Ow! I had my wisdom teeth removed last week (all four), and now the giant holes get food stuck in them (eww...), I can't eat popcorn (crap!), and they hurt and tingle at the same time (umm... okay?). Does anyone else wish to share experiences related to oral surgery, maxillofacial surgery, or dentistry to comfort me?
It's been a long, long time since I've paid a visit to Oasis. About seven months, if my guess is correct. But ever since I started an account here in the summer of 2006, my life turned into something that I can actually live in everyday. I don't coast by on autopilot anymore.
I have a question: where/how would/should one go about finding a first boyfriend? That is all...
Whoa... I'm looking back at the past few weeks of my life...
I joined Oasis at the very end of May, and since then I've come out to most of my family and my closest friends. I've come out to near strangers at a writing summer camp I went to. I've looked at my little town in an entirely different light.
My town... is just simply bigoted. I don't expect anyone to accept me, and I don't plan on coming out to my school ever. It really is a personal safety issue, because everyone is just expected to turn out Christian and straight, with no tolerance for anything different. I mean, I went through hell when I told people I was an athiest, and they still bug me about it to this day. I moved into the town two years ago, and I am at least aware that your life is really about you and your choices, not about what everyone expects you to do. So I decided that I'm never coming out.
Well, this was a few days ago, but I didn't want to post for some reason. But then I just realized that I hadn't posted in a long time. So, on to the story: So, my bro works at his girlfriend's house, right? Her parents work with film advertisments, and hes going into graphic design at college. Anyway, so he was the only one there during the afternoon last tuesday and I stopped by just to see him. We were both workin' and stuff (I was workin' on a story for a workshop I'm goin' to on Saturday), and there was just this silence, so I just poped it out there in a 15 second little speech. It was ironic because we had just been discussing my break up with my (ex) girlfriend. (I wonder why I broke up with her... it'll always be a mystery...)
Part of the reason that I joined Oasis a few days (a week, maybe?) ago was so that I could try to determine or explore my alternative sexuality. I've been coming to terms with the fact that I am gay for three years or so. I'm fairly sure that I am gay. I almost want to be gay, if that could make some sense. However, I don't know for sure, still. There has been little opportunity to even interact with gay people where I live, and therefore no opportunity to involve myself in a relationship.
It is grey today, cold enough for “warm
So guess what? My life seems to be really crazy right now. My parents have been divorced for a very long time, but my dad lost his job as a lawyer two and a half years ago. He was stealing money from his law firm. At the same time, and probably because of what my dad did, my step-mom started to drink heavily. My mom got pissed and made me move in with her for my freshman year in high school. She lives in a really small town, and it was a big adjustment to make because I was used to the city.
Damn right I am. I woke up angry this morning (never a good sign), and now my school's principal may be getting the boot because of it. (I really like having family on our school board; I'm a horrible person.) But now I don't feel anything. Let's start a forum discussion titled "Interesting topics to talk about." Or, (better yet) we could do the same thing via comments! ~~~Let's try it!~~~ (someone help me!
So, this was perhaps more sucessful than I thought. I should have done this a long time ago, but alas, I didn't. You guys are awesome! This is gonna be a great summer 'project.' Thanks for the great messages of greetings! Now I just need people to e-mail/IM/PM me...
I came to this website to try to become more involved. Below is my introduction/biography. I hope this works...
Soo... I came out to one of my parents (they're divorced), but by the end of the summer I hope to have almost everyone up to speed on all of that. I've known since, well, a long time. I really can't come out to my school, because it's in rural (ultra-) conservative-republican Iowa, and they would beat me, kill me, burn me at the stake and such. My other goal for the summer is to make a friend or two through this site so that I can keep up on the gay community or... yeah. This is still quite new to me, and I'm not used to knowing if 'gay community' is politically correct. But you know what I mean. I feel like little-retard-kid-who-can't-function-in-the-proper-social-environment. I just feel lost. And maybe lonely (does that sound tragic enough?). So, that's a fairly accurate portrayal of my feelings right now. Look for it in a journal in the next day or so.