Here I am feeling antisocial, working out on my own time on the trendmill trying to loose weight, pondering about war on iraq is really worth it.

Lately I have been getting panic attacks due to my gut instincts. Everytime I have this, I know somthing is going to smother me with saddness or suprise. Two nights ago I saw 2 rings around the full moon, a sign of somthing soon to come. I know people stick to the sciencetific facts that its a sign of rain coming in 24 hours. But to me, I feel theres more to the rings than itself. It told me somthing will happen pretty soon. I dont know what, and I believe we;ll be seeing it.

what the fuck is going on?! like my exbest friend that completely started hating me forever suddenly and i have been spending time together for evident reason. i completely dont understand it. i dont get it. its completely bizarre. so who knows. he and i, who havent gotten along in two years are getting along so well. why? what a totally spinnytrip. and im trapped in this shit school. wanna be home. with my music. like my guitars (still unstrung) or my keyboard, or new nifty sheetmusic program that writes my songs easily and plays them back in midi format. soo useful. so any who know whats going in anything anymore. headtrip headtrip headtrip. oh yeah-and fucking war. fun stuff. OR NOT. one of the two. so i dont know whats going with that either. for what its worth i did a protection spell on my family and friends and of course my spell. so i dont know what to think anymore. lots of confusion. "ball of confusion, oh yeah, thats what the world is today. oye vey." but yeah um....in the words of a wise mage "im not asking you to believe in me. boy i think your confused, im not pershephany. (how do you spell that shit anyways? oh well). love you all

Greetings Ms. Greim,

I have received all of your application pieces except for the part most important to us: the essays.

I have previously blogged today but this has become similar to an open book journal for me and in a normal (what the fuck is normal?) situation I would write whenever the need arose. The need is now.
Feeling a lot of anguish right now and I wish I could pinpoint why. Something inside of me is hurting and if I had to guess what, I would say my heart. But yet again I don't know why. One moment I am all right and the next on the verge of tears. All I know is I am struggling with some pain and some issues but there is no one for me to talk to.

All in all...

Wow, Ilana asked me to go to prom with her.
WOWOWOWOW!!!!!

on CRACK!!!!!!!!!!!! Honestly, I don't understand them. My sister and mother are in a fight. Its funny if you ask me, only cause I am not a part of it. But uh yah. They argue like crazy. My mom will say something and my sister's response is "Because. Now leave me alone.". Damn its hilarious. Last night I walked into the bathroom and she followed and when my mom asked where she was she yelled, "I AM HANGING OUT WITH MY SISTER, IN THE BATHROOM!!!!". That sounds really bad, lol.

...birds were chirping outside my window yesterday morning ... other students dancing, just danceing, because its spring...

i've been really stupid - like this girls who's a m8 and seeing someone. a bunch of us went out on monday and got pissed. i hit on her when we were alone and she said shed leave her bfnd 4 me but she was drunk so i doubt she will. i really like her. HELP! wot do i do? or do i do nothing?

Well, today while with my mom at the Pharmacy, she asked me in a hushed tone about condoms.

Is findng out your parents are not perfect. In my case, my mother. I always thought that her leaving me a babysitters all the time so she could be the "woe is me" single parent hero of all women was normal, when in fact leaving your child alone or at a place with no hugs or words of encouragement is neglect. I also didn't know that there was anything wrong with her badmoughing my father to me and telling me that a child only needs one parent. And finally, apparently it is normal to be completely emotionally cut off from the rest of the world from age 3 to age 13 because showing emotion meant that my mother was guilty of not nurturing me enough. And don't get me started on the court system.

I will not get mad at the bratty ten year old. I love the Bratty ten year old. I will forgive the bratty ten year old for surpassing the bitchdom levels her age allows for. *takes a deep suposedly calming breath* I will not throw a pointless hissy fit, no matter how much better it will make me feel.

That babbled, how do you make a topic for the forum? Help please.

I said I was going to run away from Oasis, but I had to come back. I was having an off day yesterday...yah......
So uh I may date this girl...::grins::...but its not definite because we havent talked enough yet to determine what we are going to do. But whatever....Even though I like someone else, I dont think that that someone else likes me....as sad as that makes me.....La la la al al al. I hunted down my creative writing class notebook, and wow at one point I could actually write.