hello, and its nice to meet you.
im me, and you are you and lets not elaborate, for now, i just need you, anyone, to hear me.
as a person, because i am a person, right?
or is that the reason ive been struggling so?
and having said that what is it that i need you to hear?
the rest is so overrated and expected.
we all know what comes next, a breakup, an outage, a heartbreak, a new love, hope.

Works (1782)

PRIEST - Come to this the fatal hour when at last from the eyes of deluded man the scales must fall away, and be shown the cruel picture of his errors and his vices - say, my son, do you not repent the host of sins unto which you were led by weakness and human frailty?

DYING MAN - Yes, my friend, I do repent.

PRIEST - Rejoice then in these pangs of remorse, during the brief space remaining to you profit therefrom to obtain Heaven’s general absolution for your sins, and be mindful of it, only through the mediation of the Most Holy Sacrament of penance will you be granted it by the Eternal.

Man first dates suck hardcore!I'm not complaining about the person I was with or anything but it just wasn't what I expected.We didn't even talk,all we could do was look at each other from opposite sides of the table at dinner and look out the window on the ride to the park and home.All that happened was complete silence.The most that was said was what time do you want to be home and did you like

i feel the tears pouring out of my eyes,
but i can't feel them on my face,
i want to cry so bad,
but the tears are stuck in my eyes,
i am on the verge of crying,
but my eyes just won't
my heart,
my soul,
both crying so hard,
i can't believe that you can't hear,
you can't hear my heart,
you can't hear my soul,
but i know,
that they are crying so hard, and you don't even know
i want the tears,

I'm telling the truth this girl is the biggest distraction ever!When I got to school this morning and was walking through the parking lot, I almost fell in the dirt while we were walking and looking at each other around the lanes of cars, If that wasn't enough I couldn't do my powerpoint presentation in Bus.Law because I was so busy staring and giggling at her funny faces.Then I almost ran into an open locker while I was walking behind her in the hallway,man today was hard!But if you really want to know how must of a distraction she really is for me, at lunch I didn't even eat, I just sat across from her listening to her talk to our friends.

Yeah so due to the overwhelming response that I should call my friend back, I decided to call her today.When she answered the phone I hung up immedditely in fear she would bring up the obvious issue at hand. So after 15mins of avoiding her calls again, I decided to get in my car and drive out to her house, hoping that no one would be there, but I was wrong.She was actually there sitting in the living room staring at the phone.

seeing her in that dress today, really made me want her, the only thing is that i hear she is after a boy, she knows i am bi, and i want to talk to her, but she was so hott. she was frizzlin'. look it up, it is a word, frizzle. I have never kissed a girl, and i want her to be my first, i just need to figure out how to make it happen.

School sucks(not really), its just that my close friends don't really
understand what goes on in my head, while my so not so close
friends can see right through me. My close friend Tierra said "Why are you soafraid of what others will think, aren't you the one who told us it
doesn't matter what people say, just as long as you are true to yourself?" (I wish I hadn't told her that) Anyway, in the end she called me of all things a hypocrite, and a damn wuss! She also said to stop worrying over what the "preps" will say, and just buck up.

Why can’t they understand the way we feel
They just don’t trust what they can’t explain
I know we’re different but deep inside us
We’re not that different at all
lyrics from you'll be in myheart, by phil collins

I was listening to the tarzan sound track yesterday (don't ask) and i heard these words. I was depressed about things, and thinking possibly being bi, and i heard these words and i thought about everything that i read and wrote yesterday.

i know this has nothing to do with anything but........

the only thing to fear,
is clogging the one and only toilet in a public restroom with a long line behind you

today one of my teachers said "the easiest way, my not be the best way."- definition, defined by me, the easiest way is to be straight, but it is not necesssarily the best way. Maybe being bi/les/gay is the best way, this is because it is the more complicated way to live your life, but it must be better, because it is harder.

poetry...other crap...so much stuff in my head right now.

jealousy runs through
my veins
like snake's venom
poisoning me.
my stomach clenches
my heartbeat quickens
as i watch you
with them.
how dare they?
how dare they
steal you from me?

this came into my head during gym, we were out on the track (theoretically speaking) and we were sitting on the benches. i was sitting on one bench with some of the girls, and the girl i REALLY like was sitting on the other and one of the girls was playing with her hair.

Well i thought id ask where everyone on here is from.. Just cuz i am from El Paso, TX and i
dont know anyone in this town that can relate to the way im feeling. And its not easy going
up to someone and saying Hi, im bi.. wanna be my friend.. So Everybody.. Where are ya from?

I wish i was sleeping right now. I am so so tired. Lately I feel kinda like crap especially the last 2 days. I cried myself to sleep last night. It sucked. I am so stressed. I have so much to do on my math project adn I can't find anything anymore, and my teacher is away so i can't even get the sheets i need. he is not back till the 26th, it;s due the 28th. I am screwed. I have a portfolio to do with little time left to do it aswell. I guess it won't tak em to long but i still need to do it. Summer jobs has me very stressed. I just hate camps right now at the mention of teh word CAMP I almost gurst into tears. I hate that people can't be bothered to call back when they say the will. I was intervewed for a camp in Wisconsin they said that in 2 weeks they would call back, weather they needed me or not, 3 weeks later no call so i am pissed and called thbis morning..she says

undeniable
that i was never meant to be here
unbelievable
how much of myself i fight everyday
unpredictable
when next i'll be with u

understandable
how i can be apart of u
how we can be so similar
so familiar
though ive never really known u

Hi everyone!!well today is my first time on oasis, I have been searching for answeres about my self on the interne(which led me here) I'm really not sure about who I am. I have been questioning myself for a pretty long time(no answere yet) I havent really told this 2 any1 cuz im not sure what they will think. at school i joke around about being bi, or lez but everyone thinks its a joke (except me at times) well I hope u can help me or give me advice. Sorry for the drama.bi ppl.

I know I should have told you this before.
I know it is apparent that my life is confusing as hell.
I'm sorry I didn't tell you.
I didn't want to interupt.
I didn't know how to say this.
But my life is making it hard to know how I feel.
I guess I want to tell you.
That I'm confused.
Confused on the title that I was given.
Need a dictionary definition right beside myself.
To know what I am.

I finally found a support group near where I live! It is about an hour away from my house but is worth it if it means that I can make new friends and become comfortable around other gay people!!!!

does anyone have a definition of "emo-goth"? a couple months ago my friend from out of state started to diss me and told me she was "emo-goth" and that i was a prep, which i am SO not. she was suicidal and everything. i felt so bad for her and wished i could have helped. but somehow she pulled through it on her own because now we're BFFEAE (Best Friends For Ever And Ever) again. but im still curious as to the "emo" part of "emo-goth". anyway, just lookin for something to say.

Well y'all, its been fun my first day on oasis, but my mother is hounding me so i g2g. LUV YA!! Luv, ME!