So yeah, I think I'm finally getting over ELO and moving on to King Crimson. I love Fallen Angel, Court of the Crimson King, and 21st Century Schizoid Man. I'm also sort of in to Gentle Giant! I love progressive rock!

Never thought I'd need anything
But I need you to hold
Gravity pulls me down
So do false hopes

Don't be my last fantasy
because I know you're more
Put my worry to rest
So I can die in peace

Life's more than failing
Then Why do I fail
and want to die
Where's hope in my life

Take my hand
Lead me along the way
Lead me to love
Lead me to you

It's seriously not fair. I can't stand falling for guys, because all of them turn out to be straight. I just want this one guy really bad. He's amazing. Perfect structure (for me that is), perfect personality, in the band with me, has cool family. Well, we were talking, and I convinced him to join Debate! Woot, woot! So, if he actually does, then he will be one of 4 debators in the junior high, which means plenty of time alone!

Let's work it down
or up
because life's a 2 way ladder
but I'd rather take the latter
99...
Lookin' just fine
aged like fine wine
66...
life's quite the fix
wiser than ever before
tell stories like indian lore
35...
Family's goin'
I be mowing
a lawn just cut
21...
nights of endless fun
soarin' like an eagle
been doin' it before I was legal
14...
confused more than ever
slicin' up my arm

Well, here I am, sitting at my desk, exausted. I just got back from my first day of 8th grade. I must say, it could have been worse. I've got a few good teachers with the exception of my German teacher, who, according to my best friend, is a total bitch that doesn't know what she's doing. Well, yeah, we had an assembly for a few hours, in which numerous teachers got up and talked about mindless shit.

Is fucking tomorrow. I've only 80 pages in my last, required book to read; I must say, Sherlock Holmes' books aren't that bad. Sir Conan Doyle sure does play with your mind. Anyways, this is the last thing I do before I go to bed, save brushing my teeth and all that jazz. Yeah, so, wish me good luck, for chances of returning unchanged are slim.

Much love,
Jerry.

I just watched V for Vendetta, and I loved it! I love the movie so much. It was so inspiring. Especially thescene where everyone dresses up like 'V'. I was like: OH MY GOD. I WANT TO DO THAT. Yeah, and the scene with the lesbians was horrible. I watched it with my dad, and my sexuality was a hard thing to swallow for him. So... it was a bit akward, but I think it got some ideas into his head about acceptance and the importance of human right.

I'dunno what it is, but I've been thinking alot about death in dying. This song seems to add alot to that being that it's about just that. The song's melody is absolutely gorgeous, especially the beginning. I know the song by heart, and that's probably a good thing because the marching band's production is going to be a compilation of songs by Styx. (I'm in the marching band.) The beginning just moves me so much, where the tempo is so slow, and there's alot of sweet singing.

So, I haven't been on Oasis, and I am deeply sorry for that. I'll try and update you on my life- what's happening, what knowledge of life I've learned, etc.

'Till recently, I've been in withdrawl in the dark of my lonely bedroom/basement. Neglecting relationships and privledges thanks to being rejected by the highlight of my year, Robert. I'm not sure what came over me when I was 'in love' him, but it moved me; it nearly changed me altogether. Though, I came through as the same, arrogant recluse, who actually is an outgoing individual. My days 'till the end of the year and changing my impression on others was limited. Then, I met Margaret. Everything since then has been up-hill. Slowly, she came out to me. First, she told that she was bisexual, then lesbian. I feel so happy for her because I have this so sort of connection with her. I just feel that we are cosmic relatives or something. (According to Zodiac we get along well, me being a pisces, and her being a cancer.) A hurt in our relationship, sadly, is my other friend Eden. I feel so hurt, because she seems so much closer to her than me; although, they are not going out. I don't even feel imbetween, just left out. Moving on, I adopted a new hairstyle, which requires a rather large amount of time in the morning. Straight hair has allowed me to come out of my shell. I feel alot better about my personal image. Other people seem to be noticing also. For example, a guy told me I was hot, and came close to asking me out. Alas, he didn't, because of his fear of going out with a guy. I'm almost sure he is gay, and he already knows he's bi. This seems to be the only problem left in my former mess of a life. Everything other than love is in perfect synch.

Someday, I want to be a World Leader.

Go ahead, tear me up...

The following rant is not intended to hurt anyone's feelings. If it does, suck it up and get some sunshine. (:<

It's hard for me to understand what attracts young teenagers to the ever-growing social group commonly known as "Emo". I have thought about it long and hard (Yes, I have no life), and I can't seem to understand how cutting your body, writing suicide notes, and complaining to every (moving?)body about how your life "sucks". I don't doubt that many people that act "emo" have a very bad life, but the many that I have life complain about common problems that befall many people. I believe that "Emo" is quite selfish and sick. What are humans comming to? What is the next generation coming to? We are all going to grow up being flooded by emotion(less) drones that dress in the "dark" color black.

One encounter with an "Emo" child I particularly remember, I was talking to a "Friend" and I was asking why he hates himself so muhc and why people don't like him. I offered suggestions like "Why don't you say Hi? Why don't you smile?" After I had said to smile, he said, " Smiling is like taking cyanide, and being happy is just as bad." Has this person seen pain at all? THEY ARE CAUSING PAIN FOR THEMSELVES. I don't understand why we all can't just be happy. Most of us have so much...