"the less of you i see..."

808Chik — Thu, 02 Jul 2009 12:56:19 +0400

"...the better off i'll be."
...
*sigh*.
i want school to start already. i need things to keep me busy. june was too much of a bad month for me. i'm hoping that july gets better but i highly doubt it. i just want time to pass by quickly and august to be here already.
...
i haven't been on since april. a lot has happened since then. a lot has happened since a lot of things. i'm just living each day with a calmness that i'm lying to myself with. trying to make myself feel better about everything going on even though deep inside i know that its not okay. but i need to be strong especially now.

weirdness, dude.

808Chik — Wed, 01 Apr 2009 16:47:13 +0400

sooooooo.
last night; tuesday night. 30 Mar. 2009
i had the most weirdASSest dream that i think that i have ever had.
...
i'll tell it to you:

i was with my gf, uncle dave, and uncle jason. my uncle dave rented a room for all of us to stay at in a resort-looking place the the night. it seemed like a spring break kinda vacation 'cause there was a lot of people at the place, moreso young people than older.

i believe it might've been suicide

808Chik — Fri, 13 Mar 2009 14:39:27 +0300

i think that as much as everyone wants to think that there was a killer...
...jenny just offed herself.

well.
i just finished reading the LWord recap on www.thelwordonline.com by: Riese, who i admire for her recaps on each episode altho i have only read 3 recaps lol.
but towards the end it actually makes sense.
like, jenny admitted to kit that she knows that no one wants her around and such and in the end of the tribute tape she's saying thank you and goodbye.
idk dude.

the LWord Finale...

808Chik — Sat, 07 Mar 2009 15:34:53 +0300

...will sadly probably NOT be watched by me.

why?
'cause i don't catch Showtime.
gosh i would love to watch the whole 2 hour finale event.
:[
but i will, oh yes i will, be watching the last episode.
THAT...i would not miss 'cause YouTube :p lol.
i can't wait...can you?
i just LOVES the show.
&&i hope Carmen makes an appearance.
i know molly does, but i'm not too fond of molly lol.

ahhhhh.
i'm excited but not.
it's the last fricken season.
i hate that.
but maybe the spinoff will be good.
but then all you'll probably see is Alice.
gah.

as you can see.
i can't sleep.

the incredibly true adventures...

808Chik — Thu, 05 Mar 2009 21:53:31 +0300

of two girls in love. :]

gahh.
its a good movie so far.
:]
i lovee stumbling upon movies like this and just curling up in bed just wasting the day away lol.
i still can't believe that its Laurel Holloman as Randy.
i feel like i'm watching a teenage version of the L Word, but with just her and looking like a oldendays shane aha.

i love how the movie is played out though.
a well outed dyke (excuse my language:p) Randy meets popular&smart straight(until proven otherwise) Evie && have an "adventure"...a love adventure :]

its cute.
diverse.
&controversal.

wth does that mean?

808Chik — Thu, 05 Mar 2009 15:52:11 +0300

gahh.
HI:]

so there's an issue/problem between my gf&her best friend.
idk really.
junior prom is about a week away and because of money issues my gf couldn't go&same issue for the guy she was gonna go with, so it wasn't too bad.
that was about a week ago.
her best friend who is going, decided that she wanted my gf to go and said that she'd pay told her she had to go, but still no matter if she paid for the bid my gf would still need a date and a dress plus everything else, which she didn't want her parents to pay for 'cause they've paid for enough things so far like our new puppy.

my L word obsession...

808Chik — Tue, 24 Feb 2009 15:33:23 +0300

...has maybe made me bonkers lol.

i just finished watching episode 6 & while i'm in bed wondering WTH is going on in the show...i come on here which it has been a few days since i have and find out something has happened. oh poor pat :[
it makes me sad.
whatever happened to pat.
&
what is going on in the show.
gosh.
i'm a big ball of confusion&sadness.

sigh.
pat will be okay.
i'm sure of it.
nothing can happen to him.

so.
the show.
i hate that it's ending.
i don't like jenny&shane together (i miss carmen).

so i'm looking forward to...

808Chik — Wed, 18 Feb 2009 16:24:04 +0300

...the last 3 episodes of the LWord.
aren't you?

lol.
i think the reason why i'm really into the LWord is because i don't have enough GAY in my life. sigh. idk i think that since i don't work with my old coworkers anymore i'm just not getting my daily dose of GAY.
does that make sense?
i usued to be surrounded by GAY men n women and now...it's like i'm always hoping for one to be around wherever i go. i guess i miss my old friends and since i barely work i feel very distanced from everything.

Goshdamnit.

808Chik — Tue, 27 Jan 2009 00:01:20 +0300

HI:]

its been fucking FOREVER.

whats new witcha?

hehe.

well. there's news here;
*been living with my gf for about 7-8 months now.
*we're going to make a year next month. :)
*currently looking for another job, still at the same place tho hehe.
*crap....like always.

Prop.8

808Chik — Mon, 10 Nov 2008 13:05:49 +0300

a lot of people have probably made their own entries about this topic, but it really hit me now. i was about to look for videos to watch on truveo and there were videos on Obama an other political issues but
Prop.8 stood out.
there was a video, 8 minutes on prop. 8, and I felt touched that someone would make a video like that. the man brought some good issues up and I actually agreed.

if only he knew...

808Chik — Wed, 29 Oct 2008 21:07:05 +0300

...how much i love him&that it hurts.

the he is...my father.

boo hoo...

808Chik — Wed, 29 Oct 2008 00:15:41 +0300

so...i'm at home and have absolutely NOTHING to do & it sucks.
i could start packing but my gf thinks that we should do that together lol...yeah i'm leaving to go Kauai tomorrow (kauai is a neighboring island) for my gf's bowling tournament.
yes. i am a dedicated, committing gf lol.
i watched some of her practices.
all but one of her h.s bowling games.

back...again.

808Chik — Fri, 24 Oct 2008 22:59:26 +0400

hehe.
yup. well...here i am...again lol.
a lot of shit has happened...a lot.
like;
*running away before i turned 18 & not going back home.
i've been living with my gf and her parents for 4 or 5 months now...really trippy. i feel kinda bad but they never complain about me being there :/.

That day has finally come and gone...

808Chik — Tue, 03 Jun 2008 00:19:49 +0400

...GRADUATION!

...more than a lover.

808Chik — Mon, 31 Mar 2008 13:58:31 +0400

& more than a friend.