Hi. I'm not dead. I've been working. And I got fired today...

*sigh*

oh well. the job sucked anyway.

Just checking in. Nice to see some familiar faces, and some new ones, too. lol Have a nice day, everyone!

NEway, thought I'd send in a message, just to let people know I'm still alive. I've gotten a summer job @ a french summer camp as one of the sorta camps leaders. So that's cool.I work tues, so that's neat. NEway. Just checking in. I haven't really been on in a while, so I thought I'd at least sy hi. A lot of the posts that were up a couple of months ago are still up I see. Nice. NEway, I'm off.

I pretty well admit that I've been lying to myself about the whole sexuality. Well, I dunno about lying, but repressing, definitely. Trying to escape, too. Well I'm done.
I'm pretty sure that I'm bi leaning towards guys.
And well, I'm not sure, but that's what it looks like.
No, I'm not 100% ok with this.

But yea, has anyone seen "10 reasons to be a lesbian"?

lol yep, I'm back... lol just thought I'd let y'all know, eh?

So yea. We're leaving tomorrow (the 13th) to Vancouver for Music Fest! (YAY!!) Problem is, I don't know if/when I'll get my hands on a computer. I'll try to get on, but if I can't, I'll be back on the 20th. I shall see you all soon!

Here's some good news that I already knew: I'm NEGATIVE !! Yea, no big whoop, I already figured I was HIV- but *meh*

So yea, I haven't slept since 2 in the morning, eh? Wow, that sux. And it's Monday... God I hate Mondays. And I hate sexuality, too. ALL OF IT! I hate boys and I hate girls and I hate people who leave you feeling like crap and I hate being afraid of feelings that I don't want and don't feel like they're "me" but come anyway and I hate, hate, HATE, HATE!!
*sigh*

So yea. I said I'd finish this off. God, he is so beautiful. And nice, too. His eyes are so beautiful. I couldn't tell you what colour they were, it was kinda dark in that section of the bar, but they were so expressive. And they had this sort of shine... But anyway. I don't think he likes me. I dunno if it's even possible to get with him at this point ion tiome.

So yea, I go to school Friday morning. Just like any other moring... Except this morning, I was going to go to school, sigbn out, and go get my blood testing done. Yes, I know, I should have done it earlier, but I didn't. I decided that I needed to go get it done, because I should. NEway, I sign out, and I start biking.

This may work... Seeing as I'm at school right now and I don't have my stuff with me, I'll just write the reminder on here... So when I get home and I go to check my journal, then BAM! I'll remember...

Reminder to self: Use poetry book @ home to write new GLM submission. See: GKLM --the Resurrection--REMEMBER THIS DATE

Okay... *phew* so... I've been doing some thinking. No one needs to comment on this one if they don't want to. Nor do they need to even read this one, if they don't want to...

So yea, I'm in law and I'm sitting accross from these boys. The one's cute, the other one is kinda, but I'm more focused on the cute/hot one.
Anyway, they were talking about girls, like usual.
i.e. "I'd stick it in 'er"

<< Le lavage de cerveau total s'execute au niveau global >>
(Brain washing is at a global level)

So yea, still waiting for my councellor to call me back to set up a meeting seeing as she was sick last friday when she was to see me. Like, I'm not mad, but I'm kinda... needing it.

So yea. I was at the mall yesterday, getting my hair cut. I went to see Pheonix (< actual spelling) @ work so that he could tell me what I should do for a hair cut, because I always get the same idea. And I decided to do the usual because it's the only thing that looks ok with me.

So yea. Friday morning, the day that I was supposed to go see the councellor, I got a phone call saying that she was sick and my appointment was cancelled. That she would call m back to arrange another appointment when she could. Wow. I was kinda pissed. Like, not at her, because I know it isn't her fault or anything, but yea. I just kinda needed help.