Is pretty much a boss...just sayin...the guy is a genius. practically. nobody ever wins an argument with him, and his new show savageu is pretty funny.

Was fucking beautiful.

It started off kinda slow, as I was up til 4 am doing laundry and shit, but then, as I woke up, I really felt out of it, Not sure. why. I don't smoke, if you are thinking it had anything to do w/ 4/20. :)

But I honestly woke up, low blood sugar, and no matter how much coffee I downed, I simply could not wake up.

I was late, late for a day of digging on some trails in my friends yard. thought they would be small, but they are massive. Like beyond my current realm of ability massive.

never ceases, the storm of my mind, never stops....shit just...never changes.

Anyway, last night, I got an invite out to a barn party @ an old friend's farm.
My friend, an ex of mine from high school who I had briefly dated, invited me out via instant message and a text, and she seemed like she wanted to meet up with me, and catch up @ this bonfire/party thing...ok

So, I got cleaned up from my mtn bike ride, got ready to go, and meet up with her.

I admit, I am a bit guilty of hate mongering and prejudice myself, but I am working on that.

http://www.danoah.com/2011/11/im-christian-unless-youre-gay.html/3/

...And I stumbled across this link...gay sports illustrated. haha.

apparently, a gay porn site, but it's got a tasteful? facebook page, w/ pics of scantily clad european men/ athletes in nothing but bikinis, man-panties and swimsuits.

HAWT.

haha.

Chad, enjoy. ;)
https://www.facebook.com/SPORTILLUSTRATEDGAY

seen or heard anything from max on here lately? There are definitely those of us on here who remember who he is.

Username is uncertain.

started posting shit like this .

as an entire journal after he started experimenting w/ drugs.

anybody? it's been a long time. thinking he might of disappeared, much like devildog.

bummer, if so, max was rad.

Kinda like the small town blues. I went home tonight, from a fairly shitty day @ work, and then I got a message, from a friend I haven't heard from in years.

I showed up at the casino, and they were all pretty well on their way...I wanted to talk to my friend c, who works security there, but he was @ our friend j's house, as she was having a breakdown since her bf broke up with her today.

long story short, saw a bunch of old ass friends from high school.

though it was great to see them all again, I felt like we had nothing in common anymore.

So this guy I met a few months back while digging some trails for mtn biking, turns out to be gay.

tonight, we were chatting on facebook, and he was debating sexuality w/ one of his fb friends, and he ultimately came out as bi, or at least bi curious leaning gay to this kid while we were talking, by commenting on this kids' photos.

1) the GSA guy still hasn't responded to my e-mails.

I am beginning to think some other people took it over, but then, why, would they put his e-mail on it?

2) guy that was flirting with me on facebook wants to hang out. Kind of nervous. He is sort of cute, but totally polar opposites as far as our political beliefs, values, etc.

3) he wants to meet @ Davids'(hyacinthus or geniusfrenchie) for those who remember his account on here, house party on st patty's day. I told him about it, so I guess I may be digging myself in here, but it seemed like a good idea at the time.

In best and worst moments, on a weekly basis...wtf huffington post?

Liberals are funny.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/03/03/something-to-celebrate-best-lgb...

Again tonight, went back...Did homework in the library until they closed, then walked to the adjoining building where the GSA is supposed to meet...at 5 pm...and again....NO ONE there!!!!

Not a sould!

Just some techy nerds from the RPG club in the hall discussing some new online game. so there was the rpg or role playing game club there, but no GSA.

AND, on top of that, there was a republlican convention meeting there, so they closed off the entire student center for that, with no warnings. oh well.

Who knows a few friends of mine....and I know a few friends of his...recently added me on facebook. Last night, he was kinda of flirting with me via IM, and tonight, he was asking if I had a girlfriend, and things of this sort.

Kinda funny. I mean, he's a nice guy. He's gay. he's a nerd...but...

He's not my type....like @ all. Cosplay fan/ computer geek, and he found me through a mutual friend, who is a huge cosplay/ anime geek. idk...

I guess I will humor him for the time being. Who knows, maybe we will ride together soon. (he's a mtn biker)

Or at least was, until this kid tim hit me up on FB and said he couldn't be a redneck, cuz he's gay. lol. made my night a little better.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fm72DPJCX58

How I hate being gay. I feel like lately I am reverting back to where I was during my teen years.

I have no Energy anymore. Ever.

I am losing my mind.

As my depression worsens from factors that are completely out of my control, I revert back to my teen years. Full of anxiety, anger, angst....

I go back to the old me. Unable to process conscious thoughts. Unable to think. Unable to interact with others. I merely exist.

I dunno, but it seems like lately I have been going back to old paranoid delusions of the possibilities that used to haunt me.

Took me like a half hour to get up the balls to go, and all of a sudden just decided to go, and then...

Hang on for the epic moment of suspense!

There was no one there!

I drove a few minutes, like 40 minutes actually, out of my way, and there was nobody there! The club that spent all day today advertising their meeting tonight, and no one was there!