Wow I haven't been on here in forever!

Okay, so here's the story. This summer between college semesters I had a job at the upscale restaurant where my sister is a server and my brother-in-law is the general manager. One of my sister's friends is a lesbian and so am I. She is a good bit older than me, but I am mature for my age and we appear to be on the same level. At first I didn't expect to feel anything for her, but I found myself liking her more and more. I have never dated anyone before or even flirted for that matter, but I felt like a lot of the things she would say and do around me were flirting. The week before I left to go back to college, she would joke around with me and say things like "I better get a make-out session before you leave." Also, she mentioned coming to visit me at college about 3 times even though it's about 3 hours away. She has met my mother (who also knows I'm a lesbian and is fine with it) and they both get along really well. She even joked with me one time and said "The hardest part is over... you've already brought me home to mom." The last day I worked, she gave me her cell number and told me to call her/text her anytime I needed anything or wanted to talk. About a week into school, I texted her saying "Hey this is K. How are you?" to which she responded "hey you!! Its going long and boring without ya..." so I said (with advice from a lesbian friend) "I bet, which is exactly why you should come and visit me sometime." and she responded "you bet". So I stopped there not really knowing what to say and about a week and a half later later my friend told me to send "Hey, my women's studies professor totally reminds me of you. Its pretty funny." which sounds extremely dorky to me now, but I guess that's what I get for asking my friends advice. So I never got a response and promptly gave up all hope. A few weeks later, I got a chain text from her "I love you lots, like tater tots, and even more than jello shots. You're my friend, til the end... etc.." which let me know she didn't delete my number. Last Saturday, I left college for various reasons, mostly to take a break and figure out what I want to do. So on Tuesday evening, my sister was visiting and out of the blue (not talking about the girl or the restaurant) she says "J was really bummed when I told her that you were home but you won't be working at the restaurant." Neither my sister nor my mom know that I like her because for once I have kept it a secret, but I really want to ask my sisters advice. I'm just afraid my sister won't want me to date her because she's older. So I guess what I need is input from neutral people. Does it seem like she wants to date me or does she seems to just be interested in being my friend? The few friends who I have told have been telling me to call her up already and ask her out to dinner or something, but I can not get the guts to do it. I have no idea what to do!

I know this doesn't really relate to anybody on here but it's worth a journal entry. This morning two boys who are sophomores in my highschool got into a car accident on the way to school. They were going so fast that the engine was ripped out of the car. The car hit the tree on the passenger side at first but it bent into the car and became embedded in the drivers seat. They both died instantly. It took rescue workers three hours to recover their bodies from the wreck. The boy who was driving was 16 and just got his license on Dec. 2nd. His dad had just bought him a Mitsubishi Eclipse 2 weeks ago. They were extremely popular and by 4th period today half our school was in the office, nurse's, or guidance office. People were not allowed to go home from school because the teachers and other school staff were afraid that some of the people would try to kill themselves. I didn't know them at all and until I saw their pictures on the news I couldn't figure out who they were. So there was a major depression throughout our school today but then you have my loser friends and I who had no clue what was going on until we heard that two people had died. We didn't really know them so we didn't feel bad personally but we did feel horrible for all the friends and family members.

Well today I turned 15 and I know nothing special happens on this birthday but hey, I can still be happy about it. Although I did spend it in the doctors office for my 1 year old twin nephews while they got three shots each and went hysterical. Also driving 6 and a half hours back from Connecticut. Not exactly the dream birthday but at least I didn't have to go to school. Only one more year until I can drive, so the government has only a year left to prepare for me. Muahahaha! (evil laugh)

Ok, I'm a 15 year old girl and I'm in highschool. I know there are lesbians and bi's at my school but nobody is really outspoken about. The ones who are outspoken about it are like in this little cult kind of thing and the are really hard to approach. I know I'm a lesbian and of course i want a girlfriend but how do you find one? With straights or even bi's sometimes its really easy to find somebody because the majority of the population is exactly like you. When you are gay or a lesbian, its a bit more challenging. Does anybody have any advice for me?

I have no idea what I am. I have a feeling that I'm a lesbian but im not totally sure. I have had a huge crush on my best friend for the past two years and i have told nobody. I'm not afraid to come out to my mom or anybody else for that matter, it's just the fact that if I'm wrong I wont be able to fix it. The people in my school are the ones that once you say something you cant change it. I'm pretty sure i can tell my best friend (not that shes the one i like but that I think im a lesbian) because she's pretty good with that stuff. But everytime i go to tell her she begins to talk about the guy that she likes and i chicken out. I want to just get it over with but i freeze up every time.