Oh how I drive at night
Just to see that ladder
Knowing that its there for me
For me to use to get to you
Oh the ladder
What great memories we share
How the first time
You saw me after I cut my hair
Or the time after the dance
When I needed to change pants
Oh ladder you bring me joy

That ladder reminds me of you
And how you first set it up
And the first time
You told me to climb up

Fight w/ones girlfriend is bad, but fighting w/ones girlfriends ex-girlfriend is really bad. I just don't know what came over me today at school, I just got up at let her have it,straight to the face(after she called me a preppy lesbian slut)I just couldn't control myself,it was a surge of adrenaline or energy(same thing I think)rushed through me at that exact moment I hit her in her ugly as hell,smirk baring face!This did not help with the problems me and my girlfriend are having,it only made it worse.Why couldn't I just let the whore walk away,why did I have to hit her?Just couldn't let things go could I, I just had to hit her.At least the blow she got to the face knocked her flat on her big flat ass!I think my friends were more terrified than shocked to see me getangry like that.But anyway my girlfriend didn't hesitate to let me know what she thought of my Ali moment.

You push me to the edge sometimes
You push to the point
Where I want to cry
You push me so hard I can't stand it
Why must you push me so

You push me to my breaking point
You push at my weaknesses and fears
You push me till you see tears
Why must you push me so

You push me till I break
You push me till my heart aches
You push at me till my hands shake
Why must you push me so

You push all the time now

All i can think about
Are all the girls
That came before me
All the girls
You emotionally destroyed
Before you met me
All the girls
Who never had a chance
To see behind that
Tempting glance
All the girls who fell
For your delightful charm
And security in your arms
I feel bad for them

All I see are the girls
You left behind
All the girls before me
All the girls who
Could never see

I've always wondered what was missing
What it was that caused me to be upset
Why I had so much anger and hate
And why I thought that
Being alone was my fate
But now I know what it is
What it is that was missing
That was causing my rage
Why I felt like an animal
Locked away in some cage

It was you all along
Your the one reason
Why I've been going crazy
You bring joy to my day
You helped me to understand

Omg! I know I've been busy and haven't had time to write but almost 3months is way too long,no matter how busy you are. Anyway to the good stuff,I am officially a senior and about to be 18 in alittle more than 2weeks(hurray for me!) I got a freakin huge dog he's almost as tall as me. But anyway an explanation for the months absence. I had to come to terms with the fact that I do have a girlfriend and no one but us and her little sister knows.

Return to reality is what I must do
I can't just be with you
I can't just be your friend by day
And girlfriend by night
This sneaking around isn't right

Everynight I'm with you
I feel like I could fly
Getting lost in your eyes
Makes me high
Sitting next to you
Is a dream come true
But when I'm with you
I know it must end
For in the morning
I'm just another friend
Wishing last night wouldn't end

have you seen the way
that she looks at me
have seen the way
that you look at her
do you notice her face
and how her expressions change
do you notice at all
do you care

do you notice
at how her face tells
when she'll give you her heart
or give you hell
do you notice anything at all
do notice the things
that she does for you and me
could you give your all
just to be with her I mean

To the dogs go my life
My rots two of a kind
I feed them,clean them
And play with them
I give them my heart
I give them my all
And I know there love
For me will never fall

I give them my time and energy
I let them sleep in the bed with me
I let me completely obsess over me
I let them have complete controll over me

To the dogs go my life
Every second is theirs
I know their waiting by the stairs

Man first dates suck hardcore!I'm not complaining about the person I was with or anything but it just wasn't what I expected.We didn't even talk,all we could do was look at each other from opposite sides of the table at dinner and look out the window on the ride to the park and home.All that happened was complete silence.The most that was said was what time do you want to be home and did you like

Blue are you
Blue as the sky
Never ending
No matter how high

Blue are you
Blue as the sea
With depths so decieving
You frighten me

Blue are you
Dull in emotion
Standing still
Like a calm ocean

Blue are you
Meaningless than
The sky
I wouldn't try
To reach you
No matter how high

Blue are you
This sickly thing
This purpose
You once brought me
Loses meaning
With time

I'm telling the truth this girl is the biggest distraction ever!When I got to school this morning and was walking through the parking lot, I almost fell in the dirt while we were walking and looking at each other around the lanes of cars, If that wasn't enough I couldn't do my powerpoint presentation in Bus.Law because I was so busy staring and giggling at her funny faces.Then I almost ran into an open locker while I was walking behind her in the hallway,man today was hard!But if you really want to know how must of a distraction she really is for me, at lunch I didn't even eat, I just sat across from her listening to her talk to our friends.

Yeah so due to the overwhelming response that I should call my friend back, I decided to call her today.When she answered the phone I hung up immedditely in fear she would bring up the obvious issue at hand. So after 15mins of avoiding her calls again, I decided to get in my car and drive out to her house, hoping that no one would be there, but I was wrong.She was actually there sitting in the living room staring at the phone.

Tonight I've missed exactly twenty phone
calls from the same girl. What was I suppose
to do, stay in here room and proceed with
whatever it was that was about to happen between us
after her sister had walked in and killed the mood.
Giving me time to collect my thoughs and come back
to reality just in time for Ren and Stimpy.I may
be seen as a coward and a little excited or freaked by
the current race of events, but I think I have a

Everyone knows your hot
Everyone knows I'm cold
You were black
I wear red
You say chuncked
I say threw
You say I love
I say I know you do
Everyone knows what you are
But no one knows your heart
And thats where it all starts

But who knew I liked you
Who knew I think of you
Who knew I desired you the most
Who knew your the reason
Why I can't speak
Your the reason why
I turn guys down