Have you ever felt like someone did not care about you...i mean sometimes the feeling is justified but sometimes you just feel that way..my mind may be playing a trick on me but- for some reason i feel like that RIGHT NOW..and it is bothering me alot.. too much for comfort..i dont get why i feel it though...this idky feeling...i feel alone and sad for some reason...i hate love..who agrees??
Taken from the back cover of Lynne Truss' punctuation book, "Eats, Shoots and Leaves."
28th of December
In the first enforcement of Atlanta's four-year-old human rights ordinance that protects gays and lesbians, Mayor Shirley Franklin has threatened to fine the Druid Hills Country Club up to $90,000 for refusing to extend benefits to the partners of its gay members.
The case has dragged on since January, when Lee Kyser and Randy L. New complained to Atlanta's Human Rights Commission that they were victims of discrimination after the club refused to grant family memberships to their partners.
why do all these people who are higher up on the the teenage social status scale(bull shit i know...), feel the need to make themselves feel better about the own mediorce stints of time on this god damned orb. and when said people are away from 'the crowd' they act all different and apollogise about being so big a retard, that they just go along with what everyone else says, just to fit in, cause the feel like its the only way they can be happy and feel good with themselves.
Friends? Well, in the very appropriate words of Simple Plan- "I think I've got a lot of friends but I don't here from them." See, the thing is- we used to be close. To begin with, we were a four- but when one friend became a lot sluttier, and started putting us down, we drifted apart from her especially when she started hanging with another group of girls who had previously been insulting us,
For a while, we were an even closer three, and, although we felt bad for our ex-best friend, we were OK. After a while, ex-friend stopped being so bad and we became friends, although never as close as before. I was happy with the arrangement, and started to get on really well with all three mates like before.
Hi you all-
i just want to capture my despair as i get ready to go take this final exam which is really gonna suck ass because well i dont know anything about the subject except that jesus loves and saves..lol...yeah so pray for divine intervention that what is on the final is what i studied or rather had the patience to study for.....but hey after this ill be freeeee YAY!!!@#@
And there's just one thing I want to say. One thing I read was what someone wrote, where they said, basically: "I cut because I can control it". And hey, I don't like arguing and yelling, but it's not something you can control. Alcoholics say that. People addicted to smoking say that. Anything you do that hurts you in any way that you can't stop or talk yourself out of most of the time, is something controlling you, not you controlling it. And yes, I've experienced that shit, it sucks hell, I know. BUt I wasn't in control, and I know it. I knew it then. I bloody bought a knife to cut myself with, and I'm proud to say I ditched it when I cleaned out my room recently. Good thing too, because it was quite bloodstained.
This is my first entry on this site. I joined because i thought that maybe,if i could just get in some kind of contact with other people my own age, who
may or may not be going through something i am, i could feel better with who i am-or who i am becoming. Not that i really expect anyone to read this,
but maybe it will just help sending my thoughts out into the void.
I am attracted to a girl. Before i met her, i was attracted to the idea
well, it's official. i hate life, and aparently, it returns the favor. sigh...
well, i'm dealing with it as best i can, and everyone's being really supportive.
i'll tell you all if i start to think about ending it all. but don't worry, i'm
not quite there yet. :) it's not about being lesbian (i'm totally cool with that),
it's just life in general. sigh... (you know, i don't think that i've ever posted
i'm lost. i can't sleep, and when i do, it's curled up into a tight ball, so
when i wake up, i'm really stiff and sore. the only reason i keep going is because
people need me to. I need me to. i can't give up, but i have to. i can't let
my parents down. i need help. i really want a break, stop the world, i want to
get off. i really want someone to love me (as in a girlfriend) but i can't let
i am 14 single... need, love....or pretzals...hmmmm...i am a spaz and a loser...i guess that is why noone likes me in that =way...:(
i totally lost it last night. i just broke down and cried. i HATE it when i can't hold it in any more. i feel like i'm falling to pieces... i've kept everything
inside for so long...so i can't talk. i feel rotton. sometimes the only reason
i get up in the morning is because people expect me to...and that feel really
rotten. i'm supposed to be a peer counsiler at school, but i'm the one who
sigh...i'm tired. i'm also pissed at the world for being so unfair. i'm just
sick of it. i hate being so helpless. my friend, half-jokingly says that she
would take drastic measures if Johanna doesn't respond to the notehow she wants
her to. (that was a very awkward sentance) i don't want that to happen, and i
don't like the feeling of not being able to do anything to stop it. i feel so
WHY THE FUCK AM I STILL ALIVE????? (pardon my french) i don't understand the
way the world works. i just don't get it.... i keep thinking that i want to
tell someone that i'm going to kill myself, just so that someone knows that my
life is like shit right now (there's that french again...). i can't live like
this. 1)my mom mentioned to my dad today (not really in passing, we were having
life is weird...currently i have to really try hard these next 2 weeks to be a productive indidvidual starting sunday..lol...yes i know i bitch about it but i cant start just yet or rather i just need to get it down on paper...ie..my feelings in a blog i love and a place i love as well....so yes..finals are coming up in about 9 days...during which i will prob shit myself....and cry and whatever....So yes its my time to prove myself that i can do it all and bounce back from this mood state that has me zombie like...im going to rape all my finals including chemistry.... :) and so now the thought of kicking ass and doing good is making me feel better
This really has nothing to do with anything but I wanted to say something about it. Ao anyway, has anybody noticed that Christmas is taking over. I know that Christians kind of rule the US but why do the commercial people have to make a big deal about religion. Isn't there separation of church and state? Doesn't that mean anything to the world? I have more to say but I'll probably stop making sens
O.K. I am still bouncing around on here. I read some
post and relized that what I said in a few post back
is totally true. I have a issue that I hit on in a title but
didn't talk about in my journal entry at all.
I slept with my best friend would be the title but
I didn't talk about it I talked about the song but missed
the rest completely. I can't honestly believe that
I did it. I don't remeber a thing and I wasn't drunk.
i don't get the bible on a couple accounts. if anyone has answers/soluutions to my
questions, feel free to write me.
i want to be someone. i want to be able to talk, and live, and not be afraid.
i want people to understand what it means to me to be lesbian. i want people
to see me for who i really am, and give me a chance. if they still don't like
me, well, then at least i've tried. i really don't understand why i can't be
myself with my parents, or even some of my teachers, and friends. with some
of them, they know, and understand, and it's wonderful to be around them, but i
i asked my parents how they would react if they saw me kissing a girl. my mom
went totally wacko. she thinks that i'm hiding a relationship. advise to
parents of LGBT youth: yelling at you kid doesn't convince them to tell you
everything. in fact, it only makes them want to close in even more.
folks, i am really trying to relate to my parents, and my mom just isn't
getting it. any help?