So, I haven't posted in forever. Over 3 months...

so, lots has happened, i moved out of my cousins place and couldnt be happier. I love my apartment, nice and big for the same money. Me and my roommate get along great. I've been working out of town lots and been very busy.

Im still single but im still happy with it. And I found a new bar, its called woodies and its er, fun :D. The dress code is a lot less strict, in short more boys with fewer shirts. And bartenders in breifs :D. It makes me very happy.

Anyways, I'm looking forward to Christmas, and spending time with my family. Which is a change, my parents seem to have leveled out, and indifference is better than discouragement.

on a side note, wow Oasis has changed lots.

But thats all the update I have for you guys/gals

So, I apparently havent updated my journal in um forever, so anyways...

In my last episode I was freaking over how my cousin doesnt trust me, well I'm happy to announce my independance, i'm moving out of there in 2 weeks to an apartment back in the city I love, E-Town. So no more cousin *rasberry* anyhoo...

I got moved to a new crew at work as well, I work with a very hunky guy, and we have been working out of town so we live toghether, *joy* but since he figured out I'm gay he stopped wearing his muscle shirts, :( oh well. But he does have his downfalls, he is ummmm, psycho, he has some serious anger issues and when he make threats of death dismemberment or otherwise he has this super creepy sincerity to his voice. And then he laughs when hes done. *shiver* I only have two more weekes left to work with him though so it should be kosher. Okay onto my parental update

Me and my family have never gotten along so well, since im not around every day, they seem to appreciate the time i spend with them more, wich is good. My Dad is warming up some more to my life, and when i told them about me getting kicked out of school and how i dont want to go back they were actually pretty civil, YAY. Dad Told me about how he got kicked out of college too, so its all good. He only wants the best for me because he loves me. Mom is doing a lot better too, oh and my piercing made them all freak out mwa ha ha ha. All it is is an industrial, I liked it but it wouldnt heal so I got two sectional rings, they look solid but arent they look really good. I may just keep them and get another helix piercing, but meh, thats all in the air for now. But I imagine this is getting long winded so I will close with a joke.

How many Emo kids does it take to change a lightbulb??

Emo kids wont change lightbulbs they sit in the corner and cry in the dark.

I know its weak but meh.

[rant] ARG.... ok, so before i lose it completely you all need a little backstory.....

This summer i moved to a new town for a new job, partly to get away from my parents, partly just cuz i needed some change. Anyways i moved in with my cousin who lives in said town, everything was well and good until I wanted to have a friend over. I was told, that i needed to make arrangements so that one of them could be in the house to meet him. which i was ok with, they also hinted that they only wanted to meet who was coming over. So he came over and met my cousins, the next time we wanted to do something I just invited him over and got royally chewed out, cuz they arent home. And this has been the story since, I cant have anyone over unless they are around. At first I was insulted cuz if they cant trust the people i associate with then why the hell do they trust me?!?!? I ranted and groaned a little and made NO progress. Well, this week they are out of town and the rules still stood no one in the house but me and my other cousin (she is house sitting cuz we have new puppies and they need to be taken care of as i work 12 hour days) So anyways i get home tonight and go down stairs, and she has a friend over. I bite my tongue cuz im a nice guy. i exchange pleasentries with my cousin and go to head upstairs. As I turn my back she declares "Your dismissed" in this "I AM HOLIER THAN THOU" voice. I pun back and very curtly told her that she didnt need to dismiss me i can rome the house as I please. She then told me that the house was left to her cuz T&J (my cousin and her fiance) dont like the Idea of me being here alone. Im a little irritated cuz shes appointed herself "queen of the nile" so i snap back. Well i also know that theyre isnt supposed to be friends in the house when they are gone. she brushes me off saying that she is excluded cuz its her "best friend." So just to summarize, she comes to house sit cuz the people im renting from dont trust me, she can have a friend over, but i cant. I mean what the fuck?!?!?!. This is total bullshit. Grrrrrrrr, oh and to top it all off, when i asked about why they wont let me bring a guy friend over she imediatly retorts "well its not because your gay?" why would she suggest this first? of all things unless that is why? GRRRRR

Is something wrong with me or them?!?!?

[/rant]

OH MY GOD!!

