so the most awkward thing happened during christmas.
my grandma asked about my sex life (by the way non-existant) which was kind of weird*sarcasm*(it was really weird)
she didnt directly ask, she was more like" are you in a relationship".
~~me: no
her: oh i really want grandchildren
Me(in my head ) : well that sucks

“Its better to burn out than fade away.”
― Kurt Cobain
I love this man. More than I love any other singer, I adore Kurt. Why? He thinks like me.
Well... thought.
He believed that you shouldn't be something you aren't and if you pretend you're wasting the person you are.
He thought that the world was a terrifyingly destroyed world.
He hated homophobes. He said that he wised he was gay so he could piss off homophobes and even called himself gay in spirit.
He thought the exact same way I do. I like to think he lived on in me somehow. He would've believed it.

I wrote this... thing about how I felt late night some time ago. I forgot what I meant by 2 weeks but saved it as a note.

2 weeks

Words: they mean one thing but Under the surface another; they're like icebergs. How one puts them together is not simple. One doesn't go ahead and put them together on a piece of string and hope they fit. Grab a fancy word here, grab a word there and stick em in the same sentence. The sentences become paragraphs, the paragraphs become pages, the pages become a book. And it all begins with a word.

My past however many weeks since I've posted have been almost completely uninteresting, all that's really relevant is that I got for Christmas as follows:
1 White Album, by the Beatles.
1 1, greatest hits album by the Beatles
1 stereo, for listening to mentioned albums, and many others
1 book, The Fabric of the Cosmos, by Brian Greene

A door creaked open as I pulled on my coat in the foyer. My sister's voice echoed from the top of the stairs.
"Mike, can you stop by the drugstore? We're out of pain medicine."
I hated when Cara called me "Mike" because that's what our absent mother used to call me before she took off. But I couldn't be mean to her right then.
"Okay," I said as lightly as I could. "I'll stop there on my way to the club."
Before she could turn around, I called her name.
Cara froze on the fourth step and my heart sank when I noticed something like hopelessness in her aquamarine eyes.

In the spirit of staying up late on New Year's Eve, I will stay up until seven AM tonight. I woke up late today, so it shouldn't be very difficult. I've stayed up later plenty of times.

And my New Year's resolution shall be to continue being awesome.

Also, I've been pretty bored lately. If anyone has any ideas for entertainment that they use, please let me know. Or link me to any online entertainment, like free video games or something.

In exchange, I give all you good people a very, very good song:

Hello everyone and happy new year! I hope you all have had an okay month.

I am currently in New York with my boyfriend and I have just shown him a few of my journals. It is one of the most beautiful moments of my life. We have shared so much over the past month. I love him more everyday, more than I ever believed possible.

I simply wanted to stop in and wish you all warmth and kindness over the follwing year. <3

Wishing all Oasies™ a very Happy New Year!

Dear 2013,
I'm so excited! I get to start over in school. New semester, new classes, new teachers, no dance, and now I can join the LGBT club at school! YES! I can finally get myself out there or at least get advice and motivation to come out. I'll make new friends and do what I want. Last semester I felt so tied down with dance. I couldn't do certain things because I could have gotten injured. It sucked. Now I can go skateboarding at the park or play baseball with the guys because I'm as free as a bird. I just haven't learned how to fly yet.

going on a national 'born this way' tour...god damn...my ex would love this, as he loves, loves, loves her...but who the fuck made her the gay community's advocate across the nations? for some reason the fact that she is naming her tour after that song really irks me. dunno why.

I'm experiencing another one of those instances during which I have many different perspectives on the world. It always makes me happy beyond comprehension. Everything is good and that's all it will ever be, regardless of what happens.

In other news, I finished a collection of four ambient musical creations.

as charged. not usually my type, but I did stare for more than 5 secs, so...

http://dailychillout.net/i-have-something-to-tell-you-2/?utm_source=fb-b...

My Christmas was dull. I spent half of it at my dad's, where I mostly listened to my dad's girlfriend's dad tell stories to my grandma about how everyone in his family beat the shit out of him when he was growing up. Then I went to my aunt's (mom's side of the family now) which was a bore. It wasn't bad, until my cousin mentioned that somehow a borrowed video game had gotten stuck in his busted-up Wii, and my other cousin added, "Didn't that game belong to Justin? That gay guy?" To which my grandma replied, "Ew get that game outta there!"

So what have I been up to?

I'm not sure how many of you here "know" me or how many of you I've actually had contact with. I can sense, however, that many of the regulars that used to be here probably aren't here so much anymore...maybe they grew out of it or some such thing. I dunno.

Ever feel like not writing essay prompts that ask dumb questions that want to explore your mind and emotions? Yes, I hate that so much.

Right now I'm in a really bad mood I have to write about 4 essays tonight before the 1st or else they won't be submitted in time

Stupid questions should be left unanswered