I look forward,
See a circle of people.
In the middle, a young girl;
A wheelchair is on the ground near her,
It's been pushed over.
Everyone's screaming at her.
Laughing at her.
No one stops them.
No one cares.
She's trying hard to keep back her tears.
Then, someone speaks to me,
Tells me to join in.
I know that if I refuse they'll hurt me, too.
So I join their game.

If I knew how to be you
I wouldn't need to be me

If you knew how I wish I was you
You wouldn't need to be you

If you would tell me what chases away your beautiful smile
I wouldn't need to wonder

If I could tell you what is wrong here
You wouldn't need to wonder

If you would tell me that you loved me
and I could tell you that I think about you
and everyone else didn't care

When the conscious thought hit to continue a forced habit of smoking cigarettes
It was because of you,
the lazy bored look in your eyes that got me hooked.
You were beautiful in a way that only the arrogant can be.

And when we chain smoked in the grass
Cancer breeding white, curly q’s
Of a kissing breath—
Well, I thought that I could maybe
Fall in love

With you.

****
Would u dive in? Are u ready to sink in my world?
It’s unsafe, and nothing is sure here.
I aint complicated, but I suppose that’s how things look like.
You look fine, really fine. Would you mind taking a peep in my life?
You might even like it here.
When you read my story, u’ll laugh and mostly cry,
To the things I still ask, “Why?”

though i can't see your beatiful face
i feel without u, id fall from grace

the feel of your skin i have yet to know
but when i see you've written me it makes my heart glow

you make me look to the future with hope in my eyes
between us so far there have been no lies

we talk to eachother almost everynight
it's u who makes me look at the world in a new light

this poem has some beautiful imagery or so I was told...
what do you think....feedback always welcome...!

written on 4/25/2006

The Loon

You’re watching me
your eyes as clear as the ocean blue
I drift over the calm water in a solid wooden canoe
I watched the birds over head as they flew
knowing soon I would hear you
the call of a loon
the silver light of the full moon

Young Children
Start life-long friendships
That I did with you
we were friends
since seven
best friends
since fifteen
then something inside me changed
My love for you has grown
more then you'll ever know
If only I had words to say what I mean
I am no longer just that invisable girl
Nor I am I a teen
So now I think
it's time
for me to come clean
It isn't hard for me to say

I giggled as she broke my heart,
Deep in the pillows that we shared,
For hiding love’s a clever art,
And in her eyes, I’d never cared.
I kept a smile on my lips
For every time she looked at me,
As tears welled up from ragged rips
That I could feel, but none could see.
And so I laughed through all that day;
Her ignorance remained my prize,
Though once I knew they’d gone away,

I said goodbye in a gaze thirty-seven degrees away from your eyes on my sockets;
In short words in short sentences:
“We’ll chill, it’ll be cool.”
(my hands dove in my pockets as if it were your cheekbones they were holding)
words full of curdled nectar, fermentation of old pumping blood.

You ironed on a smile that
Saw in my lips those vines you wound about my heart.

Constructor, inventor, helper,
slave. A giver. A worldless mystic.
An idealist, A hoper, A
changer. A wanter, but never
A taker.

I build bridges to hard
places. I invent new ways to
help. I give with no
thought to myself
I hope for a better, happier
tommarow. I act for change,
for the "good cause." I want
everything. But never take anything
for myself

I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to make you cry
and everytime I cut myself
you held me close and asked me why.

I never meant for you to see
what was hidden underneath
my tattered clothes, my hurting smile
beneath it all my secret grief.

I never meant for you to catch me
I didn't want you to care
You should have let me fall, baby
leave my heart laid bare.

Summer lovin'
We've never spoke or looked each other in the eye
Not once have we uttered hi
But something came over me, I'm lovesick
I'm infatuated with that chick
I'm acting all funny, I really am
Look what I'm writing with my own hand
I'm a hopeless romantic, a lovesick fool
Because of some girl I know from summer school
I learned your name through open ears

I am the sun. I am the sky. I am the wind. I am the whisper of the trees. I am the dancer in the dark. I am the melody that plays somewhere in the mountains, hail Carolina, hail Carolina - I'm coming home. Traffic is slow. Time is fleeting. My eyes stray to the horizon where Asheville glows with morning light.

Cigarette smoke. FM radio. Static on the airwaves.

Euphoria, OH! Euphoria, my God! Euphoria!
El-ek-tr-ik-si-te in my body, in my soul, in the soil raging from
Lightning storm of dust and blood, OH!
Wake me up! Bravo! Bravo!

Echo Immortal! Echo Immortal... Echo Immortal!
The dogs of war at my heels, all hail the dogs of war!
Hear the bells of Gemini ringing forever! Trumpets sound! Echo echo.

I know that I’ve always
Thought you so wise and true
But now that I question;
Can it still be true

That you have the flaws
I have seen before this time
While only in searching
For more
From

Nothing is Nowhere
is
know-how
is
how-to

How to do what you do

Never is how far
I’ve come for someone
Reliable

You’ve told me what
others can’t put into a phrase