Fuck.

Pardon my language but I'm feeling throroughly pissed off right now. What in the hell are the American citizens thinking? Nothing's definite yet, but NBC just announced that they project Bush to take Ohio, which means he gets the election.

I've never felt this strongly about anything political before. But I'm tired of having a president who would rather I disappear because I question his fundamentally conservative religious values and complicate his political campaigns. I'm tired of having a president who is pushing to write discrimination into the constitution, just because that's how things have always been. I'm tired of living in a country that claims to give freedom to everyone, while trying to take it away from those who challenge social norms.

So this weekend has been pretty fun!

I went to a party on Friday, so many people were there! It made me happy, except near the end of the night I got upset, probably because I was tired and Chelsea was there. Then Sam slept over and the next day we all went to see the Grudge, it was kind of scary, but not too bad. Sarah Michelle Gellar=Hot :) Then we went to another party and I slept over to Sarah's.

i can't believe she can find that many lesbians in the world but doesn't
even realize i have a thing for her. if i asked her out now would she
accept even if she's already got a gf. i think not but if she did what would
i do? i've never been on a date. and if she breaks up with her and i get my
chance i wouldn't know how to ask her out in the first place. Russ says that
people don't fall in love in Junior High but if this isn't love then i don't

Time seems to just fly by...well only during specific times (e.g. at this very moment). I don't know anymore. Amazingly enough, I am not up for the usual complaints on how life is OK, awesome, or just plain unbearable. Right now - I'm even uncertain of what in the world I feel life is for me, it's just a mixture of emotions that makes me discombublated. Perhaps, well actually I'm almost positive I will be up for some ranting and raving some other day/night.

*sigh* I really should be more diligent as far as my school work goes. Every semester I tell myself that I'm going to keep up with my work and not slack off by spending who-knows-how-many-hours a day reading fanfic, but somehow I always find myself in the same position come the end of the semester: Screwed.

Take right now, for example. I have 3 weeks of classes left and then 2 weeks of finals. I have a 2000 word position paper on Natural Law due tomorrow (it's about 3/4 the way done), 2000 words on the great depression for my macroecon class due on Friday, a 3000 word research paper on Samsung electronics and a 2000 essay for literature both due the Friday of next week. I have not started any of the papers other than what is due tomorrow. On top of it all I have finals coming up in the near future and I feel like i've done nothing in my classes all semester. Some of the finals will be okay, I think, but some (like Natural Law and Econ) are going to be downright painful.

With apologies to Dr. Seuss.

Oh Lizzqu, I don't like you,
There's nothing to what you do:
Your comments? - Abortive,
short, dead-end, distorted,
And all about you, Lizzqu.

V. sorry to be spreading negativity on our one-for-all, all-for-one sorta sight, but
this poster is irritating me. So, Lizzqu, please take it out on me...Let me just apologise
in advance for people who're going to be pissed off at me for this - I'm sorry to've taken

Ok so this is my first entry and i have to say i can't spell for shit. People keep telling me cigs are bad and they kill you and i know this as a little kid my mom smoked and still does i used to through her smokes in the trash that would usually piss her of but now i started smoking about a year ago and she says im a jackass and i see why she smokes . i quit for like two weeks and then started a

Ok, i'm happy. I mean really really happy. I never felt like this with bethany you know, always happy. I think this relationship might actually go somewhere. I pretty happy that bethany's okay with it, at least she says she is. I'm still really happy though. lol. I'm hyper. God, i hope when she reads this she doesn't think i'm so psycho loony(pretty close though. lol). See, i told u i was hyper! lol. Ok, i'm gonna go now before i really put some crazy stuff in here. TTYL.

ugh...so fucking confused. I mean, I like my boyfriend...right? but I never have that squishy "ilovehim" feeling anymore and more and more of my thoughts are focused on GIRLS, and sometimes its not a specific girl, just girls in general.

how do you cope with a straight jock in the same household? i'll just be mean?

okay i met this girl over the summer. dominique an dshe was the most amazing gilr in the world. i couldnt stop thinking about her. we went to the sam etheater and stuff. she was wow! i cant even decribe her. i got her phone number but i cant bring myself to call her. god i miss her. maybe i should write her a poem. i seem to be good at that. i would like some advice on this. i know you uy sdont really know her but somthing in my heart tell me if i had the chance to kiss her she would kiss me back. maybe its only a fantasy but hey its my fantasy. god i love her. she dyed her hair cherry pink over the summer. it was so hot.

Lately I really just can't stand my dad. Everything he does gets on my nerves and I just really want to scream at him at the top of my lungs! He's always telling me to do things like, my mom just hurt her arm and last night she was trying to make dinner and he's right there next to her and could help her but no, he comes into the living room sits down turns on the t.v. and tells me to go help. He does things like this a least twice a day, something needs to be done and he could be right there but he won't do it, he'll order me to.

