"Apple Cider"

I sat there in the kitche talking to her on the phone. Drinkine apple cider reading the book. Talking to her ...but thinking of you. No one else but you. Why? I hat you. Every time i think about you i want to close my eyse and cut my wrist. Something to get you off my mind. But yet all i do is think about you. I talk to you everyday. Almost everyday should i say. So i sit there talking to her drinking apple cider reading the book thinking of you no one else but you. The show comes off. I turn it off. THen the song comes on. That emotion comes along. And that tear streams down down my face because it reminds me of that moment we had. Do you remember that moment? You and I...Beautiful. So i take a sip of my apple cider and she asks if im okay and acting strong because remember i have to be for you and my baby girl i say yes. I put the apple cider down and begin to read more of my book. She keeps talking. I make her so happy. I dont know how or why. You are the one who makes me happy. The song slowly fades out and i wipe away that tear that has run down my soft pale cheeck. IM so glad she is not here to see me like this. It will kill her. IM glad you nor here either. You would just wonder why. But then agin i need you to hold me in your arms. I put the book back down and look at my apple cider its slowly cooling down. I take the last sips of it. I look in the bottom of the glass. Thats all. She tells me her mom has to use the phone and she'll call me tommorow. She hangs up. I finish the book. Everything ended. The show, the song, the book, the phone convo. and even the cider. Then you call....I put another pot of water on for some more apple cider.....

"LIFE"

LIFE.......SUcks.....

Life.......BLows.......

Life.......Is confusing......

LIfes.....Is insane............

Life is love...........

Life.......is hate...........

Life.....is........what ever you want it to be

Life is you........

life is me......

I dont know what this means i just kind of wrote it. so dont think to much into it but htne agin i want you to. dont over look it. I want you to think about it. What does lifen meen to you. Who do you truley love? NOt someone you feel stuck with? Or if your not ready for true love because if your reading this then most likely your not because no ofense most of my friends are very young including my self and we are not ready to get married. We are just beginging our lifes. We are just now having fun. Yes its okay to be with somone but... okay never mind im shuting up. But just think about it. Who do you love or want to be with at this moment. Or who do you like? That counts to!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Dont forget the people you like. They stil count!! What does life mean to you? Whay are you here right now? Where do you want ot be in 10 years in 10 months in 10 minutes in 10 seconds? Not only in love but in life in general. Think.....

Goodbye Love

Mimi
It's true you sold your guitar and bought a car

Roger
It's true - I'm leaving now for Santa Fe
It's true you're with this yuppie scum?

Benny
You said you'd never speak to him again
Mimi
Now now

Maureen
Who said that you have any say
In who she says things to at all?

Roger
Yeah!

Joanne
Who said that you should
Stick your nose in other people's ...

Maureen

Hey Beautiful,
Okay this is a rant thing. Its al ittle about me slash a rant of what is going on. Im 15 years old.I live in Texas with my mum, step dad and older sister. I just came out to the rents in november. They pretty much already knew son not a big problem there. lets see what else. I just got out of the hospital for eating disorder/cutting shit. I hate the way i look. lol. Go figure who dosnt these days. Oh and by the way im a very blunt person. So sorry if i offend you just tell me. I tell things like i see them ya know what i meen? I love life dont want to die. I love being who i am sept for mt loks. Very strong and stubern but open minded if that makes sense. Lol. Go figure/ Im esay to get along with. Im a dram queen as people like to call me lol. What i want to do when i get out of school is becom a bar tender. I know shocker!!!! lol. I wanted to go into the air force but sense im bipolar and wel gay i cant. So mixology here i come!!!!!!! well enough about me. Tell me about your self. Who are you? Whats you name? Age? Life style? Why are you here? What keeps you going? Wel im out... Love you all....