So i havent written in forever but so much has happened i guess...i came out to most of my friends and to my surprise theyre all cool with it, but i think its because i told them i was bi and that means i can still like boys which means im prbably going through a phase but they dont know how long the question of my sexuality has been in my head...so its 3 in the morning and i cant fall asleep anymore...maybe its due to the fact that i have been taking multiple caffeine pills a day rather than my regular one...does anyone else abuse caffeine pills..i hate to admit that i am addicted to them, but i think if i can't function without atleast one a day that is a bad sign...i guess im one of those people that will end up abusing any substance they can get their hands on...i got drunk and made out with my friends sister, which was really the first time ive made out with a girl...but shes straight and only does that when she's drunk..

I have a friend and we joke around a lot and we pretend we're dating, ha ha right? Except i came out to her today. i wrote her a note explaining that i didn't want things to change between us. i hope they don't. i guess i'll find out tomorrow. i want a girlfriend so much, i want to know what it feels like. but there is no one in the immediate area that could fill that job description. so i am left

While all my friends have their thing going at myspace, I've been searching for something that suits me better, this seems to be the place. I recently broke up with my boyfriend because I have come to the conclussion that I am gay. Being in a relationship with a guy makes me
uncomfortable. For the past four years I have been struggling to come to terms with my sexuality. Although I have yet to experience anything with another female, I can feel the attraction inside if me and I am eager to come out, although at the same time, I am quite fearful of how my