. i thik i will try to be more like the phoenix and rise from the ashes of my errors. i feel like i am renewed and it is all good. i feel like i am , . . . new.