So today in sociology, we continued talking about deviancy. Nothing gay though today so boo.

So disappointing news, the gay bar fell through and we ended up going to the damn frat party. *shugs* FRAT party just sounds dirty!

I'm going to my first gay bar tonight!! XD !!

One of my best friends came back from Ottawa! spent some time with her and a few others last night, we were talking about good clubs to go to. So I mentioned a gay club that plays good techno, and she said she wanted to! (about a year ago, we said we'd go to gay bars one day!)

Boo.

This is a long entry. I should have probably made this 2 separate entries, but I'm not. HA! The first half talks about my over all academic life (boring), and the second half talks about my gay soc class =)

So, school's kicking my ass. Hard. My social life is all moving away. Everyones gone travelling, or went to uni somewhere else, away from winnipeg. I've made some new friends here and there, but, I donno. It's just not the same. I feel like I've been left behind, and I'm not making any progress. It's rather lonely =( I hate winnipeg. but at the same time, it's home atleast, and my family is here.

In the last two weeks or so of sociology, we've discussed, oh i donno, stuff about society?

I lost my voice from teaching swimming lessons. It sucks, i;ve never lost my voice before. It's actually kind of scary. Every once and a while the thought that it may never come back runs through my head. It's funny, it really is true, that you don't really realise how much you'll miss something until it's gone. Man, I love talking. I really want my voice back already.

Summer went by really fast. I spent my summer in beautiful Lake of the Woods, Ontario, where I was a lifegaurd and counselor. Now I'm back in the city with only 10 days left until my first year of university begins. I'm really nervous! I'm going into science, which basically means that I will no longer have a social life.. . =(

Is it wrong to let take chances vs letting them go by to ensure your own safety?????
cuz' tonight, I took that chance.. .

For the last 2-3 years I've always gone as bi. But lately I just have been feeling really gay. Yet it doesn't feel right saying that I'm a lesbian. That term just seems so wierd and somewhat foreign to me still, don't really know why though... plus, guys aren't all thaat repulsive. Just from the waist down they are...

So, we're pretty much going to grad together =) , as friends of course, which'll be extremly nice. I hope it'll be a bright sunny day. Then on convocation our school jazz band is playing together one last time, which means I get to play my djembe (african conga) =)

So I told one of my really really good friends tonight.

He means so much to me. I told him everything, and he told me the last little bit to his story. This one really ment a lot to me. If there was one boy that asked me to grad, he's the only one I'd say yes too.

So, came out to one more. Not 'kt' though (previous entry). The one guy that I've had suspicions about(being gay) for a while, like 3 years while. Today I asked him if he was gay, he said ya, and that he;s open about it to anyone that asks him. He was like :o, cuz' he said I'm the first gr12 that has asked him(he's in gr11). Gosh we have so much to talk about!

It's obvious that he wants to talk to them. Whether he neeeds to or not, I'm not sure. Regardless, the least I could do is tell his two best friends, who are also real good friends of mine, so that he can talk to someone other than me about stuff.

So, I told an unexpected friend that I was bi, at a not so unexpected time. Not exactly the person I wanted to come out to right now, but it felt ok, and almost needed at the time.