Agggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh I have that horrible sinking feeling of being completely fucked because I have to take a test I'm not prepared for at all.*Bangs head into wall*

I just want to say thanks to the Oasis peeps that commented on my last journal entry.I was kind of having a bad day and being gay was seeming a big part of that.So thanks guys for the advice it did help.

Today I kept thinking about what it would be like to be straight.Which basically means I spent my day wishing to be straight,to the point where I found myself considering pushing all gay feelings aside and just dating guys just to feel normal.I do of course realise that that would be a horrible thing to do,which in the long term scheme of things I probably couldn't go through with.But for a few mi

*I really have a problem with people that urinate in public!In the past couple of days I've seen three different guys weeing in the street.This really bothers me because it is unhygieneic,it smells,and is generally just unpleasant!!Okay tha is my rant over.*

I haven't been very active on here lately.Mainly because I have been really busy with college,work, and juggling all the other million things I usually have to do these days.I grossly underestimated the amount of study I would have to do for my college course this year.However I think I am getting back on-top of things again(ignoring the exam I failed this morning).I'm not really sure what I want

I'll keep this brief but I just had to put it out there-I finally got to go to a gaybar.It was awesome!!So much fun,I'm never going to another straight bar again!

It has been a while since I have journalised.Partially because I have been so busy and partially because I have been having a really paranoid phase of omg what if someone ever found this journal!!I go through phases like that from time to time,but I am over it now.

This may turn out to be a very random entry.I keep thinking oh hey I want to make a journal on oasis, but then I get distracted by something else and it doesn't get written. So whatever it was that I was going to write about ends up being pushed back by something else that I think of.But I think I am like that in general.I tend to jump from one idea to the next and end up all over the place.

I've just come-out to my cousin.She has been my bestest best friend since before we could even walk or talk.I think this made telling her more difficult than either of the two people I have told before.I decided this week that I was just going to tell her.I couldn't keep contemplating it.So I text her yesterday and arranged to meet for dinner because there was something I needed to talk to her a

I am so tired but I have decided to make a journal entry before going to bed to get some of the stuff out that has been keeping me awake the past few nights.Maybe if I write it down before I go to bed it will mean it's out of my head a little to let me sleep.Basically I am trying to cleanse myself of my own madness.

Hello Oasis!I am in a good mood because I finally have a day off work.I've worked six days in a row so I was starting to get desperate for a day off.

So I got tickets to a gig in England (I live in Ireland) in a couple of months!Woo and I might add a hoo!The friend I am going with is the one I have mentioned in many previous entries who I think is probably gay too.We booked the flights and hotel yesterday so it is all sorted.

A second journal in as many days from me wow!I always feel weird about writing lots of journals in a row.I'm not sure why,I think its because I feel like i'm really just going on and on.But anyway I shall continue to write because I just feel like writing!

So I'm back in college in eh two weeks eek!!It was a quick Summer filled with rain and lots of work.But contrary to how grim that sounds it was better than last Summer,and I think I am happier in myself going back to college.I think this Summer has given me some more confidence.I have really settled in at work,I get on really well with almost everyone and its fun to be there.I kind of miss it if I

I really want to make a journal entry because I have lots of stuff that I just want to write about.Just to get it all out there.I sort of feel like everything around me is moving really quickly right now and I somehow have gotten swept along but I have no idea where the hell I am at the minute.I'm just sort of caught up in everything,yet at the same time I feel like in my head I have completely ch