After an early morning and classes, I ended up going out with Jesse tonight for some reason. I took her to some hole in the wall record store,since she's into that stuff, then we back to her house. We hung out as usual and had free roam of the house since everybody else was out to some dinner. I finally talked to her about just what exactly was going on between us since she wouldn't bring it up.

Waking up to the sound of my phone ringing at 4 in the morning isn't exactly the way I planned to start my first day of college. And of course it was my ex Jesse calling to see if I was up,(Why would I be up,its 4am). So after getting up I went over to her house and hung out a while before I had to leave since I had a class at 8. But she said 2 hours was enough time for us to hang.

Church today was crazy,first we had some guy from another come and preach to us about what an apology is. According to him its understanding your beliefs.wtf? I thought an apology was asking for forgiveness,or admitting your wrong or whatever?

I went out with Jesse tonight and I swear it seemed like everything was cool. When we got back to her cousins house we went inside said hello to her sister and uncle,then went to her room to watch tv.

My ex Jesse can be a handfull sometimes but thats "what" made her so unique and that she walks around like she's hottest girl u will ever see,which may or may not be true. But I tell u she can also act like a little kid. When I took her to the mall today she wanted to touch every little thing in every freakin store!

I found out that my ex Jesse lied to me about when she was coming to Vancouver. She said she and her sister would fly in next week, not this week. So much to my surprise when I went over to an "aunts" house this morning I saw her and her sis sitting on the couch just a chatting away with my "family"!

Today I called my ex for the first time since I moved. It was soooo weird trying to make conversation with her over the phone, I think its from the fact that when I left we were on shaky ground. I mean can one ever forgive their ex for cheating on them during their entire relationship, right under my nose at that.

I had my first official meeting today with the girl from my churches regional choir.I found that she didn't want to be stuck at church Monday afterschool, after all she probably had homework judging from the fairly large backpack she had on her back when I picked her up from school. We didn't talk at all on the way to church which was about a 15min drive with afterschool traffic.

I was just sitting in my pew at church with my aunt as usual, surrounded by the people who have help mold me into the good little quaker that I am,preparing to listen to our region choir, who unbeknown to me "SUCK"!

I am living in Washington now and the first thing my grandparents did when we arrived was set me up a doctors appointment. The good old doctor ladys diagnosis was that I had severe damage to my kneecap and would need surgery as soon as possible if I wanted to ever play volleyball again without getting a shot daily in my knee.

For some reason today at work, the entire staff including the managers were out of their minds! The store manager almost fell on her ass while entering through the door. I'm guessing she forgot that the construction workers had pulled the tile from the floors.

I was walking out to my car yesterday during my lunch break at work and this girl almost ran me over! She was so busy talking to her friend that she never noticed that I had waited for her to pull to the window,so I just took off walking through the drive-through. She stopped just inches from me. My manager was laughing out the drive-through window at the whole thing!

School has been out and now its time to go to school, this time its college. I am leaving Arkansas and am moving back to Vancouver,Washington, oh joy!

Please allow her to concentrate
Just for five minutes please
Allow her to clear her mind of negative thoughts
Block out all things that remind her of me
Please allow her to concentrate
Focus on school and work
I'm sick and tired of seeing her hurt
Allow her to smile her beautiful smile
Let her graduate
She's had a rough year
And I don't want to be the reason
Why she comes back next year

Everything was going just fine for me until I just had to give in to the temptation of my friends and drink!First off I have never had a sip of alcohol in my life nor have I done drugs(I live above the influence).But Saturday everthing went down the drain.I went to a party,got drunk and made some bad choices.I was like the worlds most experienced yet unexperienced drunk at the party.Dancing all ov