Yeah...I'll be fourteen. It feels weird. Today last year I thought I was straight as a ruler, but now I think that ruler kinda got bent just a bit. Hehe. I'm getting tired and I have school tomorrow.

My sort of crush is starting in my school, so I'm interested in seeing how that goes.

I'd say more but I really should be getting to bed, so I'll see yaz next time

~Randi

So scary...freaky to know that had she rebounded off that wall with a bit more force, our lips would've accidentely met. I keep thinking that I'm dreaming...but it seems that she's trying to sort of "sit" closer to me and stuff... *almost hyperventilates*. I'm going on vacation in awhile with the same girl...hopefully I'll survive. Lol.

So yeah...until then. :)

~Randi

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T5GSt1EBLtU

**I tried to embed it but it said that it was suspicious of transmission or something. So I dunno what's up.**

Wow. This is awesome. Maybe it's because FINALLY after figuring out what was wrong, I could hear videos. Or maybe it's just because it's like 12AM here. Either way, I love this video. Love it!! :)

I'm leafing through the fabulous August issue of Cosmo, and I near the back of the magazine, and my heart literally skips a beat or two. Here's why:

At the top of the page, it says, "Young, Gorgeous, and Gay". It shows a picture of the two authors, Lauren Blitzer and Lauren Levin, and then it displays an interview with the two.

Throughout all this, I'm thinking, "I'd love to read this book!"

i haven't been on here in awhile so I thought I'd better make an update lol.

Currently not much's been happening same old same old. Got out of school for summer. ^_^ Havent thought much about my sexuality...tried to take a break from it. K well wish I could make a longer update but g2g so see yaz laters hopefully.

Ok so today my school had track and field day...so anyways, I hung out with this group (I'm not close friends with all, just some) and k we were really really hyper...and these two girls and I started talking about gay/lesbian/bi. my friends were cool about the topic. But then, I was laughing and through my laughter, I accidently slipped "Yeah well I'm practically lesbian and bi!" Then I had to laugh it off and pretend I was kidding.

I don't get it!! Well actually I do, because she's straight (duh) but what I mean is sort of like damnit...I want her...but her b/f beat me to the prize...just like everyone else has (you know like when you run a race or summin.)...go figure. You'll always recognize me as the last girl lagging along two blocks behind everyone else... *sigh*

Okay, okay I'll shuddup and stop bitching...

See ya round pplz!

Well anyways I think I love her (more than friend love) only problem is she has a boyfriend and most defintetly straight and I've told her that I'm questioning (told my mom too i think she [mom] is hobophobic) and my fi feel but I'm scared too though cuz like ihow I feel but I'm scared too though cuz like i said she has a b/f and they look/sound so cute together and she really loves him and I don't want to jepoardize that...yet I can't seem to even be able to squash my feelings (I even thought if i could even try liking another girl that'd be good, but no matter how many girls i think about she remains in my head 24/7. :(