5 more days until our first gsa meeting woo hoo! and i'm leading it (well, co leading it) too woo hoo!

so i told my crush that i'm gay, and she's totally cool with it (in her words, "i sort of knew, and i don't care if you like guys, girls, or elephants, i support you") and now i'd like to ask her out, that being phase two, but i don't know if i can. a, i'm scared of getting rejected, b, i don't know if she likes guys, girls, or elephants, and c, i feel a little like i'm using her to get over my old crush.

the vibe which is coming on very strong right now. i just get the sense that most of the girls that are in colorguard really don't like me. and why would they? i'm gay hippie sophomore scum. i'm not preppy, i'm not pretty. i can just picture all of them talking shit about me behind my back. and i wouldn't be surprised if they are. i just want to be liked. i just want to fit in, for once in my life. that's all i've wanted since i was seven. is that too much to ask for?

do i dare admit this? the growling in my insides is driving me crazy and if i don't do something about it i'm
going to wind up like three of my close friends. is 120 lbs too low for someone who is 5' 8"? oh i'm hungry but
i can't, i won't eat. not unless i have to at meal time.
shit.

okay i don't know anything about modern dance but if i want to get into this one thing
i need to so does anyone know modern dance basic vocabulary? i'm supposed to prepare a three minute warm up with the basic vocabulary, demonstrating line and movement and flexibility. or maybe that's all it is. could i just do a jazz warm up? google isn't helpful right now. thanks!

so there's this girl. a different one, not the one i've been rambling about since october. i'm
over her. sort of. but anyway, this girl, i really want to ask her out but i don't know if
she's gay and i don't want to freak her out and i don't even know if she knows about my being gay. is there any good way to go about this? or should i just take the bull by the horns and ask her?

the one i am madly in love with has been going out with this girl for two months, i found out today.
can you say upset? just a little?
i just wish she had told me. or mentioned it at some point. i found out because one of her friends asked her
about it and i happened to be sitting right there.
i guess there's not much point because she leaves for college in a month.
i'm still pissed though. and i said i wasn't going to cry but i did. i'm pissed about that too.

well we voted (all 7 of us) on who will be the new presidents of the gsa next year and i got one of the spots
so i'm pumped about that.
does anyone have any discussion ideas?

you know that avril lavigne song, "i'm with you"? that's kind of how i feel right now. except i just want to
have a conversation with someone who's a female. my best friend's a guy and i don't want to talk to him. i'm
kind of mad at him because he said he'd give me a ride home from my friend's party and he didn't but that's
not the point. so if anyone else wants to talk i'm here.

hey peeps.
i'm back. what's been going on? i guess i could see that for myself, huh, if i just looked at past forums and stuff.
wow i'm quick.
i'm totally sick of liking my crush too.
later!