so, whats new with me...hmmm...

my girlfriend and i went to brighton pride (the biggest gay pride in europe). brighton is the gay capital of britiain and it was BRILLIANT!!! its was really sunny and we had sooo much fun. we were with a group of friends and it was generally just cool. we are goin on holiday to russia soon too which will be cool too (although it involves staying with my parents).

talking of my parents... they are getting really good with the whole gf thing. they have both met her and its all good!

thats most of whats been happening... apart from working loads ive just been going out with friends and seeing some shows (the fringe festival is on here so lots going on).

whats new with everyone else???

well ive moved into my new flat and after a week and a half without internet im relieved that the guy came round to install the cable for it today. its proving difficult to set up though. ive managed to get it onto the internet somehow but it wont install all the virgin media stuff and im not even going to attempt setting up the wireless yet.
i have to go to work soon so this is all im really going to write for now, i will do a proper entry once we have the internet sorted.

hmmm been working lots. today was day 5 of 10 days of work i have in a row. i didnt really mean to have 10 in a row - i was meant to have one of those off but one of my jobs needed someone to cover so i said i would.

im really looking forward to thursday cos after i finish work i am going round to my friends house and 4 of us who use to go to school together are hanging out. ive only seen 2 of them once since we all left home and one of them i havent seen for even longer. it should be great! plan is to start of drinking athers then to the pub. maybe their students union (much better than ours you see) then probably on to a club. and im staying at hers so i dont need to worry about buses home later.

ive been with my girlfriend exactly 8 months today which is cool. :D i actually had a brainwave for a painting i really want to do for her but since im really busy and i want to take plenty of time over it i think i will give it to her for our one year anniversary (you see i have been known to take 6 months on paintings before). im going to go and sketch it down now i think though just while its fresh in my head. im gonig to need a cutting board though and some canvas. cant decide whether to stretch my own or just buy a ready done one. hmmm...

im moving in a week and i really need to start packing...

i want your opinions on something...

ive never had anything pierced and i decided a while ago i wanted to get something done. i was originally thinking of getting my belly button pierced but i decided against that, then i thought cartilage but i also decided against that. i want something that will heal quickly as it is my frist piercing.

what im thinking of getting is one ear lobe done but im not sure... im a girl and im not sure if that will seem a bit odd to just get one done. im nearly 19 and my hair is to my chin at the front (big fringe) and short (a centimeter or 2) at the back so the piercing wouldnt be that noticable. i want a curved barbell put into it when/if i get it done.

so what are your opinions on just getting one ear done? im really not keen on 2 ears. also does anyone know if you can get a curved barbell in straight away or if i have to get a stud first?

thanks in advance for your help...

so polling is now officially closed... i want to know who won the election but it wont be annonced til tomorrow morning, plus i dont have a TV so i'll have to try and find time to look it up online. hope everyone voted!

well we cant beat americas awful choice anyway, i dont think that possible! sorry guys but why...

on another note i had an exam today, hoping i did ok in it. ive got another tomorrow which i know absolutely nothing for, i really need to get studying. last one is on monday... then im FREEEEE!!!!!

i cant wait until they are out of the way. i just hope i pass them...

hmmm.

so ive got exams starting on thursday. its starting to really stress me out. ive done lots of work for them but still have lots i want to do and i just cant seem to make myself concentrate. im going to go and do a bunch soon though.

i was just on the phone to my girlfriend. her parents are coming to stay for a few days and she originally wanted me to meet them. she has met my mum and my brother and it all went well (although my brother didnt know she was my gf) she has come out to her mum and she keeps saying her dad knows but she hasnt talked to him about it. so she said i could meet them, then she said her mum said it wasnt a good idea as she hadnt talked to her dad yet. i understand that entirely but she says she isnt going to tell him when they are here. she said she was going to tell him when she was home at xmas but never did. she wants me to go to her home (although stay with her brother not her parents) in summer but she wont see her dad before then so he still wont have been told. i dont know how she expects me to go when she wont even speak to her dad about me.

i met her sister, who she said knew but when i met her she didnt seem to know and then was really off with me when she realised me and my gf were together.

i know its not my place to say she should come out to her parents but it keeps leaving me in awkward positions. ive often met her friends and am introduced as her gf and its the first time they are told as well. am i wrong to be angry about this? its just she always let me think shes completely out and i have always told myself i wouldnt have a relationship with someone who wasnt out.

anyway, what she said on the phone was she hopes her flatmates (2 gay guys) dont kiss in front of her parents when they are staying but i cant see the problem frankly. its thier home, they should be able to kiss there. plus i think it would do her parents good to see it.

sorry this wasnt meant to be sucha long entry.

so i havent posted a journal in about 9 or 10 months but i came on yesterday to post a discussion topic and decided to give you all an update.

not sure if anyone will actually remember me. i used to be quite an active member when i was still at school. im 18 now, living in edinburgh scotland and at uni.

