What's heck going on with Dance Scene recently. The anual CD came out really wrong. Everytime We Touch sounds really empty most like a NED anthems. What happen to meaningful floor fillers like Sunrise? Just got off the phone with my dad, and there weren't anythings worth memorizing expect knowing the fact he is ok. I never had any Tear Jerking with my birth parents, but adopted family gave a few tearful moments, that was really rare.
I am just on my way home from The Print Works, beside the campus.
It is really strange feelings right now. It has been really hard to write about
this guy or to think about him. Since he moved in across the hall, I always
sensed somethings like a crush on this man. I spent wildly promiscous summer
with loads of people on the scene, but I over looked his guy and his genuiety.
Oliver James, is possible the guy that kept me going after my loving but yet disasterous
I don't know what'd been happening in my mind, I am feeling really unattractive right now. I don't wanna meet anybody new, because I afraid that I am not hot enough and I haven't looked after myself well enough.
I am sitting here watching Coyote Ugly. It reminded me of the hereTV Podcasts espisode number 21. Josh Kilmer-Purcell vividly and even proudly talked about his early year in NYC and his life as Aqua. He discussed how expensive it was a young person to get by in New York; the city had its attraction and stil has. He worked on so many jobs, to be able to live a full life. When I looked at his picture on the site I didn't see Aqua. I think just saw a Jerry MCGuire with a broadest smile I ever saw. I guess that was the whole point of the book. Aqua isn't really Josh, but she was a person in her own right.
Brian Unger's final remark on his alternative commencement address includes "Don't be a jerk" and "Enjoy this carefree moment as it is your last, because it really is your last". Well I am enjoying every moment of it. Well I am still in school, but working with very little supervisions feels so great. I went to 11 p.m. mass today. Paul wasn't there as he told us. Caroline wasn't saying mass, but instead Rector, Kelvin was there.
Three chic flicks and three exams later, I am emotionally drained. Now I am feeling like a child trying to find its feet, the plus side is I didn't get to go the orientation and fresher's ball. The same old lunch ladies still dispense the advice (relavent and irrelavent), the same old security officers would still wake me if I fell asleep. I guess this is one of the few summer that I do actually know what I am doing.
I always make various notes on my cellphone, whenever I came up with stuffs for a journal entry.
I found the following statement in the of the notes. I don't really know how to continue it, because it had been a couple of weeks, since I wrote it down. So it's up to you guys to finish it this time.
"We cannot replace an existing faceless tyrants with their fluffy counterpart."
I adore Will and Grace. But I would not say I am a real fan. I would rather be in a bookshop. I would rather spend night after wasting the last of my trust fund in a bar, than paying for satellite subscription. Drinks, meeting new people and cute boys are priceless. I hate spending time in side. The only chance I got to watch television is when I am at home with my grandfather. I love the show but I totally dislike Malteser the sponsor of the show. I do not like that little stupid advert prior to each segment of the show. It protrayed the gay men as being over sexed, full of themselves and incapable of taking care of themselves. That advert campaign defeats the entire spirit of Will and Grace, which is supposed to protray everybody's love life in an equal way whether they are gay or straight.
I have been browsing around the net looking for things. Well many people would say that I should spend more time doing other stuffs like studying, looking for job and doing some programming exercises. I do not know what drove me to it. Is it a guy thing or is it me trying to compensate for what I have been missing? I do not want to speculate. But I think I might be addicted to things. Is the excitement of searching and finding or is it thrill of actually using thing.
Over the past two years I have been contemplating my career paths and other aspects of life in general. Each year I spent in school has its own attractiveness and own ways to excite me with. I will always look back many moments that I am proud of and an embraressing fews. I met two of my closest buddies on campus. We haven't been talking that much recently. Our coffee bar of choice was just opposite the chapel. Looking at serves a reminder to the exams that we just got through.
My fuck buddy left around ten o' clock this morning. It is birthday today. My room was a bit messy. I wasn't suppose to see him lastnight, because he had a date with some girl he met on faceparty. Well he told me, it was a bad move, he met her before. He regretted organizing that second date. She had a great personality but on a more shallow note she was "facially challenge" and over weight. My buddy was taking his time convincing me that I have to be there. He couldn't turn her down with out me being there ok. He told his date would chaparoned by her gay boy-friend (imaginary boyfriend I presumed).
I have been seeing a boy for three or four weeks. He'd been open up to me emotionally and we'd been close physically. He doesn't to be in a relationship, but doens't want to stop seeing me either. It sounds ackward, but I don't feel any strains or weird at all. Earlier today over lunch I was talking to another friend. My question was regular sex + friendship + tech talk == ?. The answer is we're fuck buddies.
I totally understand Ashley in "Two of a kind" when she stated that its time to leave this stupid town. Her opportunity was supposedly her first model casting. Well it's not an refusable opportunity that makes me want to leave glasgow it. It is my annoying self.
The life I am familiar with has begun to disintegrated right before my eyes. I am partly to blame for most of the mishaps. Recently my favorite Japanese is now closed. Prior to this my boyfriend left me and my bestfriend "broke up" with me right after thant. :( I am starting to laugh about my life in general. But when these even happened I would want to cry and wouldn't even want to wake up to live from one misery to the next.
I have not been studying for a few days now. I did my homeworks yesterday and I was utterly lack of energy to get up this morning. Most people would be thinking about why the f I am talking about studying during string breaks, well it's quite common for us to be greeted with exams when we return to school. Although there is no lectures, but the entire campus: bars, library, eateries and the lots stay open during the break. I don't know what I am gonna do today. I guess It's time to admit that I have been having a bad day (rather unproductive day) and there is no way I could put my mind into it.