Ok sorry if you guys dont understand my inglish anything you dont understand let me now so i cud tell you what i was traying to say, ok first of all i havent had time for shit cause i'm in a relationship right now and well got no time only for her and my mind wish is going crazy. right now i'm in this relationship with this girl her name is sharlyn she is the sister of my "so called bestfriend" and she is straight ,her brother is gay thats how we became so close so the point is that i started going to his house and his sister started to tease me and batherd me alot, everytime i just to go to there house she just to bug me is not that i did not liketed her or anything but never in a million years i was thinking that she was starting to like me so i did not put mush atention to her so i started to notice that she got jouelist* everytime i just to kid-around with her bro and she started to get upset cuz i did not put mush atention to her etc... i thought that was so random plus she was straight and she had and has the worse reputation in school of being the bigest slut ever so i did not wanted to be around her, but before i wanted to ignore her she told me so many things about her life that made me think she needed to be listen to and i was there and blah blah what a normal friend woud do so i started to like her more she started to like me more so she was going to florida for a week cause she needed to se her father and her grandmather that supposable was daying so she whent over there and the day we were taking her to the air port i was at her house so we were alone and we were really close to kiss but she backoff and well when she was taking the plaine she gave me the last hug and the longer one well i mean she hug everybody but when she hug me she was for a long time huging me and told me "you need to learn stuff" then i ask what and she sed you will learn your self i'm like ok and she left, then she talk to me in the msn and she told me so many things that got me impress like lots of things really deep things she told me that she was always thinking of me she was missing me that she did not understand what was going on with her self and stuff like that then we started talking on the phone and she told me that she really like me well the day we pick her up at the air port she when and hug me so hard and told me a i missed you so mush and she was on me all the time but the point is she had a boyfriend that she dump to be with me and well now his a staker blah blad after chrismas i asked her to be my girlfriend and she sed yes we have a mounth with 3 days together and i'm having the worse problems of my life ever so idk what to do anymore, my problems are she wants me to be on her infront of ppl i now i shud but is hard for me she is my first girlfriend so i'm working on it, she wants me to change my clouth well i told her ok but she gots to give me time she tells me she loves me so mush and i bealive her cause she has change so mush sence shes been with me, she tels me that she has giving up on guys and dicks just to be eith me she has broken the rules just to be eith me she has accepted everything of me blah blah and i now she calls me at 8 am in the morning just to talk to me she calls me everytime she goes out she calls me eveytime she's going to sleep if she does something she tells me and she tells me she have falling inlove with me and well i'm also inlove with her but this is my first time with a girl and is so hard for me, right now she got me 12 presents for valintines or how ever you right that i'm got her 5 mines are 2 huge teddy bears a dozen of blue roses one box of chocolate and 4 peoms and i really dont now if she is going to like that i'm just scare now that i cud lose her and that creeps the fuck out of me so i dont now i feel stuck in so many ways and i cud keep writing but is so mush that you'll get bored anyways just needed to clear my brean a lilbit... thanks for reding.

O*M* FUCKING *G* I SMOKED WEED TODAY AND IT WAS AWESOME LOL KNOW I NEED TO GET IT OF OF MY SISTEM CAUSE I'M GETING A BLOOD TEST ON THE SCHOOL THAT I'M GOING TO START, IS LIKE A JOB HIGH SCHOOL OR W/E. BUT WEED IS FREAKING AWESOME!!!.

Ok i got to say it oasis is geting crapy 4 me i dont know about u guys but is freaking boring me lol anywhays knowing that no one reads my journals lol so anywhays yeah bye...

Please peeps dont miss today the new second season of south of nowhere it going to start to night at 6, 8, 9 p.m so dont miss it pleace is going to be awsome, it on the-n if u whant some more detals go to the-n.com and dont miss the new episodes of degrassi ether they going to give it tonight...

ok today i dirint went to school nether my friend kevin, well today was going to be a short day at school thats why i dirint go so...anywhays my day has been garbish like always i dont got a gf umm i just notice that me and my friend kevin r the begest freaks satanics at school, not get me rong but we do beleave on some weird shit lol but w/e well my friend victoria doesnt whant to talk to me tru msn i dont know why, well adam totaly desapier lol and i'm in the begest deprecion,... ohh well gues i'm going to stop talking garbish and stop boring the fuck out u ppl, and wtf no body reads my journals entry lol thats funny anywhays some one here cud tell me what to but to the angel i draw at my artclass i did this nice angel and my teacher sed dont do that a kid did that in the ather class do a nother drawing or put something else to it so i sed wtf i'm not going to break this after a hard work so i whant to put something to it and i dont no what, cud some one tell me what to put on it??? something is supost to be a chrismas drawing and i did a angel what else cud i do on it??????

