TADA! now tell me...is it not a huge injustice for that thing to be with Ohad The Handsome?

HARA B'ZIBI!
it means "shit in a vagina"....it's it's like...way awesome. the saying, not the notion of shit in a vagina.

it's getting bad, i'm falling in love, it's a stupid thing to do...and why? he's done nothing to really deserve it. and i'm thinking about him, i'm thinking about him a lot, it's stupid. very stupid even. i need sleep, and i need to stop thinking about him...and i need to do my uni work...i didn't submit one whole assignment for sculpture, haven't got fuck all chance of doing video...been late everyday this week, not doing homework...and falling asleep in class. why do i even want a boyfriend? who needs them? i got sex coming out of my ears...who needs more right?
...
right?

i need some...help/advice/suggestions. obviously it's about Ohad. I feel really strange, maybe it's in my head. i dunno where to place it though, i just know something feels wrong, very wrong even.

good night fuckers! xoxox

THIS IS THE BOY......SEXEH
did i tell you he calls me "snoopoo"
it's that just fucking grosely adorable!?

word of the day: MORK

(free to interpretation, pat invented the word)
used in an adam sentence: i'm gonna mork you up the ass with a spoon
other people can use it however they like.

you people are in trouble, coz when i have a real crush, i'm a 13 year old girl, in a pink dress, on her white fluffy bed, on the phone, curling her blonde hair with her finger, with a teddybear on her lap.

so i didn't get this morning to tell you what happened to me last night with the boys. in the end, i saw them both. Aviv i saw because i enjoy him, his body, his kissing and his company, he's a good friend/fuck buddy, but i will not see him again while Ohad is in the picture (btw to pronounce that name is like: O-HUD, but most people are lazy and say: O-ad).

so...i've taken my time to cool the fuck down.. and well, i wanted to apologise for my petite little hissy fit last night, i'm not usually so prone to oasian bitch fits but last night i got a royal one when for an instant i thought the friendship and support i always assumed i have here was lost. after posting that nasty little journal entry and reading all your comments both there and in the forum topic i realized i had made a mistake and that the friendship and support i have here is even greater than i had imagined.

just to let you know, i think a great many of you showed me tonight that u really are assholes. when a perfect idiot comes and insults pat tim and i, you're all very quick to defend tim and pat, and just agree with his assessment of me. so you know u'r no better than he is, and so you know none of you have so much as a fucking clue i really am. disappointing and offensive
but hey, ignore me, i'm "just freaky"
mother fuckers.

and i don't mean the britney spears classic.

people...i promise i will responde to various comments and pms in the extremely near future but first...RED FUCKING ALARM!!!!
so we all know i'm a bit of a whore....but tonight was something different, i went on date two with amit...he bores me, it's official...

i'm gonna be good from now on, promise! no more one night stands except for the straight boy...well i think we can officially call him bi, so lets just call him by his name...Aviv.
no more alcohol...ok i can't expect myself to stop completely..so...lets say, one night every few weeks, beyond that, a glass of wine here and there....no more.
start eating again...preferably healthy...but eating at all is a good start.
i'll get the blood test for my diabetes and that HIV test while i'm at it.
i'll try and put more effort into school and less on other things

officially broke my kink virginity...gave the guy his favourite thing....a golden shower. tada! was grose, i made him shower right after

oh! oh my god!!! look at that! what is that!? oh dear! it can't be! but it is but it is!
A FLYING FUCK!!
gonna take that stupid ukranian for one last fuck session before he goes back to his boyfriend and then i'm swearing off married/taken men for good. my objective tonight is to teach the moron how to kiss, and we shall consider it my personal gift to the world population for which i expect some major brownie points with Jesus or Oprah...whoever is waiting at the pearly gates.