fuck my life.

milk-tea — Sun, 26 Oct 2008 22:26:25 -0400

i am so, so pissed off right now.

things that i love.

milk-tea — Wed, 15 Oct 2008 19:10:09 -0400

hot baths
orgasms
pigtails
dressing up
warm milk with sugar
books
writing
being content
grey skies and rain clouds
cold weather
winter in general
bdsm
sweet kisses
cuddling
german.

JUNI0R Y34R.

milk-tea — Mon, 13 Oct 2008 13:03:37 -0400

"Sometimes I am afraid of losing you because I don't think I would ever find someone with all of the qualities that I love about you...ever."

he made me cum. la la la la laaaa~!!<3
it was the
most amazing
thing
ever.
<3

sexual issues. cumming and going.

milk-tea — Sun, 21 Sep 2008 16:16:31 -0400

basically,
i
cant
make
my
boyfriend
cum.
what the fuck?
how fucking long does it usually take??
i even gave him a blowjob, i mean, i guess it wasnt that long, but still.
i guess i need more tension/foreplay..?
this is so annoying.
and dissapointing.
I IZ A FAILURE.
>:c
any tips, plz?
boys?
what can i possibly do?

cigarette addicted beauty from the beast.

milk-tea — Wed, 10 Sep 2008 17:27:40 -0400

sup oasis. school is slowly getting better. maybe. 6th period is probably the worst time period because i always fall asleep.

to start off, i would like to give a big thanks to -Ruby- for her fantastic article on the art of deepthroating. haha! i'll definitely be using those techniques, thank you!

anyway.

i am so sick of shitty folk music.

milk-tea — Mon, 08 Sep 2008 20:08:00 -0400

school is so lonely and empty. i go everyday, go to class and pay attention, then i come home and do homework until 11 sometimes.
and then i read, write a little, then i go to bed.
i miss jake.
i miss e.
im doing so well,
but i dont really give a fuck.
i feel so sad.
i love the rain because it makes my sadness feel justified and its an excuse to listen to sad smashing pumpkins songs.

boyfriend, germ burn, drugs, large phone bills.

milk-tea — Tue, 19 Aug 2008 01:17:58 -0400

i met this boy and had a rampant sexual affair in front of a church and am now apparently, dating him. He's fucking great. Really interesting, sweet, funny, and I'm leaving for a week and i already miss the hell out of him.

My best friend and I,
we gave each other a germ burn.
it was spectacular.
i love her so fucking much.

ppfffttt. GAY.

milk-tea — Tue, 29 Jul 2008 23:49:26 -0400

hey oasis, i actually have something gay to talk about now.
i have this sorta girlfriend.
mhmm. one of those.
shes amazingly gorgeous.
she's passionate, loving, caring, a little crazy.
i love her.
we both agreed that we had feelings for each other
and, we would "see how it goes."
we didnt see each other for a little over a month,
until yesterday.

bdsm? why not. (whats the age requirement for a tragus piercing?)

milk-tea — Sun, 04 May 2008 18:05:43 -0400

lately, i've become utterly obssesed with bdsm.
or, let me correct myself: i have realised how turned on i get when watching/thinking/doing bdsm.
not that ive done it, though the oppurtunity has presented itself once.
(to those who dont know: bondage, discipline, sadism, masochism.)
idk. its a bit weird, but ive gone far fast the weird mark anyway, so why not?

a poem i wrote.

milk-tea — Tue, 29 Apr 2008 22:09:14 -0400

they are made of velvet green, these rolling hills of grass and flower
littered with lust rimed boys and girls,
they tumble in the slopes
stark jays in the nude of clothes.
there are no tinted silver of streams to reflect our eager faces.
and there, in the corner sweep of the den
is a ladder of spun wood and silk;
so we climb, you
upon the top rungs of a creaky foundation.

I Voted Conservative and Brought About My Own Demise

milk-tea — Tue, 08 Apr 2008 23:48:01 -0400

When the conscious thought hit to continue a forced habit of smoking cigarettes
It was because of you,
the lazy bored look in your eyes that got me hooked.
You were beautiful in a way that only the arrogant can be.

And when we chain smoked in the grass
Cancer breeding white, curly q’s
Of a kissing breath—
Well, I thought that I could maybe
Fall in love

With you.

throbing like a dick.

milk-tea — Sat, 22 Mar 2008 02:29:15 -0400

my ear is. i got it pierced. nice.
i also think i like my friend. this girl. that i love to chill with and we both, we chat up the squares and inhale until our lungs are scorched black.
and we flow about life,
spill our brains for the intelligent and offer gleaming throats to chance and happiness.
she's so breathtakingly beautiful.

also.
for some reason.

second hand suit, bow tie i'm a fox!

milk-tea — Wed, 27 Feb 2008 01:34:40 -0500

i unfortunately adore mc chris. and atmosphere.
gergh.
but no where near as much as radiohead
WHO,
may i mention,
i am planning on seeing in St. Louis! in May! and i live in chicago, its on a school day--
me and a couple of my friends are planning on skipping two days of school and just heading out there. no matter what.
i am so fucking excited.

chewing the fat of your spotted heart, i dream these words.

milk-tea — Sat, 16 Feb 2008 18:46:53 -0500

when you walk into the atmosphere there is a horrible stench
and when you sing these symphonies,
the sharp sting of blood creeps the inner surface of each tooth, behind
lips spun of wood and silk.
i smile, for you,
and watch your mirror eyes mimic the seeping voice piece.

this is the rush i caught from my veins
blowing through the ceiling in an one-flight rage.

so you

i know i 'm being ridiculous. but guys, hear me out, if you have time.

milk-tea — Mon, 11 Feb 2008 23:18:32 -0500

i like him.
alot.

and he called me this morning, it was really fucking sweet and cute and adorable. and just asking if i was any better then yesterday,and if i wanted to chill today, etc. but i couldn't, knew i had to work on stuff i wanted to see him tomorrow and go to the movies with some friends.

so i told him that i would see him tomorrow,
and.
uggh.