This movie is so f-ing awsome.The best, and I mean the VERY best movie I've ever seen. It made me think, it made me laugh, it even made me cry. (The letter from the lesbian if you must know) It is the most beutiful peice of art I have ever seen. I think I liked the movie just because of how scary it was. I dont think anything like it could happen but still... Made me think about how scary the world could be. If your looking for a good movie, I cant recommend it enough.

This year I started an anime club at my school. Its lots of fun and I feel like my self there. And from day one I said there would be no hentai, ECSPECIALLY Yuri (anime lesbian pr0n) unless they would all watch yaoi (anime gay porn). I made the statement for the first few meetings. Also, when ever i see the steriotyped jiggly boobs, i usually laugh. Or i snicker jiggle jiggle. One day someone slipped a little more risque piece into our showing and there was some full frontal nudity, after the show I appologized profusely hoping that i hadnt damaged any other gay men in the audience every laughed cuz they all know im gay. Anyways, tonight, after the show me and a friend, were joking over who the hottest villian was. I said pegasus, she likes faust. I asked one of the people who she thought was hotter, and she looked at me like i was crazy, I asked catiously if she knew that i was gay, she gasped "what..." I burst out laughing. Apparently she thought that i was joking the whole time. Im not sure if its a good or bad thing that i dont make a convincing gay. Any thoughts...

I hate spammers, especially when they post lists of child porn sites. Also I hate it when people make me play guessing games, because they think im good at "problem solving", im looking at you Jen. Anyways off to dinner.

I just need to blow off a little steam

::Rant

If your going to go to a hockey game, please go because you want to enjoy yourself. Dont go for the violence, dont go to SCREAM and YELL profanity in your fellow hockey fans ears. Also keep in mind, were not all perfect like you, and that the refs donot have a birds eye view. Also hurling insults at the playes doesn't help them play any better. Also if you feel the need to drink do it responsibly, Drunken idiots are worse than sober ones. And if your team loses, instead of cursing them out acknowledge they played better than you could ever.

::End Rant

Ok I feel better, no new news otherwise:)

Me and Dad are getting along better and better every day, he's almost bcome supportive of my life. The thing that suprised me the most is how he supports my religious freedom, I've recently started going to a differn't church, its nondenominational christian, I really like it, it feels like I belong. It is so awsome.

Although everything is going well with dad mom is not doing so well with me, she is still worried that im making a bad choice. She's kinda in the guilt hump of her grieving. I dont talk much with her because it is very emotional. She feels as if she's failed me, she also blames dad for not taking me to church enough, cuz if i had been a good catholic i would be straight, uh huh ya I believe that...NOT. But overall things are better.

If there are any edmontonians who want more info on the church give me a PM.

I think my dad is starting to adjust to my orientation. I told him that I was going on a date on sunday, which i am kinda sorta. He voiced no concerns to it and just told me to be safe. I think this is good, although when I told him it was a girl I thought he might have whiplash because of how fast he turned to face me. He asked all sorts of questions, age, looks, name, where she lives. I suppose its good that he wouldn't care if I went out on a date with a guy, yet he seems almost desperate just in how he cared all of sudden when it was a girl. I know he is always going to hope that I find a girl and sometimes so do I, but I have this gut feeling that I'm going to always either have a boyfriend or cheat on a girlfriend. But thats just my thoughts at the moment, and I've been told that when i find the right person everyone else cant compare. I really hope this is true.

So, things in my life are still on the upward stroke, (mind out of gutter) me and dad are getting along good, we talk and dont avoid eachother, I think everything is going to be ok on that front. And as for school were things have been less than stellar. I got a tutor to come and give me some help to get caught up and stay caught up :) and to top it all off she is pretty cute. One of the girls I like, (their rare compared to boys) but alas she is not single and she is involved in a serios relationship. But meh, plenty of other fish in the sea.

Ok, So tonight i called one of my gay friends, were both single and had no date for the evening, so we went for dinner at A&W bought a bottle of sparkling peach juice and watched movies. Then As I was getting ready to go his Dad came upstairs, and humna humna humna, he is hot. Now that is awkward, and on top of all that, not thinking as he left the room i muttered to my self, damn him for being so gorgeous. And my gay friend heard me. I think I may have damaged him.

So things have settled quite a bit since last wednesday, I dont feel so unwelcome at home but dad and I still aren't talking. But I can live with that. Its better than avoiding him, the reason were no talking is a failure on his end not mine :)