I breathe again and again.
Thank God I can still breathe!
Sometimes when I'm upset,
I just forget;
Wishing I could just breathe you in.

Already wrote you a poem about the
way I fell for the way
that you smell.
You laughed so hard,
you smacked your noggin
against the steering-wheel.

"It's just cigarettes!" - but I don't
even smoke. Then I found myself craving
them every time you were away.

People starving everywhere.
Aging men lose their hair.
Bolemic bodies barely there.
But what can be done?

Little mistakes make large error.
Somehow things end out better.
There's no use in feeling terror.
So what needs to be done?

For there is rhyme in each season.
Shifty tides always have reason.
Luckily loyalty outweighs the treason.
So I try to just have fun.

**I'm selfish and

Today, is the day that we recognize our king! Today is the day that we realize we are no longer alone. Today is the day that we say hallelulia!

"One more thing I'd like to say right now.
Baby, but you just won't let me.
I'd like to say -
Baby, you're so nice...
I'd like to do the same thing twice"
- Bob Marley

I'm so high, but i gotta get down!
I have to try next time she's around.

And now there's this feeling inside of my gut,
Used to think that i was just stuck
in a rut.

But the world started spinning quicker.
It's not just for my benefit.
Are the days just getting thinner?
Or seemingly shorter cause' I'm in it?

Genuine Jocky,
Jocky for her!
Wow how cliche can one be.
That's fine,
seems to fit me.

Only nothing is as it seems -
on the surface
and the words she screams
contradict her eyes;
her face.

And now i'm on the computer.
She's with him.
Am i strong enough for the future?
Can i bear this within?

So I let it out - NOW THE WORLD CAN SEE!
Turning into a computer jock,
seems to fit me.

So, ummm...she's a fantastic friend, beautiful brunette, loving-caring person, and i have stolen an excellent kiss from her. She drives me incompletely insane. Sometimes i'm totally crazy when i think about her. ONly, she's my best friend. Someone i have to see everyday, and in some way, i know she needs me too. She fears losing what we have...i yearn for our friendship to be set on flames.

She doesn't want to live a lie.
I see her stairing into my eye.
the other one just looks ahead
Wonder if I'll ever see her bed?

She knows my heart and how it swells,
I annoyingly tap my foot -
I don't usually get this nervous
when I'm w/ someone I'm always around.

So then i lose my rhyme scheme,
My mind wonders from the thesis-pieces planet.
No point to this insanity; no theme.
I th

Kinda in a weird mood right now.
The wheeze of my lungs fills the air,
like the musical moo of a cow.

It's not that I'm not happy,
for once my poems are bright.
Who knows, maybe just this once,
I, too, can sleep all night**

I grew up not knowing why almost every song has to do with love for something or someone. I always knew that i love my family and friends, but the idea of love was extremely overplayed to me by the media or something. Maybe i just never could identify with the lyrics, stories, etc. until i was old enough. But even when you're "old enough" to pretend to even know what love is, someone's always explaining how it's just hormonoes, or lust or what not...and so i just never paid much attention to my needs in that area. Well, i keep growing up, and i'm not even twenty yet, in a few months i will be, but i think that over the past few years, i've been learning how to let myself feel mushy and that undernieth my casual mood with life, i'm this passionate, nearly crazy girl when it comes to love. I've fallen madley inlove with another girl, who is my closest friend. She knows about my feelings for her and she has even kissed me back on two occasions. She herself has been inlove with a woman before, but for some reason, she is terrified to go there with me. She knows that i've never really been truly intimate with anyone before, though i have had stupid drunken experiences with men around my age, which proved to be nothing more than my own exploration that it was simply my trying to learn what love is. Being intimate with men has never really worked for me. I just don't feel with them anything near what i feel with my friend. Her friendship has been like a breath of fresh air. THe most intimate friendship i've ever had. I love her so much, but she has a boyfriend now and would never cross the line with a girl again - as she has set a boundry and finds that it's wrong..