so since i last wrote i have moved away from home. ive been living in halls of residence but im moving in with a couple of friends very soon. ive got a girlfriend who ive now been with for nearly 8 months - its going well, shes great! i have my exams in a week so im kind of freaking about those (although doing anything i can to avoid work). im LGBT president for my uni for the coming year which will be cool - i really want to help people struggling with their sexuality/ coming out.

i feel like ive changed so much. i was always out to everyone at home but i feel like its not evn an issue her - im just completely open. my mum has met my girlfriend and she liked her. i dont really get a chance to write poetry or paint any more which used to be my biggest passions. im not so upset about not writing because i used that when i was going through hard times and i dont need it now that im so happy but paintign is different. i have been painting regularly since i was 4 and i miss it but i cant do it here in halls. i cant wait til i move and can start again.

summer should be fun - me and my girlfriend are both staying in the city for summer. im working in a bar along with 2 other jobs so ill be busy but still get lots of time for fun stuff.

i think thats about everything i have to say. how is everyone? any of my friends/ any one who remembers me still on here?

rowie x

as promised, i will tell you all how my prom went.

first a brief explanation - i was taking this girl as a date. we had once been sort of dating but then it kinda stopped and by the point of the prom i didnt know at all where we stood. so we were slightly more than friends. hmmm.

so we went together and it was a fun night.

the music was ok, the food was rubbish and they wouldnt sell any alcohol - even to the 18 and overs. tsssskkk, stupid school. they only did 3 scottish ceildh dances though, which wasnt enough. really it wasnt set to be a great night, but surprisingly it was alright - a chance to see everyone who we might not see very much now we have finished school.

everyone looked so cool in their dresses and kilts. a few boys wore trousers, not many and no girls wore trousers. i love getting all dressed up :D

me and my date never got any comments shouted at us like i expected - i guess i just get targeted on my own when there arent other people around to stick up for me. some people were whispering and stuff but nothing awful, and i even got some encouraging comments and "good for you"s from people i just kind of know, so basically a good response.

i cant wait until sunday - its our school leavers ball ("prom" to all the americans in the audience :P)

my friend/ more is going with me as my date - although i dont know where thats going. we've kissed and been on a few dates but i dont know if she wants more. ill cross that bridge when i get there. my mum is letting her stay over after - thats a big step for my mother! :)

im really excited but i also know im the first girl to take a girl and i think the boys in the year below me might cause some trouble - they like to do that to me. ill let you all know how it goes!

anyway, better get going - i have to re-paint our bathroom because of an unfortunate hair dying incident yesterday...

heya all, anyone remember me?
maybe not. i used to post here quite a lot but eventually felt i didnt need oasis so much, once i started to be more comfortable with myself. i just thought id check in though and see how all my friends were doing.
ive been having a great time. ive got some really close supportive friends now and ive been accepted to the universities i wanted. ive officially finished school and just have to sit my exams now, then im free all summer. ive dated 2 girls since i last posted, both times ending with me getting hurt, but ive gotten more confident and learnt things about myself so all is good.
how is everyone else?
and just a reminder if anyone needs to talk i remember that feeling well, so im here if you need it. or you can send me a message and ill give you my msn address.

ROWIE XX

im gradually coming on oasis less and less - mainly i just dont feel i need it so much. ive sorted my sexuality out in my head and in my life. everything isnt perfect, but im such a different, stronger person than when i first joined. i finally feel relaxed with myself. im making my life work out and im going to get somewhere. ive got into uni and im determined to work hard and be happy. i know ive still got things to face, parts of myself i havent explored and things ive not come to terms with, but i feel ready to live my life. so i guess what im saying is, bye oasis. i wont be on very much, but you can still message me - ill be in now and again to leave the odd comment and reply to messages. good luck and be happy!

rowie. xx rainbow_rowie@msn.com

...for anyone who has asked me in the past to add me on their msn messenger - mine wasnt working for over 6 months but ive got it working again so anyone who wanted to or wants to speak to me just drop me a message on here and we can arrange it...speak to my friends soon xxxx yey finally after long term message correspondance this feels weird.

the girl i asked out...well i wasnt sure if she just said yes because i put her on the spot and when i didnt see her all week (after i told her id give her my number at school) i thought she might have changed her mind and be avoiding me. i saw her today and asked her if she still wanted to go out some time and she said yes, she seemed pleased and i said, ok i just wanted to check cos i wasnt sure if you still wanted to and she said yea it would be really nice to...she seemed genuinely pleased! so i gave her my number and said maybe we could go out next weekend and that she should text me. so now im hoping for a text...this could be a long week!

i asked the girl out...she said yes!!! ive finished my exams today too and im going out tonight - hopefully have a really good time. im so happy right now, i havent been this happy for a long time. yey!!! *dances*