Alone on new years eve. Not really upset about it any more. I take way too much comfort in knowing that I could have a boyfriend if I wanted one.
My attraction to older men worries me. I'm afraid that when I'm actually older, it will flip flop and I'll like people way younger than me. This is probably stupid.
Being gay or bi, you can embody what you want in a boyfriend/girlfriend. You can do your best to look and act like you want your somebody to look and act like, and then it's easy to find each other. It sounds nice in theory, but I'm not so certain it works.