umm today it was a normal day simple, today i whas at the lobie and there was this cute girl i cudent stop looking at her lol then my friend kev came to me and started talking lol after that i saw one of the girls i like and i told kev and he was like really so after we was coming down the starse she bump in to me and lookd at me so weird and the ather day she was walking from out of nowhere she gave me a big smile lol
shes so prety ohh well she has a boyfri he looks more like a fucking staker
hes always taking her to school watching if she gos in the school he look 4 her he tells her to buy him breakfest at school god i hate him already lol anywhays nothing mush happen today my crush left earley cause her bff diritn came to day to school lol and my frined kevin whant to be gay know lol i told him that woud be like cool but in the same time i dont got some one i cud talk about girls and understande me allwell i wount get batherd by that lol his prety cool let me se what else ohh yeah i whas kiding aroun with my frind jane telling her whant to have sex with her and she was freaking out lol and well i told her it was a jk and she comdown lol thats all i did today boren like always lol....x0x0

i finaly found my crush myspace account and i tuck her pics to show u guys how she looks i think she's the most beutifull thing i ever seen hope u guys think the same anywhays check her out lol.

her name is limary...

today whas weird my drawing came out to be poopy really ewwww but well beter that then a bidass F AND WELL NOTHING INTRESTING HAPPEN AHH YEAH A GUY ASK ME WHAT was that on my eyebrows and i whas like my piercings, god he had to be more then retarded to not know what is a piercing.., and my frind kevin invaited me to some shows and i sed that i dirin know if i whas going but gues i'm stuk here lol but i fill bad cause his really cool with me and i whanted to go but i'm super busy with school and anywhays my grandmather woud go cucu if i go some where with straingers lol butwell.... well gues thats it nothing intresting happen today...and i love evanescence new c'd i whan it so bad rrrrrrr and i also love 30 second to mars thinking of buing new c'ds ohh well...bye

ummm yeah mayer deprecion i whas happy cause i though after summer that school was going to strat my deprecion whas going to be over but gues what it got more worse then summer i traid to cut my self know i do know what ppl fill with cuting u'r self meen it take pain away but i stop, i cant listen to evanescence or the frey i woud start craing like a baby i cant look at my self in the miror i think i'm looking at the horrible thing in earth i cant look at girls cause they r straight and there hot and they make my life more deprese i cant stop studing cause i thi9nk if i dont study i'm going to be come a homeles women with out money i fill more crapy more and more plus art class is really stupid i actualy fill sorry 4 my srt class teacher cdause she really whant us to lern the love 4 painting but i dont give a shit about it but the teacher is so caind and nice and sweet that makes me sad, well remember i sed something about a drawing well i druw a tear with a eye insaid craing and some broken wall in the back i haven painted only the tear and it looks like crap tomarrow i'm going to try to finish it with puting the wall bejaind purple and black one friend of main traid to help me and i loved his idea but i dont no how to draw really good so i dirint do it he told me to do a dead rose with really dead leaf and stuff and he told me to draw it black i loved it but i dirint do it i felt bad but i stay with my uglyass tear lol let me se what else i cud say i hate my causein more then ever cause he's better then me on everything i get anoid by my brother cause he is so stupid god i think i am going crazy 4 reall i started to get deprese on summer i stop taking bath i stop talking to ppl i stop talking to my fam i aeit more then ever lol i slept all fucking day i never cleanded my room and i just whanted to desapier but i'm geting the same shit know so week and lazy and so tire of everything just whant to sleep i hate the bathroom i hate talking to stupid ppl i think every body hates me and fill like troing my self from the roof of my house but guess i got to eat it, anywhays sorry about makeing u read this shit i gues is a lot and sorry this doesnt have sence.

UMM TODAY I HAD A WEIRD DAY BUT GOOD MY BFF WELL HIS NAME IS KEVIN I TOLD HIM I WHAS LESBIAN AND HE WHAS SO COME WITH IT AND HE DIRINT GOT BATHERD SO TODAY HE HAD TO SAY SOMETHING TO ME AND HE KEPT SAING IT WHAS PRIVATE SO I TOLD HIM TELL ME LATTER SO HE TOLD ME HE IS BISEXUAL I WHAS REALLY I WHAS REALLY HAPPY AND I CAME OUT OF THE CLOSET WITH SOME OF MY FRIENDS SO YEAH IS COOL, AND I'M HAVING PROBLESM WITH MY ART CLASS I NOTICE I DONT GOT NO TALENT ON PAINTING RIGHT NOW I NEED TO KNOW HOEW TO DRAW A FELLING LIKE LOVE HATE SAD AND I DONT GOT NO IDEA WHAT TO DRAW THERE SO I'M SUPER FUCK THERE NO ONE CUD GIVE ME A IDEA IS ACTUALLY A FELLING THAT I'M HAVING AND I HAVE TO DRAW SOMETHING THAT HAVE TO DO WITH IT SO HELP PLEASE, AND SOMETHING ALSE YEY I FOUND OUT THE NAME OF MY CRUSH HER NAME IS LISMARY AND I WHANT TO TAKE A PHOTO OF HER LOL AND I DONT WHANT TO LIKE HER ANYMORE SHE'S STRAIGH ANYWHAYS BYE AND SORRY ABOUT MY RIGHTING IS PRETY FUCK UP IS THAT I DONT NOW HOW TO RIGH LOL SORRY.

