have at this. it's hanging in my boss's office. it's creepy as HELL...please, by all means point out how many stupid/untrue things are in here. i count at least a dozen.

A Visitor From the Past
I had a dream the other night, I didn't understand.
A figure walking through the mist, with flintlock in his hand.
His clothes were torn and dirty, as he stood there by my bed.
He took off his three-cornered hat, and speaking low, he said:

"We fought a revolution, to secure our liberty.
We wrote the Constitution, as a shield from tyranny.
For future generations, this legacy we gave.

wow. today was awesome!! i mean, other than the fact that my new boss is a rampant, gun toting, pro life, homophobic, right wing ultra concervative. other than that, he's actually a really cool guy.

dude, he gave me a key on my first day! i mean, wow. lol it's weird...cause he's really not a bad guy, and i can tell he really likes me (not in a dirty/freaky/creepy way), but i can't help but wondering what he'd think if he knew that i were gay.

i am so tired. between being sick, and not getting as much sleep as i'm used to...i'm whiped.

so, i've got the job. which i'm kinda excited about, cause, ya know, it's WORK, and i'll be paid, but...

my boss is ultra conservative. as in, listening to micheal savage on the radio, conservative. it's kinda creepy.

and he's just a little bit smarmy. i dunno. as long as we don't wind up talking politics/morality, i'll be fine. he's not a BAD guy, really, i just don't like him all that much.

i just got offered a job!!! for the very first time in my life!!!

i'm so fucking excited!!! and nervous, too...lol

oh my god!!! this is so freaking amazing!!!

wow. okay, i need to call my shrink, and probably S, too...god, i dunno what to do!! this is all so new and strange!!!

and i'm so tired...lol i was up (on here) til 5am...and now, my tired brain can't even handle coming up with sex jokes.

lol so yeah, i'm freaking excited, and freaking OUT! oh my god!!!

i need to do laundry. but i'm SO tired! gah!

i'm actually going to try to sleep...ha! yeah, that's a good one, bd, tell us another!

love y'all!

BD

LOL i have SEX on my mind.

when reading the title of my previous journal out of the corner of my eye, i read "people aren't coming fast enough".

so yeah! get on with the jacking off! come faster! faster, i say, faster!

BD

so i actually have time to write my own journal. :P

i wear two necklaces (this is relevent, it just takes time to build up to it...yeah, whatever). the shorter one is a walking liberty coin (google it), that was laser cut, so that everything but lady liberty was cut out (and fyi, the green chick in my profile pic...that's lady liberty, snogging blind justice's brains out). it was my grandma's.

much as i enjoy the late night chats i seem to have on here *hugs tim*, i think i'm gonna pass tonight.

i'm getting a nasty cold that my dad had (i really hope not, but i think i am), and i just want to sleep.

sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.....zzzZZZzzzzZZZzzzzZZZZZZzzzzzzZZZZzzzz

so yeah. night, y'all. i'm sure i'll talk to y'all later...i just said 'y'all' twice...not three times, in the same sentence. what does that say about me?

lol

mmk. ttyl.

*hugs all around*

BD

i'm chatting with SML on facebook...i'm talking about how california will always be my home.

i love this state. for all it's flaws, for all the injustice...this is HOME.

i know i haven't traveled much...i've only been to a few other states, but i've been all over CA. mostly northern, but some of so cal, too.

i can identify damn near every bird that lives in the state, can ID most mammals by their scat and their tracks. i know all the trees, all the weather patterns. i know pretty much all of the crops that are grown here, by sight.

yay!!! so, thursday, i'm going to my very first horse show!!! i'm soooo freakin excited. it's gonna be AMAZING. i'll help out as a groom, but i'm pretty sure that most of the time, i'll just be able to wander around...and if not, whatever, right? just BEING there! lol

and then, oh joy, FRIDAY. blech. my aunt Je (other aunt is Ju), and my mom's mom are coming...scary!!! Je is one of the most single-mindedly cluess to the point of being mean people i know. she's a keniving bitch. i can't even describe it...she's just horrible. so yeah, that'll be fun! not.

hey y'all.

i love you dearly, but i'm about to pass out...both from a serious lack of bloodflow, and also cause i've been up for...a long time, and have had a looooooooooooong day.

people SERIOUSLY need to learn how to drive. "oh, look, it's raining! maybe you should TURN YOUR HEADLIGHTS ON."

that wasn't as random as it sounded...

wow...i'm already half asleep.

jmy, tim, adam...i will talk to you all tomorrow.

let me yell and let me scream
let me carry on and cry

don't tell me what to do
don't tell me what i should think

don't patronize me
don't tell me i'm right, or wrong

it's none of your damn business
and if you fucking dare talk to me

i'm gonna give you a piece of my mind
and a punch in the face on the side

i don't give a damn what you think
i don't care that you care

i don't want to be placated
i don't want to be soothed

i want to stop being fucked
i want to start being right

and all your fucking comments don't help
your stupid *hugs* don't make me feel better

i have no right
to be jealous of people
i love
for being happy

i have no right to be
jealous of wolf
for having a friend
a FRIEND
but i am

i have no right!
why do i feel so horrible?
why do i want to throw up
and scream?
there is no REASON!
no reason for this

i have no right...
i should be happy that she has
another friend
who cares about her
who she wants to spend time with
but i'm not...
i have no right

i have no right to be so bloody jealous
of a guy who's with a girl
who i don't even want a chance with
i have no right to want

so...the job market sucks right now! surprise, surprise.

i went looking last week...of all the shops/businesses in downtown, only 1 said he was hiring (the owner's a guy), and he seemed like he might be interested in hiring me, but...if that doesn't work out? i'm totally screwed.

i've already gotten letters from 2 of the CDF stations i applied to...one of them was one of my top 5 picks. rejection letters. saying that since there's no MONEY (haha, that stuff is important, did ya know that?), they're only hiring a few people, and since i have NO experience, i don't make the cut.

bugger. i'm wishing i'd stayed my last night at the campground, instead of coming home. well, kinda. right about now, i'd have been in my tent for about 3 hours, freezing my ass off, and realising that i HAD to pee...so i'd get up, put a hundred layers on, go out into the rain/wind, hike up to the bathroom, pee, come back...you get the picture.

oh, and did i mention that my tent was flooded? so no, i don't wish i were still camping there...but i do wish i were still...not here.