So.. Yah, I know I haven't been on here in months, but there's a nice lil story behind that. I kinda forgot my password, so I sent for a new one, and JUST now got it, like two days ago...

That conversation I had with Peyton didn't turn out so well. We had a part 2 last night, and let's just say the fact that I'm atheist came up. He comes from a family of Christians, that's fine with me, but his parents don't want him getting "involved" with someone that's not. And right about now, you could call us involved with eachother. Interesting story actually, but I'll save that for another time...

I had a REALLY bad conversation with my friend Peyton yesterday. Oh my... It started off with me telling him that he was really getting annoying to me, and it had been that way since school. He says okay, that's fine, i should've told him before now. I agree, but I thought maybe being away for summer would help me calm down and get a grip, but it didn't. He's just as annoying as before, even over the internet.

I have DSL and we're trying to hook my sisters' laptop up on it. So we plug it in directly to the DSL box... That doesn't work, I have internet on this computer, but she can't get internet... She got it for a second, then just like that it was gone... Anyone understand computers enough to give some advice on what to do? Would be GREATLY appreciated!!!

Well.. I'm glad to be able to see my sister. She moved out during last year, and it's been different since she left, but sometimes she did get on my nerves. She's almost 18 see, and I'm almost 16... So like most older siblings do she abuses the fact that she's older sometimes to get what she wants.

=Warning: Language is bad=

This is a really cool site that you can IM other people with. You can create your own avatar, and buy clothes for it which you earn by signing up, having conversations with other people, buying them, etc... You can buy little things too like katanas, sais, horns, wings etc...

I'm going to enter in a poetry contest but I don't know what to enter. I could enter part of the I love you, that I've already showed you all or I could enter this one. Or I could enter something else that I have yet to write. Read this and tell me what you guys think!

Gah. I really do hate my parents... First of all, when I was little my dad was abusive. My mom could have done something about it when he wasn't home, like oh I don't know.. Go to court about it? But NO, she doesn't do anything for 15 fucking years. 15!!!

I'm writing this about my mom, and I plan on leaving this one, plus many others somewhere for her to read, so she can finally understand that I really don't like her. I've told her and told her, but she'll never believe me, so what better way to get her to believe than some poems that I wrote? Heh. Harsh, I know. But if all of you understood what she was like, then you'd do it too... You can judge me all you want, but hey, it's my way of doing things.

A few years ago, I had this friend named Claire. Me and her were best friends. She was the one that made me realize that I am bi. Well, me and her didn't go to well after a couple of years. Another one of my so called good friends, Michelle took her away from me and now both of them hate me. But, honestly.. I still want to be Claire's friend, but she insists that I betrayed her...

I haven't seen my dad in over a year.. And yesterday I saw him for the first time. It was awkward major.... But yah, we didn't do much, we had to go to his friends house so he could get some money he was borrowing from him. Unfortunately he's broke at the moment.

Last night when I woke up, I woke up crying. I tried to remember why, and then I remembered the dream I had... Well it started off as a dream, but ended as a nightmare. I REALLY can't stand when that happens to me, it happens so much, I'm almost used to it now. But, I haven't cried from a dream/nightmare in years, but I know why I cried from this one. It hurt soooo freaking badly, even though I know it's not true!

Wow!! I found my webcam that's been lost for a year. I swore my parents had like thrown it away or something... Turns out they hid it from me T_T. They put it in the spare room when my sister moved, and it ended up in the bottom of a HUUUUGE pile of shit.

I wrote this poem to show one of my friends that I truly did love them.
I hope it's good, it took me a while to think of some of the things to say.
Tell me if you guys like it or not ^_^