love you hurt me again.........

formula_truth_love — Thu, 04 Oct 2007 03:44:56 +0400

Well i haven't posted in a long time but see I don't kno how to deal with this my first breakup. I was datin a girl whos 22 now we live 2 hours away but with her situation in this country and me being 17 it was hard to see each other.

Prom...asked a girl...Also 17th Bday 2day...

formula_truth_love — Thu, 03 May 2007 11:53:19 +0400

She said she has to find out if she'll be able to go. I really want to go with her even if its just as friends cause shes so much fun,exciting,lively right. Well she hasn't got back to me as of now 2:21am lol. Ahh... well if she says no its saving me lots of money. Except I don't give a shit about the money. I want the experience of doing something fun for a change.

God im gonna be so tired after this week work is a bitch....

formula_truth_love — Mon, 19 Mar 2007 12:58:33 +0300

I have to work my normal 2 days this week add on 4 days. My work just keeps sucking me into extra shifts they are masters at guilt trippin. I try to resist i tell them no and then after a couple hours when im run down tired they ask again. No ask again in a little bit i'll think about it. Then unfortunatly here I am i'll work. God I feel like all I do is keep running.

Bowling is so the shit!!!!

formula_truth_love — Wed, 28 Feb 2007 09:11:54 +0300

Ok so I saw/kinda met this girl tonight when I went out bowling with some people from work. She's so hot she's got this nice apple bottom. Only thing that might stop me from gettin with her if she doesn't turn me down. For her being straight is that my friend beat up her friend. Thats bad aint it. Oh well if she doesn't turn me down then i'll deal with that.

la la la la la...it goes around the world

formula_truth_love — Sat, 27 Jan 2007 03:01:24 +0300

Okay so today was a good day my school took us bowling i sucked but that was already a fact of the day yet known at the time. I at least won one game against alot of my other class mates so yayyy.

Ok so I need your guys help on something?

formula_truth_love — Fri, 12 Jan 2007 10:51:27 +0300

So everyone has been telling me they think my bestfriend who is supposedly straight has a crush one me. Here's the problem though I don't have feelings for her. I mean its not permanent yes or no but ive seen signs and everyone which is like 20 people are telling me that.

just getting some things out that need to be said...

formula_truth_love — Wed, 10 Jan 2007 02:47:39 +0300

Well lately at school it seems as if I can't concentrait on my school work case in point being that I have grammar spelling problems. Math is going ok being that its General Math. Nothing hard or time consuming yet I only do like one page a day should be doing more. History and Science I haven't been doing at all I don't know why.

stress hit me hard like a meteor,,,

formula_truth_love — Tue, 09 Jan 2007 04:38:04 +0300

Well haven't written anything that meant something in a long time.

I don't this will be one of those either but i'm just looking for that old feeling thats no longer there. That feeling of being connected to someone. I don't know but i haven't really been looking but i feel it there underlying the beat of my heart.

Happy Fuckin New Years from Jersey!!!!!!!

formula_truth_love — Mon, 01 Jan 2007 08:04:21 +0300

I Love All Of You even if we never met so happy new year hope its good to ya.

Monday, Monday, Monday in the Morning...:-)

formula_truth_love — Mon, 27 Nov 2006 20:14:28 +0300

Ok so right now i am in the morning program of my school. There are two programs day and night(a.k.a 2-6). I have heard so much shit talked about the 2-6 while ive been here I mean they don't even know us yet they say all this shit. I got my chance to tell them that though. I don't think it'll change what they think though. Its been a good day though so far i really like the changing of the classes. But i know that when it comes to where I belong people wise the 2-6 is my home.

another heartache, from the same person in the same exact way...

formula_truth_love — Sat, 28 Oct 2006 02:56:40 +0400

She's gone again and feels as strong and painful as before:-(

I thought it would be easy her coming back to be a sub therapist for 2 days but it wasn't. It feels just like when I found out that she was gone from this branch of the school no goodbye no nothing. All emails sent went unreplyed. No word of them when she returned not one. God I thought it was gonna be so easy I thought I dealt with her leaving but I didn't. She acted as if it was okay too didn't even adress the issue. It was so busy both days though that I couldn't talk to her.

on cloud 9(bouncing off the walls)!!!!!

formula_truth_love — Fri, 27 Oct 2006 03:00:42 +0400

I fucking love my school. Ok so I didn't have to curse but I am in such a happy mood that a curse feels like the only word powerful enough to explain what seeing my therapist that left to go to another branch of the school. I loved it she was so nice like I remember her and she said I seem alot happier and I am kind of. I loved seeing her god I can't wait till tomorrow she's coming back to sub for another therapist tomorrow. I am on cloud 9.

2 down about oh alot more to go....:-)

formula_truth_love — Thu, 05 Oct 2006 08:12:37 +0400

I came out to the girl who trained me tonight at work it was wonderful she doesn't care we talked a bit about it and joked about it. Its a nice feeling because they all kept going on about guys and never to get married and she did it alot and tonight i just told her and it was great. I felt alive a rush of adrenaline pulsed through my veins. Its so freeing exhilirating god tonight i'll sleep good.

god I love this women this women...:-)

formula_truth_love — Sat, 16 Sep 2006 03:22:16 +0400

God I love this women this women that is 29 years older than me. It doesn't seem it I love her as a friend but now I notice that there is that little part that loves her as a lover in a sense. I am just her friend and that is the best thing to be because today she made my world my day the best of days. I missed her so much and now that she's back in my life im better than ever i'm alive again. She brings a smile to my face makes the songs that made me sad because she wasn't there happy yet still remember those moments of sadness. I love her with my soul and mind and I just had to say that.

Need peoples advice on working(as in job) fears?

formula_truth_love — Thu, 14 Sep 2006 10:07:34 +0400

OMG...I'm so happy/scared I got my first job today as a cashier and I am excited but I am scared of messing up I hope I can do it. I mean I passed pre-algebra and algebra and this only simple math but I struggled through those math classes. I am just scared the register learning that peice of cake but keeping track of not going over or under my starting amount is really stressing me out.

Do any of you have any suggestions or have any of you been a cashier can you tell me your experience? Well if you do thanks I am just worried is all first job jitters now only to be able to stay awake 8 hours straight and talk to strangers which terrifies me i have social anxiety guess I have to overcome that.