Weren't you the one to leave me
Because I wouldn't share a bed
You never wanted to see me
At least that was what you said

So now
What's with trying to be my friend?

My wounds don't heal that way
My heart won't heal like that
The things you said that day
Can never be taken back

A straight (ex-)friend of mine said today that he doesn't want to be seen around me cuz he doesnt''t want people to "get the wrong impression." . . . WTF?!? I lied when I told him it was alright, but , I didn't know what else to say to him. I mean, how the hell does one respond to that? I realized waht I should have said afterwards. I don't want to even look at him. My god, how can he be so insensitive? I guess my main problem was that I took him for being so nice, so understanding, and to have all that turned on its head.

Go check me out. But only if you wanna. Also I am making a myqueerspace account. I'll keep y'all posted

Fuck I have no friggin time to follow my own goddam advice and go out. WHat I wouldn't give to have some time to just have fun.

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pm me please.

GOt one of my thingys done. Now only two more to go. DOn't know how I'll get through them.

Tomorrow I hope to have finished all the shit I promised to people. Maybe I can start enjoying myself again. :P

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Please pm me.

Okay, so anyway, I'm in my school library, before homeroom, just surfing oasismag, when this kid I only kinda sorta know, who is sitting next to me, reads some of the titles of the threads, and he is like, "What kind of site is this?" and I tell him, "It's a gay youth site." And I tell him a bit about it and he suddenly asks, in an almost scared manner, "Are you gay?" And I say surprisedly (He doesn't know? How could he not?) "yeah. . ." And the first thing that comes out of his mouth is "Um, I'm straight." And I'm thinkin', *did I ask you?* Regardless, he launches into how "okay" he is with it (like it matters to me whether or not he approves), and how he used to live near San Francisco, and how he used to see tons of gay couples and how he saw the gay pride parade on TV, etc etc.

well, for those who care, me and Dakota have become just friends. It's good that we could be real about our possibilities for the future. SO know I amm his online friend who helps Dakota the best I can. hm.

In other news. . .

men are getting disappointing. WHenever I have feelings for a guy they are never returned, and when guys want me, I don't want them, and even when the emotion is shared, there's always something in the way. WHether it be distancve, or diapproving lesbian mothers (Weird isn't it?), I never seem to get a break. I wish I were a lycan.

Hey y'all, just thought I'd let you know that I am 'officialy' back. I chatted with some friends, but this is my first post since last. My life is still fucked up, but it's getting better :)

THanks to all who commented. . .even you Ty ;)

You are all amazing to me, thanks for caring, you are the stars in my night sky.

Dakota and I have said our goodbyes. My life is spinning out of control from all the commitments I have made to friends and classes. I wish it would stop. I haven't been coming online for the past few days cuz of it. Might not be back for awhile.

I love you Dakota. Wherever you are, I love you. Have a beautiful life. Leave me behind, find happiness elsewhere. Always be yourself, no matter what anyone else says. I love you. You blow my mind.

Okay, yesterday started out pretty bad, I woke up at 1;30 in the morning, AAACCKKK!!! And school was an absolute drag, GRRRRR!! And I went home, slept for like an hour before I was woken up by my little sister who thought it would be hilarious to wake me up with ABBA (I love them, but after such a horrible morning/afternoon, no music would have sounded good), but I had to go to work like right then, and at work, my coworkers from the morning shift had left a TON of dishes that were unwashed, AAARRRRGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!! But I got my coworkers to get in gear, we got done on time, and right afterwards, (i didn't even to stop at home) I went to an EMBER SMITH CONCERT, AND I LOOOVVVEEDD IT!!!! She was soooooo awesome.

Let me save you
Like you saved me

You ended my torture
Eased my darkness
Brought forth my inner light.
You taught me to love.

Come my night and day
I'll carry you so far away
From this world of tears and pain.
We'll find comfort in the gentle breeze
Discover calm in the warming light of the sun.

Let me save you
Like you saved me

You showed me my worth
Brightened my days
Helped me to reaffirm myself.

Just saw this in the news. Same sex couples get ALL (that's right ALL), the same benefits as heterosexual marriages. The only difference is that on the certificate, the union is between party 1 and party 2 instead of bride and groom (this is because they still feel that marriage is between a man and a woman). It also said in the news that straight people CANNOT get Civil unions, which makes me very happy, cuz it makes civil unions OURS!!

Well, back from visiting bro in college. WHat was awesome though, was in the car ride home, me and my dad sang ABBA that was on a tape I found in the car. SOme fathers and sons bond through fishing trips, we bonded over 'Take a chance on me."