ok my grams friends kids came done at the beginning of tha summer and it was the oldest that caught my attention she 16,cute,a writer, and well interesting well once i got to my comfort zone wit them and got to no them i realized that the younger sis who is 15 doesnt like gays find it totally revolsive and the youngest wich is a boy is ok wit it and has the hots for me while the oldest is curios for it like once she realized that i was bi it was question after questions from her but once she was done wit those ?

ok i asked my crush to the movies wit me on friday so i can tell her then i asked her to go wit me the following friday to a church thing im scared kinda...cuz wat if seh gets all mad at me and dont want to come or wat if she all nervous and dont want to come but if she does come and is nervous im goin to be seriously uncomfortable(i get uncomfortable around people who a nervous by me cuz im not c

ahhh gosh im sleepy well anywayz last nite i was dangerously on the edge of suicidal but i dont ever think of killin myself but last nite i was dangerously thinkin bout it but then i realized i couldnt leave my sis that way, but then i kept on thinkin i dont want to fuckin live with this pain anymore, but then i kept on thinkin bout my sis, all i know is that life fucked up, and so is my bestfriend i dont know wat happened last nite but she ditched me we were talkin and i was considerin killin my self and she ditched me i was so pissed that i (one more reason why i didnt) wanted to yell at her the next time i see or talk to herbe then again it would make me feel real good to make her feel guilty jus playin.

there is this gabing hole
inside me somewhere between
my lungs and my stomach
nothing can explain it
noone will explain it
i feel so alone
i feel so useless
but most of all
i feel dead and now i am

wat u think?? i think i can fix it more....it would make a perfect suicide note dont u think....dont worry i wont kill myself!!

hey

jeeze this paper is big, kinda glad cuz i got alot to say. i want to start off wit thanks for tryin to help but i figured
god made me who i am i didnt choose this and i know he still loves me. so yeah i plan on doin church stuff wit u seein as
i wont do it bymself. but theres something i got to say this summer ive realized my type who i fall for easyily, who i am
and stuff like that...ive also realized that i have a hard time trustin peepsand.. ive..um ...realized i needed to tell u

yeah i wrote the letter i wrote the letter yes but ill put it on tommorow cuz i dont feel like it tonite

so adam a did u start production the cat porn u start castin cats yet lol

ok wat happens after u tell someone u like'em and they dont like u bak cuz like im tellin my bestfreind and she knows im gay and yall but i really dont want to lose our friendship and im sick of likin her and not tellin her...and like when school starts i plan on goin on a major comin out fest but want to tell her before that ap thats why i need to know wat happens after u tell someone u like'em a

ok so im thinkin of ritin my crush a letter and i was wonderin should i do it another why or is this rite so yeah i was kinda planin on puttin this in it:

my love is new
my love is naive
my love is shuned
my love is disgusted
my love is happy
my love is facinating
my love is beautiful
my love is exsquiset
my love is original
my love is different
my love is close
and my love is for you

ok look i know somepeople here do not like labels and i understand that but every single thing on this earth has a label from a rock to a tree to a pig to a box of cereal to ur name to wat u r (race wise) to wat ur about everything has a label and im sorry for that but still that poll i put on istn for labels it was to know who the majority of the people r on here it clearly says stats so yeah i didnt mean to offend anyone...

my love is new
my love is naive
my love is shuned
my love is disgusted
my love is happy
my love is facinating
my love is beautiful
my love is exsquiset
my love is original
my love is different
my love is close
and my love is for you

wat u think??