Found this a while ago on some queer youth art site, thought I might post it:

"We the children of the synthetic revolution,
In order to form our politically correct union,
Establish deep-seated fear of one another,
To insure phobia among the masses,
To provide a strong base conformity,
Promoting a silent resentment
And securing stereotypes forever."

- Spencer Petersen

Pure genius, if you ask me.

It's true, that being our own person is difficult
when it feels as if everyone around us, owns us already.
A person can go for days or weeks, years even, thinking they are
acting of their own accord. But then one thing out
of the ordinary can hurl us off the path we believe ourselves
so firmly traveling.

Maybe the issue isn't the event that threw us, rather our reaction to
it. Or perhaps it was our original thought that we 'knew' where

"A Sorta Fairytale" by Tori Amos (the album version, not the one they play on the radio)

on my way up north
up on the ventura
i pulled back the hood
and i was talking to you
and i knew then it would be
a life long thing
but i didn't know that we
we could break a silver lining

and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you

I don't feel much like posting about my life right now, so here's another song I wrote last summer (it's called "It's Nothing"):

There's something
In the way that you walk
In the line of your face
In the twang of your talk

There's something
In the black of your eye
In the curve of your hair
In the way that you sigh

There's something
In the hang of your clothes
In the look of your smile

CHORUS

You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
you see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
if you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

you came along just like a song
and brighten my day
who would of believed that you where part of a dream

Hi Oasis-

so yes..i need to state this...just for support purposes and for all of us to feel better and what not..a wonderful professor said this to me once and ive taken it and embellished it a bit...being gay isnt about who you are and what you stand for...its about who you love...so my friends please please stop thinking it is wrong to love someone....love is good...and i hope one day the world will see this like my prof and other wonderful supporting individuals do.... so we can all live in harmony and in peace

You're quite used to this now, the tiny tugs at your insides, the leaps in your stomach whenever you see her. It won't stop for a while, and maybe you should take some time off, some time away from her. It always worked before, and you know that it'll save you from countless pain and heatache. You can only take so much, and lately you've been just about ready to break. And you're sick of this, sick of always being in love and always being hurt and always being so fucking emo, and you hate it. Because emo kids are sad and pathetic, and you don't want to be that. You want to be strong, so that no one will affect you, and if she doesn't care about you you can just shrug it off.

i plan on making to resolutions this year. i am just fine the way i am! i don't care what anyone else says, i don't need to change. i am finally out to my parents, and i am really proud of being lesbian. i don't want to change. so there.
hope you all have a great new year!

meta

won't be able to update until Saturday, so:

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!!!

Watching everyone move around me is nuts having
three preformances last night didn't help
First preformance was find signed autographys. did everything
fine
Well the second show I tripped in the middle of one of the
songs over a cord that was attached to my mic. and
messed up on a song got a false start and and almost
ran into my guiatist Leo
The third show was even worse. By this point I was

with hot sauce. And I daresay it was fucking awesome.

I decide since so many people asked this question
to put a answer here and intorduce everyone to my
band and me a little. My band is a four piece rock
band depending on the day. Sometimes we have a five
piece band a keyboardist. My drummer is Danny he
is a piece of work and he is the closet to me in the
band besides one of my guitarist. Danny's parents and my parents
are close friends. They moved everytime we did because my

from the livejournal of az_darkwater; which was taken from his friend's (moonbladem) protected journal entry

Heterosexual Questionnaire

1. What do you think caused your heterosexuality?

2. When and how did you decide that you were a heterosexual?

3. Is it possible that your heterosexuality is just a phase that you may grow out of?

4. Is it possible your heterosexuality stems from a neurotic fear of others of the same sex?

5. If you've never slept with a person of the same sex, is it possible that all you need is a good gay or lesbian lover?

This is a song that Michelle and Lindsay played in the car on the way home from Denny's. It made me cry, so it's obviously a good song. (Not that it wasn't good if it didn't make me cry.)

"Bless The Broken Road" by Rascal Flatts

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

Okay, So I have not written in a while, for those of you who wish to contact me, IM me @ ninerfan49ers...

So here goes my plug... If you have any questions, just ask me, and I will answer them...

In another wonderful development (to go along with New Zealand's good news), the Supreme Court of Canada has returned their non-binding decision regarding gay marriage. The Supreme Court said the Federal Government can change the definition of marriage, thus letting same-sex couples wed. Now, it won't just be a right in certain provinces (like Ontario and Nova Scotia). It will become a nation-wide right.

GOOD CHARLOTTE
"Wounded"

Lost and broken,
Hopeless and lonely.
Smiling on the outside,
and hurt beneath my skin.

My eyes are fading,
My soul is bleeding.
I'll try to make it seem okay,
But my faith is wearing thin.

So help me heal these wounds,
They've been open for way too long.
Help me fill this soul,
Even though this is not your fault,

That I'm open,
And I'm bleeding,
All over your brand new rug.

Hi Oasis-

another awesome song worth looking into especially for ATB fans....i love and find the lyrics super true and that they can be applied to um yes life lol...

Ecstasy by ATB

Have you ever noticed,
That I’m not acting as I used to do before?
Have you ever wondered,
Why I always keep on coming back for more?

What have you done to me,
I’ll never be the same I'll tell you for sure

hi folks, i'm still here! sorry i haven't been on for a while, i've been sick.
i feel rotten right now, and it's not just the cold, it's in my heart. i have a
friend who is not very happy right now, at least most of the time.
i really wish she could be happy, and i want her to be happy. but, as susan,
my counsiler, says, i just need to hold their pain, i don't have to be the one
to fix it. 'But i WANT to fix it!' i say, 'i want to make it be better!

Hey there Oasis!
If anyone has msn messenger, and just want's to chat, I only have about twenty mins (Due to parents constant moaning about phone bills and other trivialities), but yeah. I'm online :)
Rhi