gahh.
HI:]

so there's an issue/problem between my gf&her best friend.
idk really.
junior prom is about a week away and because of money issues my gf couldn't go&same issue for the guy she was gonna go with, so it wasn't too bad.
that was about a week ago.
her best friend who is going, decided that she wanted my gf to go and said that she'd pay told her she had to go, but still no matter if she paid for the bid my gf would still need a date and a dress plus everything else, which she didn't want her parents to pay for 'cause they've paid for enough things so far like our new puppy.

...has maybe made me bonkers lol.

i just finished watching episode 6 & while i'm in bed wondering WTH is going on in the show...i come on here which it has been a few days since i have and find out something has happened. oh poor pat :[
it makes me sad.
whatever happened to pat.
&
what is going on in the show.
gosh.
i'm a big ball of confusion&sadness.

sigh.
pat will be okay.
i'm sure of it.
nothing can happen to him.

so.
the show.
i hate that it's ending.
i don't like jenny&shane together (i miss carmen).

...the last 3 episodes of the LWord.
aren't you?

lol.
i think the reason why i'm really into the LWord is because i don't have enough GAY in my life. sigh. idk i think that since i don't work with my old coworkers anymore i'm just not getting my daily dose of GAY.
does that make sense?
i usued to be surrounded by GAY men n women and now...it's like i'm always hoping for one to be around wherever i go. i guess i miss my old friends and since i barely work i feel very distanced from everything.

HI:]

its been fucking FOREVER.

whats new witcha?

hehe.

well. there's news here;
*been living with my gf for about 7-8 months now.
*we're going to make a year next month. :)
*currently looking for another job, still at the same place tho hehe.
*crap....like always.

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a lot of people have probably made their own entries about this topic, but it really hit me now. i was about to look for videos to watch on truveo and there were videos on Obama an other political issues but
Prop.8 stood out.
there was a video, 8 minutes on prop. 8, and I felt touched that someone would make a video like that. the man brought some good issues up and I actually agreed.

...how much i love him&that it hurts.

the he is...my father.

so...i'm at home and have absolutely NOTHING to do & it sucks.
i could start packing but my gf thinks that we should do that together lol...yeah i'm leaving to go Kauai tomorrow (kauai is a neighboring island) for my gf's bowling tournament.
yes. i am a dedicated, committing gf lol.
i watched some of her practices.
all but one of her h.s bowling games.

hehe.
yup. well...here i am...again lol.
a lot of shit has happened...a lot.
like;
*running away before i turned 18 & not going back home.
i've been living with my gf and her parents for 4 or 5 months now...really trippy. i feel kinda bad but they never complain about me being there :/.

...GRADUATION!

& more than a friend.

"i walked into a room full of both strangers and friends, with a smile i sat down but with a frown i looked around. someone i knew turned around and asked me, "whats wrong?", i looked at him and replied, "i feel lost". he looked around the room then turned to me, "how are you lost?

...have i finally found the girl i've been waiting for?

so. i got a comment last night on downe on my default pic, which is a full body pic. i'm laying on the ground showing a lot of skin lol. & i was wondering what people would say. Hehe. well. i got the comment from this girl who has the same name as my ex (kinda interesting cause its not a really common name) and i've seen her around my job and the mall.

hehe. i thought it was funny. i just learned it in japanese class. it means 'only small one is okay'. so. i'm sitting in piano class watching my bestest guy friend who is going to do my hair for prom & design my dress lol. cleavage?

so i just got home from work. gosh. i havent had a bad day at work like today. it was my worst day ever. customers with the worse attitudes. guys who thought they were the shit and tried to show me they were. fucking idiots. one of the new girls was a total pain in everyones ass today. the only good thing today was all the guys i worked with today, i lovee' them so.