ohh god i fill like more confuse or whatever my causin started to talk about god and all this stuff about the bible it had lots of sence but it just freak the fuck of me and he told me a lot of stuff about homosexuality and i felt like i need to stop being gay cause i know is a filling not a permanet thing and he made me beleave that gay is a really big issue and if u get more involved with it u cud actuly lose u'r self and be a the devols meet so i really dont whant to be gay but at the same time i cant stop feting my meet cause he sed that the meet loves to sin a lot so if we avoid lots of stuff we cud actualy stop being those stuff if u know what i meen and i'm not going to lie but god womens r so beutifull and cute and sexy and everything but god i whjant to die it woud be so hard cuting on womens cause i actualy dont fill a shit with guys rrrrrrrrrrrr god i am going to stop being gay i'm going to try i'm going to start tomarow... god i love u all dont hate me because of this but i am going to try to stop being gay and i love u all cause i do understand u guys but i whant to have a clean sowl...

umm people i'm going to post this again and again here for all those addictive freaks of the t.v so the people who whatch south of nowhere, the second season comes this month ( friday
september 29, 06) so u guys check it out and dont miss Degrassi ether cause it starts the same day and dont miss degrassi count down it starts this mouth i dont know the day but is this mouth anywhays check it out is going to be taet so u guys cant miss it and a nother thing i woud metion is the south of nowhere promos there giving lota of promo like crazy there cool and awsome so plase check it out...

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any body that watch south of nowhere the second season starts at september 29th friday, so check it out and dont miss it is going to be fun, and check out the-n for the promos or go to the south of nowhere myspace is officialson yo is going to be nice and if i cud post the promos here i woud but i guess oasis doesent take videos ohh well and all of u that watch degrassi to it start the same day that S.O.N statrs... ok well se ya love u all hope some one chek out the show, and is not going to be only about spenc and ash theres going to be some gay guys in this season ;-)...southofnowhereonline.com...bye xoxo

yili i'm goign to post this shit again and again in till u read it and commment on it ok...

HEY YILI I'M LIKE MAD WITH U, CAUSE I WHAS SO HAPPY THAt I HAD ALL MY WEKEN WITH OUT SCHOOL AND I KNEW CUD TALK TO U, BUT U DIRINT GOT CONECTED ARRRRRRRRR BRRRRRRRRRRRBBBB, BUT I STILL LIKE U ;-) AND I WHAS GOING TO SHOW U MY NEW PICS, WELL I DONT GOT TO MUSH BUT U SED U WHANTED TO SE SO...ANYWHAY KNOW I HAVE TO WHAIT TO NEXT SATURDAY AND MAYBE I'M NOT GOING TO TALK TO U CAUSE U HAVE SCHOOL SATURDAY, I'M PESE REALLY PESE... PLEASE GET CONECTED SATURDAY I WOUD LOVE IT IF U DU, AND YES I WILL BE HAPPY IF U LEVE ME A MAIL :-)...I LOVE U ;)...ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

well i know i never wright on my journal or whatever, but i just got to say my day whas caind of crazy cause ihad fun but i felt like shit to cause school relly make people depressing anywhays i whas happy cause going back to school and loking at nice sweet hot somiking girls cud make ur day, yeah theres more hot girls at high school and is like walking in to a world of ass u know where theres ass u woud like to have, but at the same time all of those fucking sluts r straigh and that really fucking horible but anywhays my math teacher came today he whas out for a wek cause he whas doing something about the army and he rocks cause every thersday he makes like this small activity that we cud eat junk food and listen to music for a lil waild but he looks cool, and i have like to exams allready rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr that make me fucking mad cause i hate school i'm not going to lie i just study because i'm going to ned money in the future for my kids and maybe a wief or what ever...i know sorry for boring the fuck out of u, but anywhays bye love u all...

and adam i love u to ;)