I feel like a prude most of the time.
But I also sometimes feel whore-ish.

My reasoning?

I am a VIRGIN!!!!! And most of my friends are not. But, I have done everything except for have sex with a guy. I've done everything with a girl also. So, therefore, I feel prudeish and whoreish all at the same time. I freaking hate it.
And in teenage society today... if a girl has sex, she's a whore; and if she doesn't, she's a prude. What the hell?

Well. Today was my first day of classes. I had Physical Science, and then Convo [we have to go to 40 in the 4 years of college here], then College Writing. Then I went to lunch and hung out with my new friend Sarah for a while. Now I'm sitting in my dorm room alone [no roommate, people hate me I guess] litening to music. I have to leave in a little bit for Christian Faith. I chose that class because I needed one more class and it seemed interesting and I thought it may be able to help me on the way to finding out what I believe. Then Mom is coming to see me and we're going to dinner. After that I might to the ice cream social at 8:00 for the Learning Communities class... I'm not sure I'll go though because I have a mandatory floor meeting at 9:00. So I dunno. I'll figure it out.

Anyways. I should be going now. I don't want to be late for Christian Faith. I'll possibly write more tonight. If not, I'll try to find some time tomorrow to write again.

xoxo--Annierose

you are missing from my life
i wish you were missing from my mind
go away from here
and never return
i cant handle this anymore
your antics
and your heartbreaks
youve hurt me too much
especially now
you come back into my life
and then do that
only to say you were mistaken
and then you go away again
i miss you already
i dont want to
i want to hate you
why cant i hate you
i want you mising from my mind
and from my heart
leave this place
and never return to me
i cant handle this heartache
dont hurt me anymore
come back to here
and fix your life
you are so much better
than what you have been doing
dont go back there again
you can be anything you want to be
and do anything you want to do
dont be missing anymore
because i will be missing you

Heyyy everyone! I haven't been on this site in about a million years. Yeah, its pretty sad... I know you have all missed me!

So here is an update about me:
-I graduated high school in June.
-I start school at Manchester College [one of the most gay-friendly schools in the US...WOOT!] on September 3rd, and I am very excited about it.
-I am still single.
-I don't know anymore as to how I identify my sexuality.
-I plan on being an elementary school teacher when I grow up.
-My best friend is going back to prison soon and I am very disappointed in him but I still love him and will not degrade him for making poor choices in life.

That's about all I have to say at the moment. My next post on here will be my new poem that I just wrote today. I can't post it on here yet because it is on my laptop and I am on my home computer at the moment... and I am too lazy to transfer it right now. Haha.

well, i have a boyfriend now... hes really sweet and his name is jimmy.... i liked him about a year ago and never told anyone until about a month or so ago.... and now we have been together for around 3 weeks....

well, i lost my job... they went out of business.... so now im back to where i started... now i have to find a new job all over again.... i want to go back to waitressing a a small place downtown.

hm... i got my permit finally!.... yeah i could have had my permit like a year ago but im a freakin procrastinator, so sue me.... lol

well, thats about it for now....

p/s: my sister STILL hasn't popped that dang baby out yet.... the anticipation is killing me...

hearts and hugs..
AnnieRose

My life is going crazy... My sister is having a baby in as little as 2 weeks or as much as 6 weeks. I'm so freaking excited about that! My stepdad is a homophobic racist alcoholic and I hate him with a fiery passion from hell. My nephew (from my OTHER sister) is 4 and a half years old and my mom might be adopting him... He's crazy.
My job isn't paying enough (I'm a freakin waitress at a small-town diner and I get $2.15 an hour plus tips).... I need to get my licence and a car by the end of the summer so I can cadet teach during the second semester of the coming school year. I've been lookgin forward to cadet teaching since seventh grade.
Summer vavation is here!!!!! Yayness.... but not yayness too... Crap with my stepdad and my nephew and my sisters and my job. And I'm not going on vacation with my family because of my mom's STUPID husband and his crazy senile mother.
I like a guy.... I've liked him for a long time but he says I'm too much like a sister to him... I hate being everyone's best friend or little sister... and never anyone's girlfriend.....
I like a girl too...... I've liked her for longer.... but she says we're too good of friends and she doesn't want to ruin another friendship. AAARGHHH!!!
I'm done ranting.. I think...
Even if I'm not done ranting I have to go anyways cuz I have to be at my crappy job at 3:30 and its 3:12 right now. If anyone who reads this wants to talk about confusingness or crappy jobs or stupid people just send me a message or something.
I'm done now.... Byebye!
Hearts and Hugs.......
Annie Rose (A.K.A. Sprinkles)

It has been TOOOO long since I have actually done anything on here. When i first got an account on here, my mom found that I had been on this site and she didn't know yet that I was bi. So I didn't get on here for a while. Then my computer took a big crap and it barely works anymore. So here I am again... At the public library, but at least I'm online.
Well, the bad thing about being at the public library being online is that I can't be on for that long.
So... I like this guy named Colin.... but I'm too chickenshit to do anything about it. My loser friend Jed hasn't said anything to him about it yet, even tho he said he would (like 2 weeks ago). Oh well I guess. I like a girl named Laci too.... but we're "too good of friends." It sucks.... loneliness. :(
Well, I need to go now.
Hearts and Hugs,
Me

Well, this is my first post and the first thing I have decided to discuss is one of the main things that keep me here on this Earth, and that is none other than MUSIC! It is my life. I listen to all types of music: emo, indie rock, metal, some rap, some hip-hop, hardcore, punk, country, christian, reggae, calypso, blues, jazz, swing (I first learned how to swing dance in second grade and I have loved it ever since), some classical (my good friend plays the violin), and even some opera (my cousin is in school for singing opera, she's amazing). So yeah, I have a WIDE variety of music that I love, and without it all, I don't think I would be here today.
The next thing that I will tell you all is about wonderful, odd, giggly, bubbly, depressed, angry, friendly, interesting me! I am all of those things during the course of a day. I am especially giggly on good days. And of course on Friday nights when I go to the local Coffee Shop to hang out with my friends. I don't really drink coffee, but they have amazing Smoothies and Chai, and they have great concerts on weekends of local bands from all over the NorthEastern part of the state. I hang out with my friends a lot and they are another one of the things that keep me going. I am on the Speech and Debate team at my school (Yeah, I know, it seems nerdy, but some kid from another school has a freakin mowhawk, ya call that nerdy?) I am also in Drama and all that stuff. I have quite a bit of stage fright that I am trying to get over, but it's pretty fun though.
Hum... What else to talk about...? I am 15 (gonna be 16 in February) and I am a sophmore in high school. Here is my story of me being Bisexual:
In 6th grade, I was quite the homophobe, even though I had had thoughts about being attracted to girls back before then. In 8th grade, I talked to a bi friend about my feelings on the subject. I told her that I thought I was bi and she helped me a lot. New Year's Eve of my freshman year (2004/2005) I told my friends at my get-together that I was bisexual. Since then I have been getting more open every day. I finally got my first girlfriend and we have been together for almost 3 months. I am finally mostly satisfied with my life now that I have a glimpse of who I really am.
Yep, that's about all I have to say at the moment. I will post back again eventually.
Hugs to all.
Annie Rose
A.K.A.
Dark Roses