Jasmine told me that we're moving to fast. I understand that. We both knew we were moving fast from the start. But she said she was ok with that. She also said that she thought she did love me, but now she isn't sure. She said I can still say I love her, she just doesn't know if she can say it back. She was supposed to call me two hours ago. I need tot take a shower, but I'm afraid she'll call while I'm in there. I don't th9ink... I mean... I love you sin't just something you can take back. She says weree moving to fast, but she doesn't want us to break up. She says were just in a rut, but I can tell she's even afraid to say that were girlfriends. She doesn't want to say dating, becuase we still haven't met. I know thats a big thing, the fact we havnt met. I want to, it just hasn't worked out. Neither of us can drive, and we have to get some friends to drive us.... *sigh*...

Hey Oasis-

I HAVE NO BACKBONE....why cant i be more assertive?..................and moving on

i have a friend who always askes for advice or tells me her problems but when i say something i get made fun of..but its not that-- its that im actually trying to help and it is for her own good but she makes fun of me and it hurts .. cause i really want only the best for her....

*grrr* :/

C

You said you loved me
HA!
So much for love
I am...
the butch in the back
the quiet one
The one you hurt
the one you destroyed
I used to be open
I used to smile
Now my friends say I'm diffrent
that they miss my smile,
my luaghter,
my jokes....
You said you loved me
HA!
How can you love me and her at the same time?
I was second in your heart...
Always...

But now there's her...
Do you see us together?

Ok- I'm sick of it right now- all I want is to trade all but one of my Maths lessons for English or Child Developemt- the subjects I actually need. I haven't really got any career choices yet, but I can assure you that whatever I want to be will not require me to have an advanced knowledge of any of the following:
1) Reflections
2) Lines of symmetry
3) Algebra
4)Trigonometry
5) Long divison/multiplication.

My bestfriend started touching my boobs one night when she slept over @ mine, the next day i over reacted because i was disgusted and that really destroyed her> so i called her and told her we can still be friend s just as long as it doesnot happen again. But almost every night we slept on the same bed she always touched me she even started touchin me down there. So finally one day i respond and touch her too because i thought thatwas what she wanted but instead it put our friendship on a rocky path. We got seperated ( she moved ) i found myself wantin her to touch me and hold me so i ask her if she is a lesbian and she says no, which gets me confused cause she started it in the first place. So she tells me she used to question her sexuality before but not any more because she is sure that she is straight. Now i am confused because i dont knw if that makes me a lesbian, pls help me am I ? I like guys and i Think i like gals too. Does that make me bi?

I suppose this is a rant. But I'm not angry really. Mostly disappointed and ashamed.

It's amazing how quickly people prey on other people's differences. This became very apparant in Psychology class. Today was chapter 13. Psychological Disorders.

Crazy people are the last safest comedic target it seems. Or as my professor put it... "This is the 1-800 Psychiatric Disorder Hotline, Press 1 repeatedly if you are Obsessive Compulsive... Press 4,5,6 if you have multiple personalities... If you are schizophrenic wait a moment and a little voice will tell you what number to press... ". Like that.

Who am I really? that question has been so hard for me to answer for some many years. I've gone through so many changes, I've had such a hard time comming to terms who the real me was, not the me that everyone wanted to see the person that wanted to be what everyone wanted. I did that for so many years that I started to forget who I really was and what I wanted and who I was going to become. So over the last year I started to work on myself and who i was and what I wanted to become. Which I should say was something of a challenge. So I finally came to terms with myself except for one thing I had these feelings for both boys and girls and I was like oh hell I just finally become somewhat comfortable with who i am and then this happens. I always had the thought in the back of my mine but never acted on it. Well I still havent acted on it but I've never taken the time to read up on the fact of being "bi" and the more I sat and thought about it, I became more comfortable with the thought because if you think oabout it ou get the best of both worlds, I love boys but girls have been becomming more and more attrictive to me and its like well why not get both? This way I can have my cake and eat it to. I dunno then they more comfortable I become the more I'm like errg I can't have a relationship w/ a girl because I have noo idea how to go about that one can't ask my friends because they are all straight and I really dont feel like making my life any more difficult then it really needs to be so then I turned to the internet to get myself friends that feel the same way I feel so atleast I can have someone to talk to and maybe find someone to have a relationship with who knows everything is up in the air. I've never expressed my feelings to anyone befor so this is a big step for me so thanks for reading my ranting!!

Hey fellow oasis peeps!

so um yeah nothing much has gone down...um lots of hw um lots of random work and then i also have my part time job so i dont have much time but oh well.....so in class theres this chick who sits in front of me SHE PLAYED with her hair the WHOLE period it drove me crazy i seriously wanted to grab her hand and be like please for the love of jesus christ and the sake of me please oh please STOP playing with your hair like that!!!!!!!! cause it wasnt like innocent playing with your hair i swear it had subtle meanings along with it...like some womanly evolutionary mechanism to attract mates.....oh yes...it was crazy....