so i got to go to work in 3 hrs. i'm not looking forward to it. lately i've been hating work, like the joy i once found in it has jus all been sucked out. idk why. & it doesnt help that people have noticed the change. i love the people interaction and my coworkers, but i feel that something is missing in my life.

i've been sick for about 4 days now. feeling like a pile of crap lol. it sucks cause i missed 3 days of school already and i hate missing school. i had a bowl of good ol Campbell's chicken noodle soup & a cup of nice hot herbal tea curled up on the couch watching Doctor Who. a very serene, & peaceful moment.

..grown ups to make a relationship work. hmmm. so i just finished watching a really good filipino movie called One More Chance. i was being a crybaby and bawled lol. it was about a couple who was together for 5 years, but as much as they were in love they began growing apart from what they were like when they fell in love. problems arose and they broke up.

I just spent the last hour or so talking to aja, who as my best friend thinks she can hook me up and find me a gf before i leave in 5 or 6 months. the problem i have with that is i'm getting kinda tired of everyone wanting and feeling the need to hook me up. do i come off as a big ass lonely lesbian to everyone? the other problem is with what happens when i leave?

so its 2:48 am. i jus got home from a lil drive practically around the island. at work everyone wanted to party, so it ended up where we're all going to brits house to play wii and get drunk. but then we all decided to jus all jump in kori's car and go "ghost" hunting, which ended up in us goin down creepy dark roads and telling stories.

Thats all i saw today. hehe. i enjoyed it...well to a certain point. two reasons why i didnt enjoy it are that one) i wish i had a body like all cute sexy girls i saw & two) i felt lonely. i looked at all them girls and longed to have someone with me.

So i watched Cloverfield last night. it was an interesting movie besides the fact that i got major motion sickness and ended up throwing up 10 mins before it ended. i didnt know that there was a warning bout there being a lot of movement and that you shouldnt watch if you get motion sickness until after i ate.

so. my friend and i went to the park today to play ball and for me to go running. it was fun. i actually did some running lol (i'm usually lazy to go) & was okay at shooting hah. afterwards, i ended up...cutting my hair lol. i gave myself some bangs and cut it a lil shorter. aja said that she likes it...like really likes it.

So yeah. I was in borders looking for a book by this supposedly HOT author that came to my school for a literature thing (my friend saw her and i missed it, she wrote bout SEX of all things and i missed it) and i saw this tall guy in the corner of my eye walking behind me and he poked me! I was like wtf?

Hehe. so i rented Good Luck Chuck (unrated version, of course.) & i couldnt help but get naughty thoughts with so many half naked women lol. the sad part bout it is that i was in the living room with my auntie, uncle and with the lil cousins running around, so i could not use my naughty thoughts for good use and had to instead pretend that it disgusted me more than arouse me hah.

We were reading Edmund Spencer's poem, Sonnet 75. It was sweet!

So i'm back to school...its pretty much my last quarter seeing that we grad in may. only 4 more months to go. i am currently bored out of my mind because i'm in my teachers aid class and the class is just taking noter so i got nothing to do but try and keep myself up, at least i only got like 20 mins left lol.

I dont know what i'm going to do. Today i failed my road test...for the second time. i wouldve gotten it today but because of one mistake, my tester couldnt pass me...i was thinking he could jus give me a warning but no i have to go back nxt week for the third time. i feel like such a failure, disappointed myself twice already.

...but i cant live without you in my life.

...around the island we go. i'm chilling in the back of my dads truck with my cousin and my friend drinking my matcha green tea blast wit bananas, choc base, an energy & weight burn boost. Lol.i cant wait to get to the beach and finally get a tan, i have gotten too light hah. Well imma check back later when i can see what i'm writing lol. Have a good day everyone!