GAH!!! somebody, PLEASE post something!!!! i'm sooooooooo bored.

and my mom won't be home for hours.

i can't go out.

i have nothing to do.

ooh!!! i just got an e-mail!!

oh, blech. it's something stupid form my aunt that i just can't care about.

ugh. i'm BORED!!!!!!!!!

i already cleaned my room!!!

i guess i could start taking books down so i can put my new shelf up. haha, i seriously need more space for my books.

oh wait...i don't have the wood to make bookends...fuck!

Hey, so this is really cool to do!! Go on to wikipedia, and type in your birthday (not the year), and read through the info on it to see if anyone you know/admire was born or died on your bday!

so, for mine (being the political junky that i am, lol), the only two people i care about who were born on my bday (march 26) are....

Sandra Day O'Connor, who was the first female US Supreme Court Justice (and who ROCKS!!! check her out on the daily show!!)

lol well, not much of one.

i'm gonna be 18 in less than a month!!!!!!! GAH!!!!!!!

lol

so, pretty much, it's just gonna be a bunch of people (most of em adults, lol), and i want us all to play games all night, and have cake, and do presents (my fave part!! lol) and sing me my song, lol.

and just be surrounded by the people who make up my family, ya know? i wish my aunts could come. i mean, i'll ask them, but..i doubt it. oh well. i'll see them the weekend before, in San Fran, and that'll be my celebration with them.

So, JMY and I are playing this scrabble like game on Yahoo last night (at like 4 in the morning my time, lol), and were're down to the last few letters, and check out what I wrote, TOTALLY unintentionally! lol But seriously, how awesome is that?

BD

PS anyone know how i could embed that so the picture shows in my journal? thanks! ~me

so, i have this crazy idea in my head that i like baths. and i don't. i don't find them relaxing, or comforting, or anything. they're just a pain, they get too cold too fast, or they're too hot, and really? i'm an ADD kid!!! i can't sit still that long!!

but...it's been long enough since my last bath that i'd forgotten all that, so....i tried taking one.

and hated it, of course. couldn't get comfortable. then i did, but my music was too loud. then the water was too hot, and i didn't feel like going through the whole process of adjusting the temp.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD, we had SUCH a great time last night!!! lolz!!!!!!!!!

okay, so, JMY and SML and I were all chatting last night, and we decided to play Truth or Dare...internet style. so, pretty much, for a dare, you had to do stuff online...mostly just on oasis and/or Facebook.

:D :D :D okay, first of all, it was hella fun!!!!!!!!!!

I would invite you to join me in love an appriciation of two of our most valued members.

ShowMeLove, JMY, you are the friends of my heart, the soulmates i'll never have sex with. you make me want to get up and log on in the mornings, and most importantly, you make me laugh.

SML, i remember fondly talking to you about Mass Effect, and how to get your character to kiss a girl. all the long nights we stayed up, talking about this and that, sharing our goals, and our dreams.

well, pretty much we're walking along this dirt path, deep in the forest.

it's beatuiful. birds are singing, a soft breeze is blowing, and it's just cool enough to be comfortable.

the path turns, and suddenly we're out of the forest, and in a high mountain meddow, with tall green grass and beautiful wild flowers.

we keep walking forward, not speaking, until we come upon a bubbling brooke, all clear water and laughing rocks.

we stop, and kneel to drink.

i look over at his round face, enthralled.

he looks up at me...

I. WANT. A. KINDLE.

NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

our fridge is dying. it pumps cold air just fine, but it doesn't hold it. so, 10 minutes after it stops chilling the air, it's warm inside. and stuff doesn't get quite warm enough to go bad, but...it's not staying cold!! if you put your hand in it, it's the same temp as the rest of the kitchen.

only, my parents refuse to do anything about it. not cause we're tight on money (i mean, yeah, we're feeling it, but we've GOT the money), but just cause...i don't know. they're being pissy.

hey, that's the second time i've used that title. fancy that.

gah, i'm having such a bad day!!! not because of anything in particular...i'm just lonely.

and NOBODY is around. Em's off at this thing, which sounds like so much fun, and i'm really happy for her, but, she's not here. and i just saw R, so that's out. plus, the mood i'm in, i don't think i could stand her. and wolf? oh, well, she's not answering her phone, or any of my txts, or anything.

she can always find time for her fucking boyfriend, but her best friend? pssh, just blow HER off. well, fuck you wolf!

i just wanted to say 'thank you' to everyone for your kind words about my poem. obviously i was struck with a moment of eloquence, which has now deserted me, but...thank you.

i hope...i hope that somehow, i DO help, that maybe i make some small difference in at least just one person's life.

and you know i love you all.

BD

if
you're ever in need
call
i'll be there

if
you're ever in pain
tell
i'll make it go away

if
you're ever happy
smile
i'll share your joy

if
you ever need a shoulder
cry
i'll catch your tears

if
you ever need a hand
sqeeze
i'll never let go

if
you ever need a pillow
sleep
i'll guard your dreams

if
you ever need a hug
open
i'll hold you tight

if
your heart is breaking
scatter
i'll catch the pieces

if
you ever need mending
crash
i'll put you together again

if
you are ever falling
reach
i'll catch your hand

if
you ever need a friend

haha, i'm hiding! and JMY is distracting me!

:P perhaps, in a few days, there will be new rubber ducklings to name...

:D

guh, i left my wine downstairs. but if i go, then i'll get roped into conversation, and i'm SO pissed at my mom right now.

but i don't want to talk about it.

there's two people in the 'real world' who post on here who i know...and the first, who introduced me to the site, she gets it.

i'm seriously mad again, and at NOTHING. not a fucking thing!!!

i was SO close to seriously hurting the woman behind me in the line at Safeway today. she was crowding me, and if she hadn't backed off when i glared at her, i was ready to slam her into the wall, if not worse.

i tailgated this idiot all the way home...which i KNOW is stupid, but i wanted to anyway. and it made me happy that it was pissing him off.